An answer to my dreams(Damian Wayne x reader)

The hospital

I didn't think I was sleeping much before but now...ever hour or so a new nurse is in checking my blood pressure, and when I'm asleep it wakes me up. And the worst part is, I don't even know how I'm going to tell Damian. Let alone the team. It's been almost a week I still have a day left.The hospital when I can though I go to the game room. Or I roll around the outside park. I just have to be back for my nurse check in, Starfire has the schedule for that and won't tell me it. She pushes me out to the park, then gets a phone call from dick. I let her leave and she and him talk for a while. She said the retreat is a secret so he can't know the details. So he is in the dark as well. She's really holding up her promise. As I sit and watch. A small girl approaches me."So you're the new girl."I smile."my names y/n...but usually I go by umbra." She furrows her eyebrows."you can call me Emma." I smile."nice to meet you." She nods."So what are you thinking about?" She asks me as I look at the flowers. "I don't know how to tell my friends or boyfriend that in less than two months I'll most likely be dead." She sighs."Just day it bluntly or don't tell them. That's what I'm doing." I look at her."How old are you?" She smiles."I just turned 11. But the doctors said it's be a merical If I survive the year." I nod."If I don't tell them...don't you think I'll make them upset?" She shakes her head."no...If you want them to treat you the same don't tell them till it's absolute nessicary." I nod. "Thank you for the advice." She smiles."no problem. Max said you were cool, so I figured it wouldn't hurt." I tilt my head."Max?" I question. She chuckles."The guy you played Mario cart with." My fade lights up with understanding."oh." She smiles."anyway, my rooms 502, if you need anything." I nod."Thanks." As I watch her leave I realize. She's so young and she has so little time left. I meet her on my second day.And then I think on what she said...would they treat me that differently if I told them... I go home tomorrow so I guess I'll test the waters with Damian. And if that goes well, I'll talk to raven. They said I should try and come back if things get worse, so there's always that after I leave. I gave Emma my phone number and the nurses let her barrow the phone when she wants to call someone so I always have her to talk to. I sit there maybe I should test the waters with a hypothetical conversation with all of them. Yeah...that's what I'll do. I'll treat it  as a casual conversation. Plus it will give me ideas on what I should do before I die...like a bucket list. Right now all I really want is to have fun with my friends... they're sending me home with the wheel chair...I plan to put it in the closet. I can walk just fine...I might pass out they said randomly or if I over exert myself...so I just won't. I should tell Bruce and Dick and Jason and Tim though. I know... I wheel myself as best I can over to Starfire. She and Dick are saying goodbye. I roll my self towards her."Hey Starfire. Can we swing by the manner tomorrow before we head back to the tower...I'm going to tell the boys first." She nods."of course." I smile. Good. I'll tell them just so they know. Plus Tim will probably hack the hospital records and find out and confirm my death sentence also... the medicine they have been giving me here has definitely helped me though. I mean I have much clearer thoughts and stuff now. My hair has started to thin though. They said it's probably from stress. My body is working really hard and the medication just numbs it to my mind. I have her push me back to the room. When I get there. I pull out my laptop. Then email Dick. "Dear Dick, don't tell the others, but I want you to go to the manner. I'll be there tomorrow with Starfire. I want to tell you Bruce Jason Tim and Alfred something. Don't tell Damian I am meeting you, I haven't told him this yet either.  From , Umbra." After I send it I get a response."Oh is it a suppose. Please say it's a surprise." I send back"something like that. You'll have to go to see though."  The I push my laptop back on the bed in a flash though and cough up some more blood into the tray. I've learned I don't throw up to often. Just get really super nauseous so long as I don't eat solid food. A nurse takes the tray and places a new one down. Wow they are really quick at that. But then again, from what I've heard this place has been really quiet for the past while. I hear an uproar in the hall though.  I get myself out of the bed and roll myself over to the door. I open it and am meet with Superman and Wonder Woman. Crap what are they doing here. The nurses smile and sho me back...they brought them to talk to all the dying kids...oh. I mean it makes sense. I roll myself back. And push myself back into the bed. They close the door, it's just me Starfire Wonder Woman and Superman. I stare for a while."hi..." I say confused. Then I hear the ceiling move a bit and in drops batman. He sees me for a second, then looks to Starfire. Everyone looks super confused. Superman speaks first."Starfire why are you here?" He asks addressing her first. My stomach lurtches and I throw up into the tray. A coughing fit following. You'd think murdering my throat once would be enough for my body...but no, the bits of stomach acid and blood that spewed into the tray are now coated in small bits of spots of blood. I cough a few more times. Everything's quiet and all eyes are on me. I look and meet Batman's gaze."What happened Umbra." I look away from the tray."Starfire can you go trade the nurses?" I ask her handing the tray to her."sure." She says. I look back to the big bat."I'm sick...I was planning to tell you And the four other guys tomorrow, then head back to the tower to figure out how to tell robin and the others. Starfire and you three are the only ones who know I'm sick." There quiet."How bad is it?" He asks me."Terminal...a month or two left." He nods."I'll pull the records and look into it." I nod."I figured you would. Superman and Wonder Woman are just standing there Superman's steps forward."I don't follow..." I nod." I'm blue bird." He stops. And wonder woman's eyes widen."You are one of the titans." I nod."Yep." I pop the p. "So. You are dying." Asks Superman."if the tears are correct survey says Yes." He nods sighing."I'm sor-" I cut him off."Dont say it." He stops and I look to Bruce. He has a small halo glove showing some of my tests."You should have told me this happened when you were younger as well." I smile."nah. I didn't need you to worry about me." He looks at me."You understand this is something to worry about though do you not?" Asks Starfire as I see her reappear by my side. I nod."Yeah, but I wanted to have fun with everyone before the worrying started." Then I turn to the other three."I will tell everyone else in my own time so I expect you keep this a secret for me. Alright. So...just treat me like any kid you would normally see for a thing like this, and pretend you don't know yet. Please." I almost beg. There's a sigh. And Super man gets super close."Wanna see something really cool?" I nod."sure." He superspeeds behinds Bruce, and picks him up holding him by the waist over his head. Then holding him upside down."None of Batman's stuff falls out even if hers upside down."Clark, set me down." He says almost monotone."You tell the kids your a names?" I ask."sometimes if they appear trustworthy or really want to know, then yes." He sets Bruce down."I am Clark Kent." Wonder Woman shares her name and Batman just glares."Wanna introduce us to some of the other kids in the hospital?" Superman asks after that. I nod. Getting into the wheel chair. And wheeling my way to the door."Com'on, max and Emma will love this." It's quiet."You actually know kids here." I nod."I made some friends in the game room. I'll take you there next but first let's get them." They nod, and Wonder Woman pushes my wheel chair. I point to the elevator. "We need to go to the 5th floor." She nods and we crowd into the elevator. Batman's gone for now. Probably looking for a cure no doubt. When the elevator dings. I say."room 502." As they roll me we get to her room. The door opens, and my voice drops."Emma..." nurses surround her. Doctors and someone calls a code blue. A nurse pushes us back...it's silent as the door closes."Emma..." Superman. Has this grim look on his face. A nurse comes out before the door closes I hear."Time of death..." no..."no..." tears leave my eyes...she's...dead. I grab the tray next to me. The small heart monitor with me beeping fast. I throw up into the tray. All blood. My vomiting slows soon. A nurse changes it out."can I just go back to my room." I ask Wonder Woman, and Superman. I can't believe... she's dead...she died...I'm going to die...I don't...I don't want to die...not anymore...maybe a year or so ago...but now...I really don't want to die. I don't want what happened to Emma to happen to me. I don't want what happened to me to happen to anyone. I look down the hall as I start to be pushed. And max is in his wheel chair."Wait." I say. I wheel myself around. Heading towards max."Max!!!" I yell he looks up at me. A but confused."is that superman and Wonder Woman. Oh Emma's going to be so psyched.""Max.""you know she loves them.""MAX!!!" He stops."What." I sniffle."Emma just died." His face pales."the doctors said she still had months...what do you mean. You're lying." I shake my head."I came to get her and I just heard them call time of death. His face seems so frightened. He's known her for months. I've known her for days. He must be so upset."But she wanted...she wanted to turn 12 so badly..." he cries. I can't help. And just like that. I see him turn around and roll down the hall way into a room. I roll myself around, and down to my room. Superman and Wonder Woman are there."were sorry for your loss." I just sit and cry. I get into the bed. And shove my head into my pillow."I don't want to die." I sob out."I didn't want Emma to die." I sob next."please...please...bring her back." I feel the pillow removed, and Wonder Woman is in front of me. Her arms open. I push myself to her. A big hug. She feels so comforting and is this what a mothers hug would feel like is all I can wonder like this. "Why Emma.why...why...why...why her."