An answer to my dreams(Damian Wayne x reader)

T is for tramua

It was all a lie. I stand there for a second. I feel the blood run out of my face.he didn't like me. He never did. He doesn't like me. But I liked him. He's right no one cares about me.So he only did this because he felt bad. He doesn't care about me.What the fuck."what...the...fuck...why does this hurt." I clutch my chest.
I feel tears well in my eyes. "I...excuse me." I turn and start to jog. He grabs my hand."please.i trusted your. You just...you just ripped my heart out." I clench my eyes shut and yell."I LOVE YOU." He lets go of my wrist and I run out . Tears stream down my face. I go out of the cave. I'm out office and in the kitchen in a second. I grab one of the knives. Then I run out the door not even bothering to close the door. I struggled with the lock at first. My fingers fumbling not being able to see through my tears. Why does it hurt so much to love someone. Oh wait I know. You don't know love with out pain. I don't stop running till sunset. It's been a few hours. I see a group of teenagers. Wait. That's Alex. I stab the knife into a tree. And walk up wiping my tears."hey guys what's going on." I see Tiffany. She smiles."oh nothing bitch. But it looks like you are having some issues there. Aww...did somebody hurt your feelings." They laugh. Alex steps you."you know...I bet Damian got sick of his little toy and tossed her out. Maybe you should go back to your parents...oh wait they're dead aren't they." What."what...I though...Alex I though we were friends..." my hands fly to my mouth I feel more tears leave my eyes."How stupid are you?!you're nothing but a burden." And other girl steps up."you're a freak." Then another."bitch" "slut.""whore"" why why why why why why...why is this happening. I start to walk back. I yank the knife from the tree. Alex sees it and I think she suddenly understands why I'm out here. I see her eyes flash. She mouths."they made me, it's not true." I give her a smile to show all is forgiven. Then I turn and run. I run like my life depends on it. Because quite literally it does. I shove the knife into my hand. Sliding it up my palm and into my forearm.i feel something make contact with my side. I'm tackled and pinned to the ground. It's Damian. I start to struggle."get off of me. Please. I know how little you think of me now. Please I just want to stop hurting. I just wanted to be happy. And you make...you made me happy." I feel his grip loser."I'm sorry." Sorry..."I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry." He's sorry."sorry doesn't fix everything." He freezes. I feel his head drop into my collar bone."I love you." I tense...does he mean that."you do..." he nods. I feel to wet spots through my uniform hes crying." I love you." I feel him stay like that."We're you ever planning on telling me?" I feel fresh tears in my eyes."I was. That whole thing with Jason was how I was planning to tell you. But I was a coward and I hurt you instead. Fuck. I'm so sorry. I love you." I lift my head up and lean it to Damian's head. It's an awkward position but I don't care."I love you Damian." He leans your. And presses his lips to mine. The knife falls out of my hand. His lips are strong and full of all this emotion.I feel him crying on me. Our eyes closed. He lets go of my hands. And lifts me up.i hold tightly to him. He places me on my feet."I'm not good with feelings.i truly apologize ." He clears his throat. I know he's trying though. That's all I want from him. He picks up the knife. And we start to walk back. It's almost dark now. I am barefoot and still don't like the dark. I don't know if he remembers or not. But I hope he does. He seems to notice the quiet."Do you want to ride on my back, again." He sounds so unsure of those words leaving his lips." I smile."yes, thank you."He stops."you ran barefoot." I look away."yeah." He sighs. Then he crouches down. I put one hand on his shoulder. The other I don't touch him with I don't want him to know I'm bleeding. I don't know what he did with the knife but its not in his hands anymore. He holds me up. I wrap my hands again. And he tosses me up a bit. I use both hands to steady myself. I think he noticed my hand."blood?are you bleeding." I think he has definitely noticed." Yeah...you don't have to worry about it though. It's not that bad." He stops. He seems very frustrated"I have the right to be worried." I sigh."please...talk to me about it." I nod and rest my head on his shoulder. " I...you are the one good thing that has happened in my life other than the nymphs. And the idea of that much pain...it just. I can't deal with that so soon again. I'm not strong enough. He stops again."yes you are." I shake my head."no...I'm really not." He sighs."Please...I don't want you to do that again. Ever." I nod into his shoulder. I start to tap on his shoulders. A nice little drum."Habibti, are you still bleeding?" Habibti...what does that means...oh. I blush a very nice scarlet. Then I move my finger to feel if I'm still bleeding. It's wet."I think so...I don't know." I am tired though. I yawn."hey...Ya Amar. I need you to stay awake." I nod into his shoulder."can we do the question game again?" He nods."Start first Omri." I giggle."When did you realize you loved me?" He stumbles as he walks a bit. Is he flustered."When...you and my father fought. I was impressed. And when the loud noise came and your face morphed to pain, all I wanted to do was protect you. I felt like my heart was being ripped out. That's why I held you to me and didn't stand with my brothers.i told them to stay back." After that I spent time trying to find a way to tell you." Oh that is so sweet and out of character of Damian. Then he asked."How long is the cut on your arm?" I thought for a second imagining a ruler next to it."about. Four inches starting at the center of my palm." I hear him say"wallah"I smirk."what does the thing you just said mean?" He sighs."I swear to god. Is probably the best way to explain it." I nod. I am getting really tired now."how long do you think till we get back to the manor?" Oh wait "sorry it's not my turn*yawn*" this seems to startle him."Why?" He seems frightened of the response then again, i am really tired so I'm not sure."I'm just really...tired..." I feel like falling asleep."Habibti!!!Umbra...UMBRA!!!" I am really tired. But Damian wants me to stay awake. I try to keep my eyes open. Damians running. When did he start running. We're flying through trees and bushes. My cut is starting to hurt...and my body is really heavy. I open my eyes and we're going through the manor and Damian is yelling a why is he yelling is something going on . Oh wait, why aren't I moving, is he yelling because of me. What did I do. He's upset. I don't want him to be upset I'm down in the cave now. Alfred is doing something. All the guys are talking."I bet he confessed to talk her down." "No I bet tackled her." "Nah he probably..." oh sleepy time again. When I open my eyes again. I still don't see Damian. I can move though. I sit up. Looking around I'm down in one of the rooms in the cave. The medbay, that's what I heard Jason call it. I look around. I'm attached to a heart monitor. I need to find Damian. Tell him it's ok. He was freaking out from what I remember. I rip the Iv and stuff out of my arm. The monitor starts to freak out. I swing my legs over the bed and try to stand. Jason ran into the room. And as I start to fall, catches me. He sets me back on the bed."woah there sweet cheeks. Take it easy, you've been out for 3 days." 3 days. "Where's Damian." He looks at me. I try to stand again."here just sit I'll go get him. Here's some water. I drink the water my voice hurt from lack of water. I stay sitting in the bed. My fingers drum in a steady beat I hope Damian is alright. I don't have to keep worrying though because I'm a few seconds Damian slams open the door. He looks like he'll. Like he hasn't been sleeping, and showering and eating...he doesn't look healthy. Is this my fault."Damian." Leaves my lips softly. He jumps forward. His hands go to the sides of my face, his lips pressed firmly against mine. I drop my cup and it shatters I couldn't give a flying fuck though. I sent my hands under Damian's arms. I hold him as close to me as I can. When we pull away. He puts his forehead to mine."I'm sorry." What...why is he sorry."this is all my fault, I should have been faster, I should have been there before you hurt yourself. I should have never said that stuff. This is all my fault, habibti, I am so sorry. Will you ever forgive me." I sigh."this isn't your fault. It's mine. I should have been stronger. I should have told you how I felt sooner, I should have not reacted like that. I should have told you how bad the cut felt. This is my fault." I traumatized him. This is my fault."I'm so sorry. I love you so much." He sighs holding me."it's not your fault, it's never your fault. I really do love you." I hold him. I reconnect our lips. I hear someone clear their throat in the door way."well...that just happened." It's dick,"Jason said you were awake." I smile."yep as it seems." He nods."good, as things here transpired, bruce has decided to send you both to the teen titans. You leave in a week. Don't worry about school, you won't be going back. But Umbra, a girl named Alex stopped by and left her number for you." I nod. She probably feels really bad. I smile "can I barrow someone's phone to call her?" Tim walks in,"actually why don't you use your own, we have a lot of stuff for you before you leave. You can come back and visit as often as you want. Money isn't a problem here." I smile."thank you." Damian nudges me like a kicked puppy he looks like he wants more attention. So I grab and hold his hand. That seems to settle him. I use the phone and call...ring...ring...to-"hello, this is Alexa what do you want." I chuckle."hey, this is Umbra. I just woke up." Theres crashing and yelling."Hey Umbra, are you ok, what do you mean just woke up, and are you really leaving gotham with Damian?" I chuckle at the speed of her questions." I am in a small medical room supported hunts Wayne's. They saved me, I just woke up from a small coma and yes, we are leaving. She sighs."I am too, where are you going?" I think for a second where are the titans."jump city What about you?" She starts squealing,"me too" wow thats a cool coincidence.