Us Again | Yoon Jeonghan

Chapter 13

I led myself to Han River. At the Ttukseom Hangang Park to be exact. I intentionally came here since it's already night, meaning there wouldn't be a lot of people around. I wanted to cry my heart out but not in a place where there are lots of people.

I got out from my car and made my way to the stairs, and the moment I took a seat and saw the peaceful waves, tears started to fall.

'It was so dumb of me to think that he would maybe change because of me, but he didn't instead he became worse.'

I wiped my cheeks and bit my lower lip.

'He started cheating...'

It's true that I'm jealous because he already has a girlfriend but meddling on their relationship is the thing that I won't ever do, even if I like him so much that liking someone else could be harder than I thought.

I wiped my eyes using my arms since my palms became wetter.

"Iris?", A familiar voice called me from behind.

'Joshua?...'

"What are you doing here...", He sat beside me and took a look at my face."...crying?...", He pursed his lips while I just stared at him with my watery eyes.

"Why? What's wrong?", He furrowed his brows. He took out a handkerchief from his back pocket and gave it to me.

"I'm sorry..."

"Sorry for what?"

"I'm sorry for lying to you.", I looked down and wiped the tears that falls non-stop with his handkerchief.

"I told you that Jeonghan and I are just friends, b-but no.", I looked at him again, while he just became quiet.

"We had a p-past."

"I know.", My lips parted, while he just faintly smiled at me. Was I too obvious?

"H-How?", My insides started to panic.

"Actually, I still like you Liseu.", My whole body halted, unable to process what he just said.

"I liked you since we were in America. I wanted to tell you but I know that you still couldn't move on from him. I tried to stop liking you but I can't."

No matter how much I try to sink in everything he just said, I still can't believe it.

"I know that now isn't the right time to tell you this, but I don't know when, and I don't how much longer will I be able to keep it."

Joshua's POV

It was another normal day, nothing much to do but just study. Without my friends, I would expect everything to be boring, but I know that I can't do anything about it.

While walking through the halls. Suddenly a girl came right infront of me with a surprised face.

"Jeonghan?", She muttered almost whispering.

'Jeonghan? My friend?'

"Excuse me?", I waved my hand infront of her face. She blinked for a moment, and later widened her eyes.

"I'm sorry!", She bowed several times before looking at me again.

"I didn't mean to bother you. I thought you were someone I know.", She pulled out a faint smile and bowed again for the last time before walking past me.

"Hi.", I sat across her while she just looked ate me confusedly.

"Oh, you were the guy from yesterday.", I just smiled at her and nodded.

"I'm sorry... again."

"No, it's okay. But are you alone?", I pointed the table. We are inside the cafeteria and when I walked inside, she was the first thing that I saw.

"Yes...", She took a bite of her sandwich. I chuckled when she looked at me halfway through her bite.

'She's cute...'

Yes, it's just the second time that I saw her but I think I have already fallen for her. Cliché, but I think it's what I truly feel.

"Joshua."

"Hmmm?"

"Do you know how to solve this?"

We are both in the library, studying. It has been more than a year since Iris and I met, and now that we have met for a long time, we grew more closer.

But I have never asked her about Jeonghan nor casually brought it up just to not make her uncomfortable.
I didn't doubt that it was Jeonghan she's referring to since I heard her clearly, she's from Seoul where Jeonghan is too, and Jeonghan and I have been told many times that we look alike.

It has been six years, six long years of being friends with her and hiding my feelings from her, I never wanted to confess because I'm scared that she'll ignore me after I'll say everything that I feel towards her. I thought telling her my feelings is hard but hiding it, is way more harder.

She became a chef while I ended up as a doctor. After three years of her being a chef in a restaurant here in L.A., she decided to go back to Korea to have further knowledge about Korean cuisines there. I didn't stop her since it was her dream, instead when we had a two weeks vacation, I followed her there in Korea.

I'll give her time to move on from him, and when she finally does I'll confess to her.

But I don't think it'll happen, now that I'm seeing them together every night outside her restaurant. Jeonghan would always wait for her, and when he sees her about to go out, a smile would quickly plaster on his face.

When I saw them talking to each other, I knew that my chances were blurry and the only thing that I could do is to move on.

I was sitting on the stairs, and just stared at the peaceful waves, hoping that it will drift away my burdens too.

Suddenly a familiar lady soullessly walked past me, and the moment she took a seat, she loudly cried.

'How can he let her cry like this?'

I knew that it was her, after knowing her for more than six years, how can I not.

In an unexpected place, time and moment. I told her everything. The thing that I have been afraid to tell her even until now.

If he can't wipe your tears now, I can lend a hand kerchief.