Random Crizoozles: The Insane-quel

Gahhh

So it's 2:35am and I cannot sleep for the life of me

Mainly because I have some things on my mind

Also because sometimes I can't sleep after I cry (shhhh yes I was crying what do you want from me)

Which is annoying when it happens but it's usually quite rare

My eyes are also really sore because of the crying and because I have a sty and I used tacky old mascara the other day and still haven't taken it off yet

I also went downstairs and I'm too scared to leave because I am

✨ scared of the dark ✨

Gah screw it I'm gonna leave

Ok I'm upstairs and safe

I turned on the lights every time I went to the next section of the house but then have to turn the other room's light off and then run back

*sigh* we love being paranoid for no reason whatsoever ☺️

I usually don't talk about my serious issues on the internet

Mainly because I'm scared of judgement and don't want to come off as a drama queen

And I also hate it when people talk about their sob story or cry on camera

But sometimes it's good to be upfront and to be a hypocrite lol

So yeah

I cried earlier because LiFe iS hARd

Nah I'm just struggling with some stuff atm is all

Nothing that can't be fixed! :)

Everything will be alright tbh

I just need to work on how to express myself and how I'm going to deal with the issue at hand

I know I'm not alone and I have people to help me so it's not the end of the world

Plus it's teenage drama so DEFINITELY not the end of life itself

So if you're reading this and really struggling with something

Please look around and look at who you have to help you. If you feel alone, I'm here! :)

Look at the situation, and picture how you would feel looking back on it. In my case, I think I would look it as a very dramatic situation that maybe in some areas I overreacted to, others maybe not. There are definitely some things in my situation that should be addressed, which leads me onto my next step.

Get the people from earlier (yes, I still volunteer if you feel alone) and talk to them about it. What are their thoughts? Do they have any suggestions or advice? I spoke to Nova and another friend over snapchat and I rang one of them about my situation. Nova and I's dms are always open!

Lastly, remember everything is going to turn out ok. Think about it, you have people who want to help you and you have yourself. Now that is a team who's spirit cannot break! Plus, there is nothing that can't be fixed. Granted, it might not be the same as before but it's still something!

I hope this helped and I apologise if it doesn't make sense. You'll have to give my tired haze a break lol. I just thought that it would be nice to let people know that they're never alone and that they can get through anything, especially with a team of people who have the person's best interests at heart. :)