An answer to my dreams(Damian Wayne x reader)

Ice cream and birthdays.

It's been a week since my little hearing accident. Today bruce stopped me and told me I would be going to 'school' I was so scared that it would be like the joker tour her stuff...I hope it's not. I've read about how school is supposed to be and honestly it doesn't seem all that great. Bruce tells me that alfred has set all my supplies in my room and I'd there are any issues to let him know. Then he also asks,"Umbra, do you know when your birthday is?" I think for a second,"I think so...it was the day that my parents would hit me hardest... it's usually in...OH MAW GAWD..." he looks at me startled,"What is it?" I look at him,"It was 4 days ago." His face shows understanding."We'll then congratulations you are now the second 14 year old in this mansion. What would you like for your birthday?" I look around."nothing...I don't really think I'll celebrate plus it's already passed." He nods. And turns walking off...that was really weird. I walk back to my room and try on the uniform...I don't think I like it. It's tight over my chest and well...it's very short. This isn't something I'd usually wear. Especially to meet new people. There's a knock on my door. I open it still in the uniform. I see Damian, he looks at me and his cheeks grow bright."I see you've found your school uniform." He says removing his gaze."is this really what the girls have to wear..." he nods. I look down in disgust. Before his voice pips up again."If it has any effect at all, you look much better then the floozie slattern." I blush slightly at the remark."thank you...anyway, what's you need?" He looks down at me,"I just wanted to see if you wanted to continue the game we were playing back in the forest..you are a reasonable person the spend time with as I currently have nothing else to do and everyone is busy I figured you wouldn't have a problem. But as it seems I might have been mistaken. I'll excuse myself." I stop him",No you weren't bothering me, in fact all I really was dough was seeing if this fit. If you give me a second to change I will gladly converse with you again." He smirks still not looking at me. I pull him into my room and quickly grab my clothes to go change. I open the door. I plan to put on some shorts and a baggy t-shirt. Considering today it's raining and I'm not going outside. I undress and go to redress when I realize...oh boy...I crack the door open..."hey damian...would you mind passing me...a shirt...?" He looks up at the door."Why don't you-" realization passes as he realizes why I'm asking. He clears his throat,"Sure...where are they." I take a second trying to remember what drawer holds the baggy shirts. The second one holds either underwater or shirts,"The second drawer on the right." He gets up and as I hear the drawer slide I remember I rearranged my drawer...that's not shirts..."I mean the fourth drawer in the left!!!" Oh god...Damian just saw my underwater drawer...please kill me before I die of embarrassment. I take a few deep breaths as he comes into view. He hands me a hoodie.I don't recognize it..."Hey...where'd you find-"I'm cut off,"I couldn't find  the shirt drawer...I hope my hoodie is alright for the moment. I hear through the door. My face goes ablaze. I put it on and it covers the shorts. I grab the uniform fold it and set it on the counter for morning. Then I open the door. The second I see Damian. He is suddenly very flustered..."I didn't...I...you could have...I would have gotten you bottoms if you needed them." I look down."don't worry silly." He looks over and I pull the hoodie up enough to see the shorts."I'm wear-""WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!!" I laugh. He glances over to my face."I'm wearing shorts...calm down." He sighs. Wow, that was hilarious. His face looks like it's on fire. I put my hand to it." What are you-""Hey Damian are you feeling alright. You're really hot." Oh shit did I just say that."I mean your forehead." He looks away. Pulling his forehead from my hand."I'm fine." I nod reluctantly."Oh yeah...you came to do the question game again right?" He nods,"yes I did." I smile sitting on my bed cross cross looking at him. "Do you wanna start or shall I?" He smirks"lady's first." I smirk,"I am no lady." Then he asks,"Have you had ice cream before?" I think for a second. Never at my old house...I don't think so in gotham."no...I don't think so." His eyes widen. He grabs my hand and pulls me out of the bed and through the manner. Once we're in the kitchen. He sits me down and grabs a weirdly colored container from the freezer. Then he grabs 2 spoons. Handing one to me he opens the container. And sets it in front of us. "What are we doing?" He looks at me"You are having your first experience with ice cream." I smile widely. I jump out of the seat and tackle him in a hug."thank you...thank you...thank you...thank you." He removes me from himself. Looking very disoriented."you haven't even tried it yet." I nod and get a ring piece of it on the spoon...then I freeze. Oh this is going to be so great. I'm so nervous. Then I put the spoon in my mouth. It's euphoric.i let it melt in my mouth. Then I look up at Damian."Jubilation." He smirks widely."so you like it..." he almost mumbles."Like it...I love it." He uses his spoon to eat a small part of the ice cream as well. "I believe it is your turn." I nod."What was your first time eating ice cream like?" He freezes for a second."Borderline traumatizing." I laugh."When's your birthday?" I freeze up. Should I tell him. I just keep staring at him. He stops and looks at me."What's wrong?" I look down slowly."It was 4 days ago." He nods."So you are 14 as well now." I nod. Then I ask."Wait a second...when is your birthday?" He smirks."Aug 9" hold up..."that was..." he clears his throat."continuing...Why didn't you share your birthday to have it celebrated?" I frown. I feel a tear fall from my eye."Because every year it's the worst day of the year. I don't want what used to happen there happen here." I set the spoon down. "Excuse me I need to use the restroom." I run out of the room as tears start to stream down my face. As I run I bump into someone. I look up but they're blurred through my tears."sorry." I say my voice wavering from my crying. I make it to one of the bathrooms. Then I lock the door and slide down.why does it hurt more when Damian asks a is it because I don't want him to know. No...is it because I think he'll do the same...no is it because I think he'll see me differently and feel bad for not saving me sooner. I have realized that when something bad happens he holds it in but tiny ways I can see through his armor. He's more aggressive in sparing. He talks slightly less. And before and he doesn't read as much. I don't want him to be upset. I care to much for him to be upset over me. I don't want him to know the pain he couldn't save me from. I remember my 11th birthday. It was so horrible. I thought I was going to die. I remember how once I got to the nymphs I didn't leave for a week. I stayed in my abditory. I remember the scar that was left. I stand up and look in the mirror avoiding my own gaze. I lift Damian's hoodie to show my back. I look up on my shoulder blade. Burned into my flesh is "Worthless" I whisper as I read.there's a knock at the door that startled me. I drop the hoodie down. Then I say through the door."Who's there." I hear Tim on the other side."it's tim can I come in?" I open the door."that's not usually you what you ask someone in the bathroom." He rolls his eyes." I don't know what you were upset about earlier when you bumped into Jason. But right now he's loading a gun about to go crazy. He wants to know why your upset-" I run around tim."Fuck" I get to Jason as he's putting his jacket on. My eyes are probably red and puffy right now but what ever. I run over to him and put him in a hug."sorry I bumped into you earlier." He is really stiff for a second then he hugs me back in a protective manner."it's alright kid. Why were you upset?" I let go and look up at him."it was worst on my birthday. My birthday was 4 days ago. Me and Damian we're talking and he asked when my birthday was...I didn't mean to make you upset. Tim said you were upset." He chuckles,"But if something every happens.i will beat the shit out of anyone for you...ok" I nod."ok." Then I say." I should get back to Damian before the ice cream melts." He narrows his eyebrows."You... and Damian...are eating ice cream... together... willingly." He seems so confused."yep." Then I turn around and skip back to the kitchen. Once I'm there I forget about how puffy my eyes must be but Damian notices almost instantaneously."Are you ok?" He says jumping from the chair and running to in front of me. He has his hands on my shoulders."Yeah I'm fine. Sorry I let in such a hurry." He says nothing. But he does pull my frame closer to his. And put me in a powerful hug. He rests his head on mine. His chin on my head."you don't have to hide from me. I have bad memories too. I...trust you...You can trust me." I wrap my arms around his torso. The feeling of holding him and being held by him. It's so much Better than ice cream in every way. Hearing him say that was amazing. He is so avoidant of his feelings. I can't believe he actually said that. I don't let go of him but I do mumble."How long does it take for ice cream to melt?" He lets go of me."of course that's what you're thinking about right now." I giggle. We sit down at the table eating ice cream and just talking."what do you think the kids at school will think of me. I'm probably not as smart as them." He rolls his eyes."no trust me they're incompetent." I giggle."oh boy..." his face goes hard."I'm serious." I giggle even more."that's what makes it worse." He puts the ice cream up. I rinse the spoons. He comes over."Can we share a bed?" I look at him."why?" He looks away. "Nevermind." He scoffs. I follow him to his room. Then go in with him."what are you doing?" I sit on his bed."I'm going to share a bed with you. I told you I trust you. You asked I have no problem." His face flushes bright red."what if my brothers come in. This will be obscured." I raise an eyebrow."why did you ask me in the first place?" He looks away,"I trust you and...I don't want to be alone." I hug him from behind."then I won't leave you alone." He nods."bruce even said we will have the same classes." He nods. Then he turns around. I let go of him."com'on it's like 11 you don't have patrol tonight and we wake up in 6 hours." He nods. And lays down in his bed. Flat on his back staring straight at the ceiling."you can't possibly sleep like that?" He opens his eyes."why do you say that." I groan sitting up."it can't possibly be comfortable." He sits up and looks at me "then how do you suggest I sleep?" I grin."lay down on your side." He rolls his eyes"this is inglorious." I laugh a bit."but it's more comforting." He groans,"it also gives a large area of the room in my blind spot." I raise an eyebrow. He complies none the less. He faces me. I put my hand out a little and hold his hand. Then I close my eyes.