Probably, A Trip

Chapter Nineteen

I was just seriously helping my mom packed her things while Annica was playing in the bed. Ngayon ang alis nila pero si daddy ay nauna na kagabi. They booked a room here in the hotel of the resort for just one day.

"Are you okay, anak?" Mom asked me. I didn't talk but I smiled. I don't want to talk about the pain I was feeling. It hurts. I don't want to add another pain, another questions in my head from advices that I'll put in my head from different persons. Sobrang nakakalito. Nakakalito kung bakit niya ako iniwan tapos babalik siya ulit.

Mom also didn't ask another question. Maybe, she knew that I don't want to talk about it. Umalis na din naman sila pagkatapos naming mag-empake.

"You seem distracted," SB told me.

We're at the pool. I was wearing a floral bikini. Si Xia ay ganon din habang umiinom ng juice na binili namin kanina. I looked at him and smiled a little. "Where's Bon?" I asked eventhough I shouldn't. I just want to know if he's still here.

"Masakit daw ulo niya, masyadong niyabangan kagabi." I laughed a little. Sobrang yabang niya and ang lakas ng loob maghamon pero hindi naman niya kaya yung sarili niya sa alak. But as long as I want to take care of him, I shouldn't. My smile faded when I think of that.

"He's now a teacher," My eyes widened but I smiled genuinely. Hindi ko alam! I am happy for him, really. Gusto kong magtatalon sa tuwa dahil nakapasa siya. He really did passed it! I'm so proud of him..

"Congrats!"

The next day, wala naman masyadong nangyari. I did surfing sometimes. Si Xia kasi ayaw kaya mag-isa ako palagi. Gustong-gusto ko pa naman magpaitim. Si Bon? I don't know. Wala na akong nakuhang balita sakanya. Hindi rin naman sinasabi ni SB. Baka umalis na. And sana nga umalis na siya.

("Your tito Jomer wants you to come with us in Christmas.") Mom told me over the phone.

"Where mom? Paano si daddy?"

("Inaaya ko siya pero ayaw bahala na daw," I pursed my lips. I know daddy is still in the process of accepting. Hindi madaling makaalis sa ganong sitwasyon. At malamang sa malamang ayaw niya pa ding mag-engage kay tito Jomer. Kahit naman ako. Pero as part of accepting and moving on, hinaharap ko na din.

"Saan po ba? This Christmas lang?"

("Singapore. Balik din daw before New Year.")

So like the plan, sumama ako sakanila sa Singapore ng Christmas. Malungkot dahil iniwan ko si Xia at SB pero okay lang naman daw sila. Mabuti din at okay na si Xia. She's moving on. Sumunod din si daddy and nagkausap na sila ni tito Jomer. And I think that's good for us.

We celebrated Christmas in the house of Tito Jomer there in Singapore. I also met his family side. They were all good and kind, bagay na ikinatutuwa ko dahil tinanggap nila si mommy kahit ganon ang sitwasyon. They loves my mom. And I think, dad is also happy seeing mom was in good hands now. Siguro kaya nag-iba si daddy noon dahil hindi pa niya tanggap kung anong nangyari sakanila. Because from the very start, mom told me he didn't love dad the way he loves tito Jomer. Sobrang nasaktan ako noon pero wala e kailangang tanggapin. Pinilit kasi noon ni daddy si mommy na ikasal. Akala ko masaya kasi masaya naman kami noon pero hindi pala. Hindi pala masaya sa 'min si mommy. Not until, they fought everyday. Hanggang sa umayaw si mommy. She left us to be with tito Jomer. And the rest is history.

Tumagal kami ng 4 days doon after makabalik sa Pilipinas. Gustuhin ko mang makasama si daddy sa New Year, nagsabi ako na nagpromise ako kina Xia na babalik ako sa Palawan. Dad understands me so we celebrated it in advance. Mas memorable pa nga dahil ang dami naming napagkwentuhan namin ni daddy. I was happy because we we're okay after a lots of understanding before. Dad changed.