The Boys Who Didn't Last the Night

Jehan's Secret to Love

Jehan's POV

The most amazing thing happened today, I saw two people fall in love. I was walking home from one of our meetings and as I was walking I saw this couple and they looked so happy together. I wish Courfeyrac would ask me out but I don't think he feels the same way about me so I won't bring the topic up with him. It is all very confusing it is like he flirts with me but then he runs off with some girl and it confuses me very so.

The children around here seem so sad and that makes me sad, I want to win this revolution for the children so maybe one day they will be happier and have a better childhood. I look around these streets of France and see sadness. I wish I could help everyone but I can't, no matter how hard I try there will always be someone out there who is sad and I can't do anything about that.

Grantaire asked me for help on getting Enjolras' attention, this will be a challenge because well Enjolras is so stubbern and only cares about the good for France. How can you get someone to love when they always have their head held high thinking always about freedom and never thinking about love? Enjolras is like that person who seems scared to love, I can tell he loves because everyone loves something but getting that person to say what they love is the hard part.

For me I love everything so it is easy for me to open up to people but Enjolras hides his feelings hoping no one notices that he has feelings. Then there is Grantaire who tries hiding his feelings by getting drunk, he hopes that if he gets drunk he will forget about the pain of Enjolras not loving him. He is taking the wrong path but he finally asked me for help so of course I had to say yes or he would never get Enjolras to open up and love him.

I met up with Grantaire at my place, he was sitting at the table and I was sitting across from him, he looked nervous. I sighed and Grantaire asked,"do you have any wine we can have?

I sighed and said to him,"I thought you came here to get help on getting Enjolras to open up and tell you he loves you."

Grantaire's eyes widened and he asked excitedly,"do you think he loves me? But how could he love me? He is the leader of the revolution!"

I sighed again because this was going to be harder then I thought, if Grantaire doesn't even know his feelings for Enjolras well enough it won't be easy and because he seems to have no confidence in his feelings...... Damn it ok fine you got me, I am just like Grantaire with my feelings about Courfeyrac but right now I am helping Grantaire not my feelings about Courfeyrac. I looked at him and asked,"do you know what love is Grantaire? If you do then you need to be confindent in it and tell Enjolras exactly how you feel about him and don't keep it hidden from him."

Grantaire bit his lip nervously and said,"I do know what love is, or at least I think I do... But it isn't easy trying to open up to Enjolras because whenever I try to he pushes me away so he can work on the revolution instead of talking about it. He seems like he knows I am about to bring up the topic of my love for him and he quickly pushes me away."

I thought for a moment because I would sometimes do the same thing to Courfeyrac, he would seem like he was about to tell me that he likes me and I would panick and quickly change subject. I looked at Grantaire and saw the hurt in face and wondered did Courfeyrac feel the same way when I would push him away?

I pushed those thoughts out of my head and finally said,"you need to keep trying Grantaire, don't give up and maybe soon Enjolras might listen to what you have to say. Maybe one day he will be taking a short break from working and right then you could talk to him about it because then he can't use the excuse to work to keep you from saying what you have to say."

Grantaire nodded his head and said joyfully,"that is a great idea, get him when he is taking a break I will remember that next time.... But what do I say to him? I can't walk up to him and say hey Apollo I like you want to go out?"

I looked at him confused and asked,"and why can't you do that?" I would do anything for Courfeyrac to just open up like that, quick and to the point so we both don't get awkard and change the topic away from us both liking each other.

Grantaire shrugged and said,"I don't know I feel like he wouldn't say yes if I came out that strong and he would get nervous and ran away from me and never talk to me again. Enjolras isn't like most people Jehan, he pushes away whenever the topic love comes up."

i sighed knowing he was right, even before the revolution topic came up Enjolras never did like anything to do with love, he always ignored the girls that would have crushes on him. He is a very good looking man and I can tell why Grantaire likes him for look reasons but his personality isn't like his looks. Enjolras is tough, he is very intimidating, he doesn't take no for an answer, and he can sometimes not be the nicest person.

But don't get me wrong Enjolras can be a good guy I mean he is starting a revolution so everyone can be equal and he doesn't look down upon the poor. He wants the poor to have more rights and he wants to help everyone which in my opinion is great.

This won't be easy for Grantaire to get Enjolras to open up to him about love and I know Grantaire knows that also but he seems determinded to get Enjolras to open up to him so I will help Grantaire in any way I can.

I bit my lip trying to find a way to help Grantaire to get Enjolras to open up and then finally said,"you need to get more alone time with him, get closer to him so then when you tell him that you have feelings for him it won't be as big of a shock. Kind of bring the topic up slowly and be gentle with everything you do because if you move too fast Enjolras will back out and not want anything to do with the whole love thing."

He nodded his head and then chuckled and said in a mocking voice,"the whole love thing."

I gave him a look like really? then said,"Grantaire, be serous right now. What we are talking about is serous so stay in a serous way and don't make jokes out of something that shouldn't be."

Grantaire's smile faded and he nodded his head and said softly,"right ok, no more jokes."

I rolled my eyes..... What the hell what is wrong with me?! I have been so moody lately, maybe that is why Courfeyrac hasn't asked me out yet because I sacred him off with my mood swings! No, no, no, no this can't be happening to me. Ok I need to focus and help Grantaire out because he needs my help.

I sighed and tried to contain myself and said,"Grantaire, just be yourself and show Enjolras who you are and he will fall in love with you. Don't make in complicated because you don't want love to be that way, love is simple and all you have to do is be yourself and the other person will fall in love with you. You don't need to worry about the person not falling in love with you because if you stay true to yourself the person will love you but maybe not the person you expected would fall in love with you. Your true love might not be Enjolras, it might be someone else out there you just don't know what could happen yet because it is all in the future."

He thought about all that I said, then he finally said,"No, I want my love to be Enjolras and I will do anything for him to love me back. I won't fall for anyone else because I already know my love of my life and that is Enjolras. I am ready I am going to go tell him how I feel and I won't let him get distracted with his work, I will make him listen to me!"

I smiled and said,"Go to him and tell him how you feel and don't leave a single word out of it!"

He nodded his head then ran out and ran towards where Enjolras is, I am so proud of him I wish I could do the same thing.