Unintentionally In Love [ Akaashi Keiji ]

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[Seiryuu's point of view]

Weeks have passed and our wedding date is nearing so quickly that it's starting to scare me. As time flies by, it also means that Keiji is about to take his graduation test soon.

Recently, Keiji has been really distant, but he's not to be blamed because he has a major exam. Everyday he wakes up at five in the morning and goes out at 6am sharp. So by the time I wake up, he's already gone.

In addition to his busy school life, he has extra classes after school. By the time he's back home, it's already near evening, and I don't have time to have a proper conversation with him.

One weekend, I made plans. I intended to go to the art museum with Keiji.

"Keiji!" I bolted through the door excitedly. He didn't even react, he buried his head in his textbooks, quickly scribbling notes and reading through them.

"Let's go to the art museum," I invited and threw my arms around him, trying to get his attention.

He didn't budge, and I remembered how sad I felt. I made a mistake by bothering him, and he clicked his tongue in frustration, swatting my arms off himself frustratedly.

"I'm doing my work. Can we talk later or something?"

I could tell that he's trying to hold himself back, trying his hardest not to vent his anger on me. Even so, I felt miserable. I felt so lonely.

Then, on another day, I was trying to encourage him by making a cup of coffee for him while he was asleep. But, being my usual clumsy self, I tripped and spilled the coffee all over his textbooks.

"Oh no," I shrieked and woke him up from his slumber.

"Mm... what are you doing?" He stirred in his sleep and sat up from the couch while rubbing his tired eyes.

I tried to cover the mess by standing in front of the table, but I guess he knew what was going on and came to the study table.

Once he saw his stained books, his expression turned dark. I backed away from the table in fear.

"Can you just- never mind," he bit his lip and ran his hand through his hair in frustration. I tidied up the mess swiftly and exited the room, mumbling a guilty apology as tears formed in my eyes.

I cleaned myself up and retreated back to the bedroom. It's been days since he hugged me to sleep, the bed felt bigger and colder when Keiji wasn't around.

"I'm sorry," I muttered against the pillow as I buried my face in it. I felt guilty for bothering him when he's studying, I should be helping him out, but instead, I'm just adding more to his worries. His exam starts in a week, and here I am, being so bothersome.

I wonder what can I do for him...

[Akaashi's point of view]

"Potassium, sodium chloride, brass... and done!" I memorised the key points that I was weak at, and I felt productive and satisfied.

I stretched my limbs, letting a yawn escape my lips. The house felt unusually quiet, and so I checked my phone.

The bright screen lit up and I realised it was already past 12 midnight. Keira should already be asleep, and Seiryuu, what is she up to?

I proceeded to tidy the scattered books and that's when I saw the stains. From the scent, I could confirm that it was coffee.

Then I remembered Seiryuu brewed a cup of coffee for me today. But where is it?

I can't recall anything except equations and formulas that's swimming in my mind. Deciding to leave the matter as it is, I returned to my room as I feel my eyes getting heavier by the second.

When I opened the door, I saw Seiryuu lying face down on the bed. Her back heaved up and down, I was unsure if she's asleep or not.

"Sei?" My voice came out hoarse and raspy. I coughed and felt my throat burning. Then I realised that I've been cooping in the study room all day long.

A wave of guilt washes over me and I dragged my feet towards the bed, softly landing on it without waking the asleep girl. But just when I released a sigh, Seiryuu moved her body and I held my breath.

She didn't seem to be asleep, her uneven breathing gave her away.

"Sei? Are you awake?" I whispered.

It was silent for a while, until she sniffled. I turned my body to her when I heard it, and she was in fact crying.

I felt a pang against my heart. Was it something I did today?

"What's wrong, babe?" I asked. When she didn't answer, I fiddled with my hands nervously. Once I got over my emotions, I gently turned her body around so she was facing me.

After seconds, her sniffles turned to steady breathing. She sat up slowly with her hair messed up, but even so, she still looks so beautiful.

"I'm here to listen," I sentenced my words awkwardly, because I'm guessing that I'm the problem.

Seiryuu hugged her knees to her chest, and with a croaky voice, she began to speak.

"We're getting married, everything is becoming hectic. I, I'm feeling overwhelmed by certain things, but even though I'm feeling stressed and frustrated, I don't want to bother you, because you have more important things to tend to."

[Third person's point of view]

While Akaashi listened, a lot went through his mind. He felt like a jerk for not being able to see that his fiancée was in a wreck.

Seiryuu almost had breakdowns several times within a span of weeks. She felt like the wedding preparations is crushing her and suffocating her in the process. She had sleepless nights due to the planning, and when she had different opinions with Akaashi's parents, she didn't know how to express them and this made her feel so miserable.

"You're my motivation to get through the fast paced life. But now you're busy studying, I feel like I'm facing all of our problems alone. I'm not blaming you for studying, I'm just ranting to you childishly. I'm sorry for being such a spoilt brat," Seiryuu cried.

In Akaashi's eyes, his fiancée definitely wasn't a spoilt brat. In fact, he thinks that he's matured and strong willed. He felt guilty, because he left the wedding preparations to her to complete. He wasn't there to discuss and share ideas with her, it felt like one sided.

One thing for sure is that, they weren't blaming each other.

"I'm really sorry you felt this way, I know it has been hard on you, and yet I still didn't make time to plan the wedding with you. You're not ranting to me childishly, I'm grateful that you chose to share your troubles thoughts with me, and you're not a spoilt brat, I'm sure of that," Akaashi wrapped his arms around Seiryuu, expressing his appreciation through a comforting embrace.

"I feel like I can't go on anymore, I'm really tired," Seiryuu mumbled.

Akaashi pulled away from the hug, staring at her with wide eyes filled with astonishment before coming up with a conclusion.

"Y-you want to, call it off?"

From the amount of shock in his voice, it showed how much he wanted to keep her.

"Yes. I want to call the day off. I'm really exhausted, I need a good sleep," Seiryuu acted like nothing happened and dived into the covers.

Akaashi heaved a sigh of relief before flicking her forehead with little strength.

"You scared me back there," he huffed.

"Hehe, I'm sorry. Goodnight, prince," she giggled.

"Goodnight, dramatic princess."

And so, the night ended with a short series of childish bickering before their eyes closed.

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