This never was an option | Drarry fanfiction |

Chapter 1

{ Harry Pov.} 

I wish I was never born or at least I wish I would die that night . But I didn't . And because of that  I lost my friends , godfather , parents , Dumbledore , prof. Snape , Lupin , Fred , Cedric ... Basically everyone who ever matters to me . Now that I found out that Ron and Hermione were using me and Ginny cheating on me , I found out that I don't have a reason to be in this world . Before my 'reason' to be alive was that I must kill Voldemort . I don't have family so why would I live ?Yep , you heard right . Me , Harry James Potter , wants to die . It's funny  isn't it ? The boy who survived two killing curse wants to die by jumping off a rooftop or cutting himself to the point he will bleed out . I forgot to mention that I cut ? Oh well . 

" Boy ! Get down and make us breakfast ! "

Oh , right . I forgot to tell that I still live with the Dursleys .  They look like a normal family , right ? But in fact  they are abusing me mentally and physically . They starve me as well . It's not that I complain , I deserve all of this . Well , might as well go now  before they will beat shit out of me . 

I ran down the stairs as fast as I could , which caused me to wince in pain because of yesterday's beating . I walked into the kitchen and started making breakfast . When it was ready I served it to the Dursleys . 

" We are coming out today . On the fridge is a list of chores you need to do . And if you won't do them all . " 

Vernon give me look that caused me shake in fear . No matter how long I've been abused it still hurt as much as before . After they ate everything they left the house . I cleaned the dishes and looked at the fridge . Oh my ... I couldn't even do it in a few days , what about hours ! Might as well start . 

Thank god that it's the last week of vacation . Then I am coming to Hogwart . Not that I want to come back here . After I killed you know people don't talk to me anymore . I just thought about it and I want to die in my home . In place that I love . So I was thinking 'bout jumping off the astronomy tower . Yeach , that would be great .

I was cleaning and washing , before I knew I heard the sound of my uncle's car . Shit ! I didn't have time to make dudleys bed . I was horrified . 

" Well ... Now let's see what didn't you do. "  

Said my uncle while coming through the door . He walked around  the house and looked everywhere . 

" BOY !!! COME HERE !!! " 

He yelled . I slowly walked upstairs and came to my room . I was standing at the door and he was in the middle of my room . He walked over to me and grabbed me by my shoulder . He threw me on the floor next to the mirror and locked the door . While he was doing this I looked at myself in the mirror . I was shocked by what I saw there .

There was laying a small , thin boy  with bruises all over his body . Arms in bandages from cuts . And eyes ... They looked emotionless . The spark that was in them all these years , was gone . But this wasn't the thing that scared me the most . The thing was that when I looked at myself , I didn't recognize me ... 

" Now ... Let's have some fun ... " 

I looked at my uncle and saw that he was taking of his belt . Well beating , like always . He was holding his belt and walker over to me . He made a move and I felt sharp pain in my back . I tried not to scream . Tears started to fall from my eyes as I feel it again and again , and again . After I think 20 minutes , he dropped the belt . I tried to stand up , but I fail . I looked back and saw that he was taking a knife from pocket . He lowered the sharp object to my back and start carving something . At this point I couldn't scream . I couldn't move . I couldn't cry . It was just pain . A lot of pain . When he was done I was breathing heavily . I closed my eyes and waited when he will come out of the room . But he didn't .

He grabbed me by my hair and threw me onto the bed . I looked confused at him , but he just smiled . Not a nice smile , that kind of smile that makes you shake in fear . He walked to the bed and grabbed my neck . I started choking and crying at the same time because I knew what was about to happen . He lay me down on my stomach and tied my hands with his belt . I looked at him and started whispering .

" Please ... Please don't ... Don't do it ... Please ... " 

He slapped me and pinned my tied hands to the bed . And that was the last thing before he did something that I will remember through my whole life . 

{ 1 week later } 

{ Draco Pov. } 

I was standing at the station with my parents . I looked at them and they both smiled . 

" Go Dragon , it will be okay . " 

My mother said before hugging me thigh . I waved goodbye to them and walked to the train . I stepped in and looked for a compartment .

I was walking and then I saw three , not four people from gryffindor . Granger , Weasley , Weaslette and Longbottom . But the thing that interested me the most was where is Potter ? He wasn't with his so-called friends ? 

I started walking again . Then I saw an empty compartment . I walked in and closed the door . 

" Malfoy ? " 

I heard a very tired and scared voice , which I didn't recognize . When I turned around I saw no one other than Potter . But my eyes widened in shock . He was ... Different . His eyes were dull , like there wasn't life at them at all . He was skinny and I could see his covered bruises . 

" Potter ? " 

I asked , but he just nod his head and let out a shaking breath . He stand up and walker over to doors .

" Where are you going ? " 

I asked, grabbing his wrist . His eyes widened with fear and ... Pain ? I let go and looked him in the eyes . 

" Y-you need-do somet-thing ? " 

He asked, scared . Wow ... I never saw him in that state . 

" Well I was curious, why aren't you sitting with your friends ? " 

At the word 'friends' he looked at the ground and sight . 

" I ... T-they aren't m-my friend-ds an-nymore " 

Now it hit me . They used him all these years and now left him alone . And that Weaslette , she was hugging Longbottom . So probably she was cheating . At this moment I felt bad for Potter . Don't know why . 

" A-anything m-more ? " 

" Huh ? Oh , yeach ... Well ... " 

I looked at the floor . What if I ... 

" I wanted to apologize "