Us Again | Yoon Jeonghan

Chapter 8

"Hey! What are you thinking so deeply?",I snapped out from my thoughts when Ari suddenly whisper shouted in my ear and tapped my shoulder making me flinch a little.

"You've been spacing out ever since we came back here."

I don't know how long have I been sitting here on my bed and how long have Ari watched me spacing out, I don't even remember how I got inside here.

Ever since Jeonghan told me about what happened to him three years ago, I couldn't stop thinking of it. Like I somehow regretted everything I did six years ago. He must've been really lonely, and no one was there to comfort him.

I suddenly have the urge to maybe, go see him, to give him the comfort that he didn't receive when he needed it the most.

"Hey! Where are you going? Why aren't you saying anything?", She looked up to me with a confused look when I suddenly stood up.

"I'll be back, okay?", I walked to the door and opened it to go out.

I swear I didn't drink and am completely sober, but I think I'm loosing my mind.

I first went to Seokmin's room to ask him on what room is Jeonghan in, and it's a good thing he knows but he did looked at me weirdly when I suddenly asked him that out of the blue.

'Room 104'

My room is number 117, so I have to take the elevator to go to his room.

While I was walking on the halls, thoughts started to take over my mind again.

'At least do this for him.'

'Once again, I want to follow my feelings, my heart. Though I may look desperate but can't I be just for once?'

'I didn't know since when did I like you this much for me to this.'

I took a deep breathe before knocking on his door, I just hope that he's here and if he's here at least he would just open the door.

My heart started to beat uncontrollably when I hear footsteps coming towards me, and when he opened the door, there he is, here's my heart again and me who has fallen for him all over again.

"Liseu?", I expected him to be surprised and he is. I faintly smiled at him. "Why are you h-here?", I still couldn't answer. His face feels surreal right now, like I wasn't used to it but at the same time I am.

"Are you lost?", He asked again and this time, I shook my head. He would weirdly think of me if I keep being in dazed now.

"No, I'm not."

"Then why are you here? Are you drunk? You know you shouldn't walk around here drunk, I know and you do know that there's a lot of perverts here, right?", He chuckled after, but I could only care less.

The times when he wanted to laugh or smile like this, he couldn't as he lacks company that until now I still feel so sorry.

"I'm sorry...", I said under my breath but I made sure that my voice was enough for him to hear it clearly.

"What for?", He raised his brows as he straightly looked at me in the eye.

"I'm really sorry...", A tear streamed down my cheeks, leaving him look more confused, but he didn't utter a single word and I could feel that he was waiting for me to continue. "For leaving you and for not being with you when you needed someone the most.", His looks immediately changed, his eyes softening and his face becoming more relaxed, one that is with a smile.

"You could've find someone when you had time, so she could comfort you and help you get through it all.", Though those words I just said hurts, I still wanted to say it, to maybe help him be comforted.

"But now that you don't have any, maybe? I'm here to comfort you, to make it up for the times when you had no one, so I'm here now, you can say it all, you can cry when you want to, just know that my shoulders are ready for you to lean on.", I smiled at him but he wasn't, instead he's breathing became heavy making his shoulders move up and down and his eyes, they were dilated and at the same time it was moving up and down, looking like he wanted to do something but it's against his will.

"Oh and I wanted to te-", my eyes widened when he suddenly smashed his lips into mine, his right hand on my cheeks, caressing it and one on my waist, pulling me more closely to him that I could really feel my cheeks heating up.

His kisses were a bit sloppy as I was still not responding, but he didn't stop, instead, he pulled me even more, him, walking backwards for us to fully get inside his room, he closed the door behind me and slowly pushed me there making my back hit it.

This feeling, I never expected this to occur but it was something I longed for. His kisses, though this is our second, it still felt new for me. I wanted to push him away but my whole body is not listening to me, like it wasn't my own and every bit of me was on strike when I want to let go of him, but I know myself, that deep inside me, I didn't want to, that just maybe for tonight I can be desperate and want to feel him more.

As slowly as ever, I closed my eyes and returned his kisses, and the moment I did, I felt him smile in between.

His kisses felt so intoxicating that letting was no longer on my will.

As time went on our lips were already in sync and now both of his hands are on my waist while mines are clinged onto his neck, he pulls me more closer deepening the kiss, but later broke it when we both were already out of breaths.

He rested his forehead on mine and looked at me again straight in the eyes still with his dilated ones, our eyes were both in contact for awhile but I was already melted by his stares halfway through it.

"How can I look for someone else when you're still there.", He huskily said before stitching his lips on mine once again, and I gladly accepted it. I'm lying if I say that I don't want any of this because I do, and I'm afraid there's no way out anymore.

His touch is making me electrified all over that letting him go was the last thing that I want to do at the moment.

I gasped when he suddenly walked backwards but still pulling me, he turned us around and I could feel his soft bed touch my legs. He broke the kiss, lay me on his bed and pinned me against it while my hands are on his chest.

"I still love you, Liseu."

'still?...'

As much as I want to believe that I heard it right but I don't want to, it's just maybe my assumptions or am I hearing things or what.

'Yoon Jeonghan, the guy that I've always liked. Did he cast a spell on me, that unliking him seems so hard and that he's always giving me wills to fight for him and follow my feelings...

It's amazing how I like you so much...'