My beginning is you

Chapter 1

I know I am fit for nothing. I do not want my family to remind me again and again. Is it my fault that I am jobless? I attended so many interviews in these past one year after completing my college. But what can I do if I keep on rejected?

Oh god, can't you see my sufferings? For the past three months I am asking you to take my life. You are not even fulfilling my wish to die when I made it on my birthday. Why are you not listening to my requests? Why are you keep on neglecting me?

I want to die. But I do not want to commit suicide. But I want to die.

At least make me disappear from this damn world. 

I saw a sudden flash in front of me which gave an unpleasant tingling sensation to my eyes causing me to squint my eyes.

When I opened my eyes, I saw myself standing in front of three students. A cute girl and two tall handsome boys. Wait, why do they looking at me weirdly?

I tried to walk away but suddenly I came to realize that I'm in an unfamiliar street. Just a couple of minutes ago I was ten feet to reach my house but why I am standing in an unfamiliar street with these three kids who was staring at me like they saw an alien.

"Are you okay?" One of the boys asked me. I was almost squealed inwardly before mentally slapping myself for gawking at the student who was at least five to six years younger than me.

"Her cheeks are red. I think she's having a fever" the pretty young girl touched my forehead to check my temperature.

I quickly moved away from her, "Little girl, I'm fine. You can go back to the school. You'll get punished if you get late". Somewhat I felt my voice became low and timid. Is it because I was sad a while ago?

"Little girl? Are you calling me a little girl?" The girl pointed her index finger at herself in disbelief.

"I told you to drink lot of milk. You ignored me now see she's calling you little girl because you're short" another boy teased her.

She's not short, she's taller than me and shorter than these two boys. I can't believe that the school girls are taller than me. I should have drank lots of milk when I was younger.

"Hey I'm not short. And I am not a little girl. You're short and you're the little girl" she poked my forehead with her index finger.

I was annoyed by her poking. She must be a high school student. I cannot believe she's talking to an elder in this way. Kids these days do not know how to respect elders.

"Did you look at her eyes? She is glaring at me?" The girl gasped in surprise.

"It's because you're poking her" the guy who asked me whether I was okay told her to stop poking me and bend towards to me, "Are you lost? Do you want me to take me to your home?"

What the? What was he trying he to say? I'm what four years old to get lost in the street?

"In my opinion I think she ran away from her home" another guy looked at me up and down.

"BaiLing, I think you're right. I am also thinking the same. What are you saying QingZe?" The girl turned to QingZe.

"NingXuan, I don't think-"

I cut him off "Okay, stop analyzing me. Don't you think this is not the proper way to talk to an elder? First, I did not run away from my home. Second, I am not a little girl. Third, you're just two inches taller than me" I pointed at NingXuan.

Suddenly BaiLing started to laugh, "I think she gone nuts"

I really want to smack his head. How can he laugh at me?

"BaiLing stop" QingZe turned to me, "Sorry if we offended you. Tell your address we will take you home"

Why was he treating me like four years old? Anyway, it will not harm me to walk with handsome a guy. When I told him my address, he frowned?

"Did you know the address she said?" QingZe asked BaiLing who shook his head.

"Hey kids, stop acting. I was just ten feet to reach my house. Suddenly a flash came, wait it must be a car light. Why they are wasting the battery on the daylight. And then I was standing in front of you" They looked confused when they heard what I said.

"What car light? When we came out of the house, we saw you were already standing here like a statue without breathing. We are living here. We never heard the address which you said." NingXuan said to me.

I scoffed, "Kids, are you kidding? I was living here for past twenty-five years. I know every corner of my neighborhood. And you guys must be a foreigner by the way you look. Your slang is very good" I showed my thumbs up to appreciate them. They are speaking my native language so fluently without any mistakes.

"Are you blind? in what way we are looking like a foreigner to you? Aren't we living in Z country? And what with the slang?" NingXuan crossed her hands.

"Did you just call us kids? How dare you? You must be at least two years younger than us" BaiLing poked my forehead which made me to take a two step back. My gaze landed on a glass door which showed my reflection on it.

My eyes widened in shock. Is that me? Why I am looking ten years younger than my usual self. 

Wait did she just said Z country? Isn't it my neighboring country?

What's happening here? Suddenly why I am in my neighboring country looking ten years younger.

I remember I prayed to disappear. Did god really heard me this time? 

Then what I am doing here? or I'm hallucinating? 

I couldn't be able to think anymore because I felt my vision got blurry and my body plop on the ground.