Smoke || larry

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Coming home is the hardest part. You have to face everyone again and this time with clear thoughts and a guilty heart. Harrys not prepared to see his parents or Liam. Everyone is waiting at his house and he just wants to hide.

A nurse from the rehab is driving him home. He requested this because he's too scared to be pushed back into his regular life. 20 weeks is a long time to be away. The woman is quiet, not bothering to disturb Harry from his own thoughts. He subconsciously plays with the necklace around his neck and bites his bottom lip.

He knows his parents won't have Louis there. They won't let Harry see him though Dr. Dunn said it should be fine. Harry needs to see him though. He needs to see if he kept his promise and got better too. Harry needs to see him because he misses him and sober him loves him even more.

When they pull up to his house he notices all the cars in the driveway. He spots Liam's and Niall's, but not Louis'. He swallows thickly and smiles at the nurse thanking her and wishing her a good life. He grabs his suitcase from the back seat and then walks up to the front door. His front door. He shakes a bit as he knocks and then the doors being pulled open and he's being pulled into someone's arms.

"Harry!" A voice shouts and Harry drops his suitcase and hugs the person back. Liam feels more muscular now, more solid. He smells the same though and when he pulls away Harry can see he still has the same soft brown eyes. "I missed you so much. You look amazing." Harry sniffles at that and pulls his friends into another hug. Liam happily accepts it and rocks them back and forth.

"I missed you too. When did you get so big?" Harry questions with a smile. Liam laughs and then is shoved by a blonde with bright blue eyes.

"Curly!" Niall shrieks and then he's pulled into another hug. Everyone's filed into the main area and Harry laughs as Niall picks him up and twirls him. "I fucking missed you. You look so great and your hair!"

Harry blushes at the mention of his hair. It's long and hanging down to his shoulders. Niall pulls on a few curls which makes Harry shove him with a laugh. Sophia and Tara watch him with soft smiles and Nick just flips him off when their eyes meet. All his friends are here, but where are his parents?

"Robin and Anne are..?" Harry asks softly and Liam is back by his side in an instant.

"Inside. They're very excited to see you," Liam tells him. Nick moves forward and grabs Harrys bag as he enters his house and stumbles up his stairs. His parents are sitting on the couch and when Anne sees him she jumps up and cries. She looks better, her whole face appearing younger and less tired.

"Harry..." Anne says softly. Harry tenses when she hugs him and awkwardly hugs her back. When she pulls away hurt is clear across her face.

"Hi," he awkwardly greets her. She just smiles at him and let's go, moving back to sit next to Robin. He's looking down at his feet.

"So... Is... Um. Is Louis here or like is he coming? Is he alive?" Harry breaks the silence. The room goes quiet and no one speaks. Harry feels his heart get heavy and his mind goes blank. Where's Louis? He feels tears threatening to fall and he turns to run to his room and squeaks when he smacks straight into a body.

"Oops."

"Hi, baby."

Harry snaps his head up and then sobs as Louis smiles at him. His face is full and his skin a beautiful tan colour. His hair is fluffy and soft and his eyes are blue. A pure blue that shines with love and Harry feels weak. He falls into his arms and buries his face into his chest. He still smells of smoke and cinnamon and Harry will never get tired of that smell.

"Lou," Harry cries and Louis kisses the top of his head and rocks him gently. He's whispering sweet words in his ear, telling him he loves him and Harry feels whole. He feels like he can actually breathe and function properly because Louis is holding him.

"I love you," Louis whispers to him so soft it's like a summer breeze. Harry lifts his head up and captures the boys lips with his. He missed feeling Louis' lips on his, missed the way his heart picked up and the way his mind turned to mush.

"Why didn't I get that kind of welcome?" Nick asks in a faux offended voice. Harry laughs and pulls away to see everyone watching them. Louis just tightens his arms around the taller boy and Harry leans into him.

"Because I didn't miss you," Harry tells him. Nick chuckles and rolls his eyes, but he's smiling big and wide.

"Louis can't stay long. He needs to get home," Robin finally speaks. Harry tenses and turns to face the older man. He's watching Louis with cold eyes and Louis sighs sadly.

"Can't he stay the night?" Harry asks hopefully. None of his friends will look him in the eyes and neither will his mom.

"No. He just came to greet you, but he can't see you anymore, Harry," Robin tries to explain.

"Why not?!" Harry screams. Anne flinches at his tone and Harry can feel his insides starting to shatter again. They're taking him away.

"Harry, he won't help with your recovery and you won't help with his. You guys will be triggering to each other-"

"But I need him. I love him and we're better," Harry cries. Anne looks on the verge of tears as well as she watches her son.

"Harry love, it's just not a good time. Maybe one day, but right now you two need to move on," Anne tells him softly.

"Why bring him here then? To torture me?" Harry accuses and Anne slowly stands to not startle him. Louis is still holding him gently, but Harry can feel him slipping away.

"Listen, honey-"

"Don't 'honey' me! You don't have the right," Harry cries. Anne looks pleadingly at Louis and Harry can hear Louis let out a small breath.

"Baby..." Louis starts and Harry turns to him with tear stained cheeks. Louis looks like his heart is breaking as he gently wipes away his tears and kisses his forehead.

"I live in a halfway house right now, Harry. I'm still in recovery and you are too. I promise you though, when I'm out we'll be together okay?" Louis tells him. Harry shakes his head because no. He's been gone for 20 weeks and the whole time he's been craving being in Louis' arms.

"Don't leave me," Harry chokes and Louis looks like he's going to burst into tears too. He kisses the boy softly again before pulling away.

"I could never leave you. You can call me whenever you want, but I'm not good for you to be around right now," Louis tries to explain.

"Why come then?" Harry asks, his voice cracking.

"We knew you wouldn't be happy without seeing him. You can see he's doing better for you and soon he'll be ready to start his life over," Liam interjects. He moves forward now and replaces Louis. Harry squirms and Louis just gives him a sad smile.

"I have to go home. I have a curfew. I'll see you soon. I love you," Louis dismisses himself. Harry starts to thrash in Liam's arms, but Liam's definitely gotten stronger and he holds him in place. Harry hears the front door slam and in on sudden burst he raises his knee to Liam's crotch. Liam falls over and Harry runs after the stupid boy he's so foolishly in love with.

"Louis Tomlinson, how dare you leave me! How dare you just fucking leave me. I need you so much and you're all I thought about for 20 weeks and you're leaving? Just like that? Why? What about us?" Harry shouts. Louis is paused by a car older then the one he used to own. He's watching the boy with wide eyes and his hand is just resting on the door handle.

"Harry, it's only for awhile," Louis tells him.

"I can't handle you leaving. I really can't," Harry whispers. Louis is quick to leave his car and pull the still broken boy in his arms.

"I'm always with you. Always. And you're with me, right here," Louis tells him, pointing at his heart. "Always in my heart, Harry Styles," Louis promises him. Harry swallows thickly and hugs him again.

"Can you call me tomorrow?" Harry asks him weakly and Louis nods. He pulls away again and gives him on last lingering kiss before he gets into his car. Harry watches him drive away and he feels empty and sad. He wants to have a drink or a smoke, but he doesn't. He closes his eyes and takes deep breaths and when his craving passes he goes back inside.