The Boys Who Didn't Last the Night

Revolution vs R

Grantaire's POV

"Enjolras I love you."

Enjolras stared at me like what? He just stood motionless not knowing what to do or say. My hands started sweating as I stared at Enjolras' blond curls his hair looked beautiful as always. 

Enjolras stared at me I wonder what he was thinking because this was getting awkward for me

Enjolras' POV

There I stood hearing Grantaire's words,"I love you,"

Shit

Damnit

What do I say?

Am I suppose to respond to him?

Gotta think of a responce but what?

Got it Grantaire you are very as fuck and yeah sure dude we can try it

Whoa what was I thinking?

Hmmmm what do I tell him? I was Ferre was here he would know what to say. I want to tell Grantaire I feel the same way but how?

Wait I can't love him I am running a revolution. That needs all of my time and not putting it into some idiot drunkard. Revolution comes first, for the people and France. I love my country and right now that needs to be number 1 in my life and nothing else.

But R! He can be a total dick sometimes and be a total pain in the ass but there is something about him that makes me wonder. He is a mystery to me and I don't understand him so I don't know what to do. What if he is lying to make this all one big joke. But what if he isn't?

I need an answer come on Enjolras think! What about I like you too but you need to come second.

That sounded like something an asshole would say, nope not saying that.

France first, Grantaire second.

So do I tell him that I love him but not as much as him?

Things like love confuses me, that why I love France so much know exactly what will happen and no surprises. Dating Grantaire will be hard, confusing, switching back and forth, and just have to handle his smell. He smells horrible because he drinks so much and smokes so much he reeks of it, its that kinda smell you either want to throw up because of it or stick your nose on it to smell it more. 

Grantaire, I really do love him but will I have time for him with the revolution? I have so much planning and doing things for people and have a boyfriend on top of it, I don't think I would be able to make sure both things are good and going well.

Having a relationship takes up a lot of time and planning a revolution takes up even more time but then again I would be dating Grantaire and he takes all the time in your day away. For him he thinks life is nothing and just drink your problems away. 

Grantaire believes in nothing, he doesn't belive in the revolution in anything. He thinks who cares let other people deal with the shit that is happening and hope that it goes away and doesn't think of the problems that comes with that or he does and just drinks it away to forget.

I gotta say an answer to him because well I can't keep standing here thinking and he is still staring at me with his huge eyes full of pain sadness and tiredness. He is always so drunk he never actually sleeps just passes out drunk. There is a difference why he first started drinking and not dealing with his problems is a mystery to everyone. 

Ok Enjolras take a deep breath and just tell him, I can do this. Yes you can Enjolras you can do it.

Damnit I am talking to myself

I sighed then said,"Grantaire, I love you too but I can't promise you a healthy relationship because I can't put all of my time into you. I have a revolution to run and right now it needs all of my time which means I don't have time for a relationship. I am sorry Grantaire, but if you really want we can try to do it but I won't be able to give you 100%."

Grantaire looked like he was picked up and thrown down, he looked crushed then he said softly,"Enjolras, if you don't like me then just tell me and don't lead me on. If this is some kind of joke it isn't funny."

I sighed rolling mt eyes then said,"no you idiot I really do like you, this isn't a joke. But if we do start a relationship it needs to stay quiet and no one can find out about it."

He looked at me with his confused look, he does that look a lot, then he said in a stronger voice,"I do want to start a relationship, but why must it stay a secret?"

I thought for a moment then said,"if the rest of the Les Amis knew about us dating they would never be able to focus during meetings and rallies because they would be like aww kiss kiss kiss! nothing would get done so that means we have to keep it a secret."

Grantaire chuckled then said,"i think you mean that Courfeyrac wouldn't be able to focus."

I rolled my eyes at the drunk and said harshly,"and if he can never focus he will cause everyone else to not focus."

Grantaire thought for a moment then said,"true, he would never shut up about it then everyone else would join in."

I nodded like dude sersouly I just said that you don't need to repeat me. He can be really annoying at time but he is my boyfriend now so I am going to have to deal with it. I looked at Grantaire his face full of joy and happiness. I smiled softly at him seeing how happy he was but he looked awkward like he didn't know what to do.

I sighed after a while of us just staring at each other then said,"well I should be getting back to my work for the revolution. You should go, how about come tomorrow so we can do something togheter?"

He nodded his head quickly and walked away so I closed the door.

Grantaire's POV

YES! WE ARE DATING