Us Again | Yoon Jeonghan

Chapter 17

I don't know what could possibly be complicated to what's happening to me at the moment than everything that I experienced before. It's my situation but I don't have any idea on how I should solve or just even cope with it.

I didn't even know that I'll get to have this kind of stage in my life.

First, I confessed my feelings to Jeonghan and what I got as an reply is that he has been waiting for me all this time which is way more far from my most wildest imaginations.

Second is Joshua, my friend who've I known for almost six years, told me that I'm special and that I hold a special place inside his heart!? I thought that would only happen if all the things gets opposite?

Believe me, I don't want to overthink any of this but my subconscious mind won't leave me alone. As if it's starting to hunt me and all. It's all in the back of my head and it won't seem to leave.

Yes, being romantically inlove is a great thing, but when it gets out of hand, I doubt that a mere person like me could handle it, and the first thing that I would probably think of is on how to disappear completely and never be found.

"How to disappear completely and never be found?", I uttered under my breath and sighed after.

"What?", Ari looked up from her phone and confusedly stared at me.

"Nothing...You didn't hear anything from what I just said, right?"

"Not a thing. I was busy scanning through my phone that I just kinda like heard your voice but didn't understand any word you just said.", She briefly chuckled before tending her attention back to her screen.

Ari purposely came here to spend some time with me, eating here in my restaurant with my own cooked food, but we haven't talked that much and it has already been more than half an hour as she has been on her phone for the whole time.

"Okay, just enjoy your food."

"Yess~", she replied cheerfully but her eyes was still on her screen. I just sighed, with a forged smile, and just took a mouthful of pasta and munching it soullessly while tapping the left pasta on my plate with the fork.

Suddenly thoughts popped up inside my mind again and I hate it when it does happen, it's my mind but I'm in no control of it, and the reason why I dislike it so much is that it's him, Yoon Jeonghan. I shouldn't be thinking of him again and again when I don't even have answers in the end.

It has already been almost three months since he left and I don't know when he will come back, yet when he does I don't even know what will happen.

If I really really knew that this would happen, maybe getting bullied by him instead back then would be better, that way I would hate him and...

Not fall even more deeply in love with him like this!!

"Are you okay?", I quickly tend my eyes at her when I heard her spoke.

Then I realized, my hands were on my hair and my teeth were gritted. Am I really overthinking so much that I unconsciously did those things?

"Y-Yes...", I faked a coughed. "I-uh- I was just r-ruffling my hair because it has alot of grease f-from earlier.", I started ruffling my hair for a moment before fixing it afterwards and straightened my seat and posture.

"I know you weren't!", She plastered a cheeky smile on her face which left me anxious. I gulped and prepared myself for what could she possibly say. I mean, I did tell her that I like Jeonghan, but it was six years ago and I've haven't told her the things that has been happening between us now. I just don't have enough courage to tell someone or anyone this mess I'm trying so hard to cope up with.