Memories (haikyuu : Iwaoi)

Part 18

Walking back Oikawa had lied and said he had something to do at his house and began to walk in the opposite direction

Waving goodbye oikawa slowly made his way home

Opening the front door her walked in and took off his shoes, turning to lock the door

Making his way toward the kitchen he pulled out a pan and began to make himself dinner

The kitchen window was open allowing the cool night breeze to brace his face

His fingers trailed the lines on the wall as his food began to cook just next to him

He thought about how he was going to survive the rest of the week knowing collage still as bad as when he left

Oikawa shut his eyes thinking about what iwaizumi had said earlier

Sighing Oikawa finished making his food and sat down to eat

But wind up never eating the food and left it on the counter making his was toward the bathroom

He looked at himself in the mirror and began to silently cry

Look at yourself

They're right about everything

You don't deserve Iwaizumi

Your only holding him back

If you left he would be able to do the things he's wanted to do

And he would be able to do them freely

Without something bound to the earth hanging on

Oikawa slid down the wall and put his head on his knees

The world can be a scary place, and in oikawas terms

The world IS scary

There's no in between

The world hates him and he hates the world

He didn't hate the things in the world he hated the concept

Of living on a giant rock marching toward death

But it wouldn't be so bad if you were to cut it short

Oikawa opened the drawer and spotted a razor

He didn't touch it thought he just thought about it

How he used to use it daily in high school

Those flashbacks made him shut the drawer and stand up

Wiping his tears he reached for the phone

To call iwaizumi

But he pulled back and lied on his bed

Ignoring all urges to call iwaizumi

You'll just bother him

You've done nothing to help him

You've only created more problems for him

Your just another issue to him

Your nothing

With those thoughts Oikawa drifted off to sleep

Having that nightmare once again

Except something was different

That animal now was clear

Identifiable

It was a bird

With big and beautiful wings

He was in aw at the sight of something so beautiful

That sight almost made him forget the inevitable

The chains clasped around his ankles and dragged him back under

Sight of any light became dim

And he slowly lost breath

And woke up

Sitting in bed he looked at the time 3:27am

Laying his head on the pillow he tried to go back to sleep but he couldn't catch a wink of sleep

Getting up he pulled out his phone and scrolled social media

Looking at the time once again

5:42am

Not quite the time he's supposed to get up but rather the only thing he can do at the moment

So putting on his clothes and gathering the stuff he needs for practice

Oikawa made his way to the front door

Not even bothered to eat anything

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Hey there people

I want to give you guys a nickname

So I've collectively decided on something quite simple

You guys will now be referred to as ✨rugrats✨

I like the rat aspect so there

Anyway that's it for today's update

See ya!
-rat 🐀