This never was an option | Drarry fanfiction |

Chapter 7

{ Harry Pov. } 

I stayed silent 'cause I didn't really want her to know . But she promised that she won't tell anybody . 

' Don't tell her ! You can't ! She won't help you ... She'll just laugh at you ... You are nothing ... Nobody cares for you ... '
' Please stop ... '
' Nobody loves you ... You should just die ... It's not like somebody will miss you anyways ... So just go and die ... ' 

" P-please s-stop ... " 
" Harry ..? " 
I looked up to see Milly with a worried face . I didn't realize but I was crying . 
" What's going on ? Tell me ... " 
" I-it w-won't let-t m-me ... " 
" Who won't let you ? " 
" T-this v-voice ... It-t'll h-hurt me i-if I'm g-gonna t-tell you ... " 

" Harry listen to me . Nobody will hurt you . I am here . This is just a voice , it can't hurt you ... For how long have you been hearing it ? " 
" S-since t-today ... " 
" That's okay ... It's not as bad as I thought . Tell me , what did this voice tell you ? " 

I looked her in the eyes and felt safe for the very first time . I took a deep breath and hugged myself tighter . 
" I-it t-tells m-me to k-kill m-myself ..." 
" Oh my ... Harry ? Have you - " 
She stopped and looked at me almost crying . 
" Have you ever wanted to kill yourself even when the voice wasn't there ..? " 

I was shocked by the question . Does she really care about me ? 
" I-I ... Y-yes ... " 
" Oh ... Harry ... " 
She hugged me . Small tears started rolling down her cheeks . She did care . I had tears in my eyes . Somebody really cares for me . I hugged her back and started crying ,  for I don't know how many times , this day . 

" H-harry ? Do you want to tell me something else ? " 
I think about if for a second . 
" Yes ... " 
" I'm listening ... " 

" W-well , I l-live w-with my r-relatives , and t-they are ... A-abusing m-me ... N-not only m-mentaly ...  I ... I h-had n-nightmares , and I c-can't sleep a-at all . I w-wasn't eating f-for a v-very long t-time b-because I d-don't f-feel like I should o-or d-deserve to e-eat . I'm u-ugly so i-it's not l-like a-anybody will e-ever like m-me . I f-feel like i-it's my f-fault that p-people d-died in W-war . After war ... G-ginny cheated o-on me and w-we b-broke up . T-that's why R-ron and H-hermione aren't t-talking w-with me . 

I finished and looked at her . Her eyes showed many emotions . She was sad , angry and shocked at the same time . 
" Harry ... Do you ... Cut yourself ? " 
I didn't answer that . I looked at the bed and said nothing . 
" Harry roll up your sleeve . " 
" N-no ... " 
" Harry please I'm trying to help you ... " 

She looked at me and smiled warmly . She cared . I know it . But , do I deserve this ? 
" O-okay ... " 
I slowly took off my hoodie . Her eyes widened in shock as she saw the blood on my shirt . I rolled up my sleeve and slowly took off my bloody bandages . She gasped as she saw my arm . She started crying and hugged me tight . 

" Why ?! Why would you do this ?! " 
What does she mean by that ? I just told her every single reason . Instead of one thing ... 
" You are amazing . You are beautiful . Everybody loves you ... Please don't do it again ... " 
" I'll t-try - "
" No . Promise me . Promise me you'll never do it again . " 

I looked her in the eyes and sight . 
" I p-promise I'll n-never d-do it a-again . "

She smiled and hugged me again . I hugged her back and we stayed like that for a while . 
" Okay now we need to take care of you . " 
She got up from the bed and grabbed my bag . She threw all of my things on the ground and looked for something . 
" Okay , nothing's here . Now your nightstand . " 
She threw all the things out my nightstand and grabbed the earlier bandages and ... My black box . 

" It's for your own good Harry ... " 
She said as she lay all my things into the closet or nightstand . I smiled at her a little because I knew she was right . 

" Well now , you . " 
She walked over to me and grabbed some bandages and alcohol with her . She poured some on my arm . It hurted a little bit but not as bad as my beating from Vernon . She wrapped my arm in clean bandages and threw away old . 

" Now c'mon . Take off your clothes . " 
I looked at her with shock .
" I-I need t-to ? " 
" Yes ... You need to change . " 

I slowly took off my shirt . I didn't want her to see my body . I am so ugly . 
" Oh my dear ... Did your uncle do that to you ? " 
I slowly nodded . She sighed and gave me some white T-shirt along with jeans . I pulled it on and she gave me a blue jeans jacket . I wore it and it looks pretty cool on me . But I don't remember having those clothes . 

" Since you are so skinny and Hogwart allows you to wear whatever you want this year . I'm gonna give you some of my clothes . And yours I'll throw away . We will go shopping with the girls this weekend . And you are going too . " 
She told me and I nodded my head .

We walked out of the room and went to the living room . Nobody was there . We sat on the couch and talked for a bit . 
" Hey Milly , I need to go to the bathroom . I'll be right back . " 
I told her and went upstairs . 

When I was walking back I heard two voices so I stopped and listened . 
" So did you talk with him ? " 
" Yes Draco . I did . " 
So I was right she's gonna tell Draco . As much as I wanted to go there and stop her , my legs wouldn't move . 
" And what did he tell you ? " 

" I won't tell you . "

What ?! She - She didn't tell him . So she ... Kept her promise ? 
" But why Milly ?! " 
" I can't tell you . He will be fine . I'll take care of him . " 
" I trust you Milly . " 

Draco started walking upstairs so I quickly hid in my room . When I heard closing the door I walked out and came back to livingroom . I sat on the couch and smiled at Milly . She smiled back and we started talking . 

Now I know ... That I can trust her ...

So guys ... Like ... I am realy shocked that somebody is actually reading my book . And thank you so much to all of you .You guys are amazing ❤ .
I wanted to ask you something thougt . Would you prefer Harry to wear more girly clothes or not . It's your choice . If nobody will answer I'm just decide by myslef .
Thank you for everything ❤