different; marter

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matt
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"Yeah, I know.. I was there." I laugh.

"I ughhmmm I'm tired." he slurs. "Well go to sleep bb." I tell him. He wraps his arms around me. "Goodnight, Matty"

"Goodnight Daddy." I say closing my eyes.

No ones called me Matty since 2nd grade. I use to hate it when people called me that but when Carter does it, it's different. I like the way it sounds coming out of his mouth, and when he says it my heart does flips.

I lay they there motionlessly for maybe an hour just thinking about Carter, and why he would want me. Or if he even wants me. Maybe he just wanted to fuck me and then be done.

"Matthew Lee Espinosa I'm falling in love with you." Carter whispers quietly. I thought this nigga was sleep.

"Everything that falls breaks."

"Fuck" he breaths "I thought you were asleep.."

"I can't sleep." I say. "Leaves fall from trees in autumn, but they don't break." he argues.

"You're right. They don't break. They fall, then rot, then wither because their source cut them off, and-" Carter cuts me off. "But that's not gonna happen, I'm not like that!" Carter says slightly above a whisper. "I know you aren't.. you seem nice but I'm not a good person." I say.

"I think you are."

"There's a lot of stuff you don't know about me." I disagree.

"Like what? You aren't suicidal are you? Are you o-" I cut him off "Please don't ask me if I'm okay, cause might do something stupid like open up to you."

"But please Matt. I just wanna know can't you just like briefly tell me why?" He begs. At this point were both sitting up.

"Well I shoot heroin, I smoke weed, I'm depressed, my moms a fucking dead beat, I have to keep 4 jobs just to pay the bills, and everyday I wake up hoping to die. Good enough?" I sigh. "h-heroin?" He stutters. "Yep that's why I'm so white and skinny."

"Matt you could die.." He says looking concerned. "Oh really? Goals." I say smiling sarcastically. "I'm serious."

"I can't believe I just noticed the purple veins under your eyes and your arms... Matt you're sick. you need to go to the hospital." He says. "I'm fine." I lie. "No you aren't lets go."

He stands up and walks over to his drawer and pulls out sweatpants, putting them on. I quickly slip on my underwear before jumping out of bed. "Carter we can't go to the hospital, I'll go to jail or they'll send me to rehab! Please I swear to god I'll never do it again just don't make me go to the hospital!" I plead. "Do you have any with you?" He asks. Of course I have some with me I can't leave the house with out it.

I shake my head.

"You're lying, just give it to me." He says. I go over to my bag and pull out a little bottle and an injecting needle. I walk over to Carter and hand it to him.

He takes the bottle and walks into the bathroom, motioning for me to follow.

He opens the bottle and pours out the dark green liquid in the sink, making sure every drop goes down the drain. "You're too cute to be doing drugs." he says kissing my forehead.

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SORRY THIS WAS SHORT & SHITTY💞