Into You : MONDEJAR SERIES 2 (COMPLETED)

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        DARATING yung araw na masasabi mo na lang na, kaya pala hindi binigay ng Diyos sakin kasi mas maganda yung plano niya. Hindi ko alam kung sa mga mata ng iba ay hindi ito maganda dahil illegal ang ginagawa ni Calvin. Kahit saang sulok mo man tignan ang mali ay mananatiling mali.

    Pero sa mga mata ko isa si Calvin sa mga magandang bagay na dumating sa buhay ko.

      

      Handang-handa na akong maging madre, handa na akong pagsilbihan ang Panginoon hanggang sa mamatay ako. I knew that it was what I wanted. But then Calvin took me away and everything changed.

    It's very easy to fall in love, easy to find someone to hold. The hard thing is making it work, making it last and making it worth remembering. Love isn't finding a perfect person, it's seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

      I thought Calvin is perfect, he has it all. To the face, the body, the wealth, plus his talent. Very perfect. Kumbaga sa exam na one hundred items ay 100 over 100 siya. Perfect score. Pero hindi pala. He does illegal stuffs na hindi ko masikmura noong una. I don't like the thought of him killing, or nagbebenta ng droga.

        I hate people doing those bad stuffs. Isang kasalanan iyon sa Diyos, all my life I have been a good religious girl. I always choose what's good for something that isn't. Ang mali ay mali. Hindi kailanman maitatama ang mali.

      Bago ako umalis noon. Pumunta muna ako sa kumbento. At that moment I really needed some advice and I thought of Mother Superior. She's the closest I have as a family. I confess everything to her. I told her everything, even the baby. That I live in a house with a bad man and made me believe that we're married.

"Remember that when things don't go according to plan, they go according to truth, Francine. No matter how painful the reality is, it is reality nonetheless. There is dignity in facing the truth without trying to cut it down to a more manageable size. There is honour in acceptance."

      Mother Superior then left. Hindi niya man lang ba ako sesermonan o sasabihin na lumayo ako kay Calvin?He is afterall a bad man, a mafia. Is she saying that I should accept him? Kahit mali ang ginagawa niya?

     It took me months to realize what Mother Superior said. I smiled. Umabot man ng taon bago ako naging handa, alam kong sa pagkakataon na ito hindi na ako aatras pa. Being with Calvin is not only the thought that I love him kaya ko siya binalikan. It's more of bumalik ako kasi handa na ako at tanggap ko ang mundong kinagagalawan niya. Ayoko rin namang lumaki si Sebi na walang amang nakakagisnan.

     

       It's an awful experience that both of your parents aren't with you when you grew up. Ayokong maranasan ng anak ko ang naranasan ko. I want Sebi to have that complete family that I never experienced.

And speaking of Sebi.

"Mama!"

"Wag kang tumakbo, Sebi." pagsisita ko. Pawis na pawis ang likuran ng anak ko, halata kasi sa grey shirt na suot niya.

"Asan ba sila Daddy mo?" tanong ko sa kanya. Sa kanila ko kasi binilin si Sebi habang nag-aasikaso ako sa mga bisita. Nagpakuha ako ng towel sa yaya ni Sebi. Pinunasan ko agad ang likod niya at pinalitan ng t-shirt. Pinulbuhan ko na rin.