In the midst of those happiness, there is still a storm. My grandma was attacked again with her illness and has to be diagnosed in the hospital, I was so afraid that maybe it was already the time that I've feared the most, so I stayed by her side not minding anything but just her.
I managed to go to school when grandma persuaded me to, I didn't want to but I just couldn't resist her being insistent, and for that one day I found out that Yerin had been bullying Liseu for days, I was so caught up with my grandma on those two days that I couldn't do anything for her.
The day my grandma got discharged, I came to her apartment to apologize for what Yerin did to her because of me but she was upset, she let out her feelings which I was kind of relieved, I'm glad that he could finally let go of the burdens inside her and that would normal couples will do right? That thought somehow made me happy inside.
The next day at school, I confronted Yerin to stop bothering Liseu, it was a little hard but she still agreed in the end. I was feeling a little sorry for her that she had to do something like that for love, for me.
Unfortunately, I couldn't talk to her for days, it was really a coward of me which I wasn't normally, I wasn't this shy to talk to someone before.
But at that moment when she was now the one who came to me, I didn't expect any of those things she did, even the saying sorry for what she didn't do.
And the thing that made me fall for her even more, yes, I realized that I do like her that for many reasons I didn't want to break what we are.
When I saw her look so flustered when she saw me wake up, when she was so close to me, she was really cute that day that I wanted to keep her, and she's the first person to make me feel like this.
The last day came and I didn't want it to be one, ending it was long erased on my plans.
"Hey uhm-, about the deal.", I started while she was still caressing her forehead from bumping at my back but her hand immediately dropped the moment I dropped those words. "If you do-"
"A-ah, I was about to brought it up. We can now end it here, right?"
'... don't want to end it...'
I wanted to tell her those words but I couldn't, instead... "Whatever you want..."
'How can I tell grandma, when I couldn't accept it too...'
'How can I give Yerin a chance when you're the one I love...'
Things I wanted to say but my mouth were shut close as if it was stitched, I wanted to hold her back so badly and give her the warmest embrace that I could give but I couldn't move an inch.
For days all I could think of was her, my grandma already knew that we already broke it and I could tell that she was disappointed, she was really happy with Liseu's company but I was the one who broke it.
Three years later, for that very long time, I still couldn't move on from her though it was all fake, the relationship and even the break up but the pain is still torturing me and the pain of loosing grandma added up. She passed away when I still can barely keep myself up, her death made a huge impact in our family that my mom, her daughter, also got weak to the point that she got hospitalized for days.
The moment I graduated college, Dad already passed me his position, he wanted to take care of Mom which left me to manage a big company in an early age.
I was really busy being a CEO that all my attention was only with the company, but for countless nights, she would still come up to my mind like a beautiful memory.
For three years, I managed to keep the business up and going, and was even recognized as one of the most successful people in an early age.
One day, my friends invited me to go with them on a alumni, I didn't want to go as the company's still busy but with a lot of persuading, they successfully persuaded me to go with them and have fun, and it was something that I could do at the very least, for years I didn't get to meet them that much that I don't even know how they're doing or what kind of jobs do they have.
I was really late that I had trouble finding them because there were a lot of people, while I was busy looking for them, someone bumped into my chest and it instantly reminded me of her, and for a very short time I hoped that it was her.
I thought I was hallucinating or what, but I wasn't. It was her, the clumsy girl she is who bumped into me again. I just knew that it was her, I could tell by the way she acts though she did looked kind of different, she cutted her hair short and her body looked really slender because of the fitted dress she was wearing.
But before I could say anything she quickly looked down and went away without a single word.
I learned from Seokmin that she already owns a restaurant and after knowing that, eventhough I have tons of work to do, I managed to finish most of them just to go see her, but the moment she saw me, she quickly went away again.
But it's okay, I kinda understand why she's trying to avoid me, because of what I did in the past.
The day came when my friends, again, persuaded me to go with them and said to have some fun when they clearly know that I'm really busy.
I was sitting in the bar's counter alone, they were all having fun and I was just there sitting with lots of deep thoughts, I purposely planned on not drinking any alcohol just incase something urgent happens at the company.
But in the midst of drowning myself, someone sat beside me, she was someone familiar, and when I get to see her face clearly, all the thoughts I had in mind quickly vanished.
She tried to run away again, which what she did for the past days and for those days I was a coward for not pulling her back but now I successfully did.
The whole conversation with her that night comforted me more than anything, and I knew she was the only one who can when grandma passed away.
'I'm relieved that you finally came back, that I think going through this mess wouldn't be so bad when you're here.'
[End of Flashback]
I woke up as the cold breeze from the AC brushed through my body, I pulled the blanket up to my shoulder to cover my shirtless body, but it wasn't because we did it yesterday. It was because it was hot in the middle of the night so I took off my shirt, and just my shirt.
I wonder when did she woke up? How and when did she got out from my room?
A sudden smile crept on my face. Her kissing me back yesterday was more than enough reason to know that my love is requited.
'I badly wanna go to her right now...'
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Us Again | Yoon Jeonghan
Fanfictiona story about pretend relationships, love, and regrets.