California | N.G.

Chapter 21

A/N
Hehe 21 I know I'm dumb.
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On my way to the hospital I couldn't stop thinking it was my fault. The whole way there I was a mess, my hair was tangled and I had tears everywhere. I know he cheated on me but somehow I couldn't stay mad at him. Once I got to the hospital I didn't even park my car right or lock it, I ran to the emergency room pushing everyone out of my way and bumping into things making them fall.

"Uh excuse me! Where's Nash Grier?!" I yelled at the nurse clearing away my tears.

"Ok no need to yell, go straight and first door on the right." She gestured.

"Sorry, thank you!" I said running again. When I got to his room I saw him with his eyes closed, with a bandage on his head, bruises and scars on his arms, and Cameron sitting next to him.

"Hey." I said as I knocked lightly on the door.

"Oh hey Alexa." He said quietly as he got up to hug me."you ok?"

"Um no, I don't really know anymore." I said as my voice cracked and I started to cry.

"I'm sorry, but uh the doctor said he is going to be ok, he just banged his head badly on the window, but he'll be fine." he said rubbing circles on my back.

"Did you know?"

"Know what?"

"He uh slept with another girl."

"Yeah I knew he told me yesterday and that's when I told him to tell you."

"This is all my fault." I said pushing him back." I just left him sitting there without saying anything I felt broken. Now I even feel even more broken if that's even possible." I said crying even more.

"Hey listen it's not your fault ok? All I want you to know is that he still loves you, before he got in the car crash he was in his room crying and saying how much he needed you." he said looking at me straight in the eyes, I remained silent. "Come on don't cry anymore, and sit down, the doctor said he should wake up any second."

"Uh ok can you uh give me a minute with him?"

"Sure take all the time you need" he said wiping the tears off my face. I sat down next to Nash and held his hand.

"Nash I don't know if you could hear me but I'm sorry about this, its all my fault that your here, sometimes I feel like I'm such a mistake. I'm sorry for just leaving you sitting there I should've said something but I just broke down, I didn't know what to say." After that I got up and I was about to go out when I felt someone grab my wrist.

"I'm sorry." I heard someone say in a raspy voice. It was Nash.