Random Crizoozles: The Insane-quel

I'm back bitchesssssxsx

Ayo

Your favourite Queen

Has returned

She has struggled

She has suffered

But now

She rises from the ashes

Like a phoenix

Wow

I felt like Gina from b99 there lol

Anywho

I'm back

Like Shady is also back

Hehehehe

I'm not funny

But in all seriousness, I have returned from a random hiatus

I haven't written anything in MONTHS

and we're going to keep it that way until I feel confident with my writing

But I have been suffering with what I think is anxiety but for now we're going to call it anxiousness

Because I hate people who self diagnose so I'm not going to say I have it until I have confirmation from a doctor

But yes

'Tis I

My mental health is actually getting better now that I'm off school for the holidays

Especially since I've been doing 50min walks every morning on my mum's treadmill

I love listening to my music while endlessly scrolling through Instagram and spamming my boyfriend with wholesome memes

Speaking of mi novio

I saw him today

I made him some pasta bake and brought him mini chocolate fingers and I also bought us both a monster each (yes, I like monster energy drinks)

He had pipeline punch and I had the ripper - I ended up drinking all of mine and at least 1/8th of his 😂

And he legit said that if he wasn't going to marry me because he loved me he would marry me just to eat the pasta bake for the rest of his life

Yes he has said on several occasions that we want to marry each other

I have expressed how I'd like to get married in Barbados (the beaches, man)

And we have both agreed that we want twin boys then a girl

And we want a cat and a dog

We both haven't been feeling too hot as of recent but something about seeing him today just improved my mood by at least 69% (nice)

He just makes me so happy and whenever I see a text from him I just get all giddy

Plus he calls me:
- princess
- baby girl
- baby
- his kitten
- his Disney Princess

I am babie

We had a little dance to our playlist lol

We danced to Freak by Doja cat and Super Freak by Rick James

Notice a pattern in my music taste since I was the one who added both of those songs?

I packed him off with a batch of pasta bake for our friends that go to his school

We also found a slowly deflating football (a soccer ball for you foolish Americans)

(Sorry but I dislike Americans and really like their stuff lmao)

(I mean come on y'all have a shittting whatsit or however the fuck you spell it as a president)

Anyway

A slowly deflating FOOTBALL was found by us

So we had a game of football

We also discussed religion and we've discovered I might be religious since I can't help but feel like there is a heaven and hell and some sort of God

(Then again that might just be programmed into my brain after countless times of being forced into going to church as a smol Nimbus)

Speaking of forcing Nimbus into church

My mum is STILL forcing me to go to mass on Christmas Eve if we're allowed to go

Idk how I feel about it considering my current stance on religion but I usually hate it

My mum makes me go with her "as a chance to reflect on how lucky I am" even though I do that in my spare time when I start to spiral lol

Yh I sometimes spiral because I feel like I don't really express gratitude to people enough

But that's enough of that negativity!

We are thinking positive thoughts!

Yay!!!

I'm so happy if you couldn't tell

I really needed this holiday

I've been getting so stressed out at school and I now have a chance to calm down and take control

It feels fucking amazing

I'm just on cloud 9

Yeah this is gonna change when I return in a couple of weeks to do mock exams lmao