Clone Trooper Angst Oneshot Book

Echo (Involves needle torture)

The last thing I remember is picking up a shield and running out into the open to our getaway ship. I heard Fives questioning my actions and to be honest I had no idea why I did it all I knew was that I needed to get rid of that canon. I remember the explosion that followed after, I heard Fives scream my name as my body was flung through the air. The burning pain as flames began to lick at my body, burning my sensitive and delicate flesh. Then peace. It enfolded me and cradled me encouraging me to let go. To leave the pain behind, to fall asleep and join my dead batchmates. It made me forget all that had happened, the pain, the sadness and the anger. But like most good things it didn't last long. My body was suddenly plagued by the pricks of needles. Some were so long that I could feel them scrape against my bones. The pain was horrible as the needles relentlessly over and over again. Some days, the needles were replaced with electricity. The bolts of pain would flood through my body entering every nerve and every cell. destroying everything leaving nothing untouched not even my brain was safe. The pain was worse there. I just wanted to wake up, to stop the pain. I wanted it to end. I wanted them to kill me. It got worse once I was finally released and the full reality of what they had done to me came crashing down onto me. You know the biggest fear we clones have is becoming a machine... Losing our independence, our ability to choose... For us it's like becoming droids. Kix once told me that this fear that we all share is the one reason why clones have such a hard time accepting cybernetics. And that is exactly what they have done to me. They have turned me into a walking flesh droid... They robbed me of my legs and my arm. Hell, they didn't even leave my brain alone so on top of being a droid I now have the inhuman ability of accessing computers with my hand using my arm as an anchor. Then, as if my life couldn't get any worse, Rex tells me that Fives is dead. Shot in the chest. He didn't tell me where he died, didn't even tell me if it was a droid, alien or a human. All he said that Fives got shot in the chest but don't worry he didn't die alone. I'm grateful that at least one of our brothers didn't die alone. But it still hurts knowing he died believing he would be joining me in a better place. It's quite ironic really considering what our squad name was. Domino squad... How fitting for a batch who fell one at a time like domino's. First it was Droidbait. The youngest. Our little Vod that Fives and I swore to protect. We both failed him. I remember his cries of pain as he was shot multiple times by a commando droid... Then it was Cutup. Oh Cutup I loved his accent and his laid back personality though it could get annoying at times. And how did he die? Got eaten by a giant Rishi eel... Out of all the ways to go he just had to die like that. Honestly, I wouldn't wish that type of death even on my worst enemy considering Rishi eels swallow whole... After Cutup it was Hevy. The brash and most stubborn of us all. At first he thought we were all a nuisance, he didn't understand the importance of team work. I was so proud of him when he finally accepted us. I loved his sarcasm and sassiness. To be honest he would have been a perfect member of 104th. Shame that he never got the chance, but he died an honourable death to a cause greater than himself. And then Fives... poor Fives. He was an amazing soldier. He was loyal and a fierce, protective brother. He wasn't afraid to voice his opinions much to the annoyance of others especially those who created us. I miss him the most... I hope he's proud of me. I am still a soldier just a different type, doing different things and having a little bit more freedom than my brothers in the 501st. I have decided that I will win this war. Not because of my orders, not because of the Republic. Revenge is what I want now. Revenge for every unnecessary clone death. For every brother that has fallen during this war. And that is a promise that I intend to keep...

A/N Hey guys this was requested by QueenChaos_5 Hope you enjoyed it and don't be afraid to leave more requests! Also I'm an idiot and accidently published this part to Clone Traitor so yeah just ignore that notification... Anyway see ya!