Not What You Wanted • Ben Solo | Kylo Ren

One

Several weeks passed so it was now mid-June and Rey couldn't remember the last time she was this happy on a day to day basis. Before Ben she had good days and bad days like everyone else with a few extra poor ones mixed in there but recently her life was dominated with relief and pure joy in the fact that she found someone truly worthy to care for her.

They saw each other almost every day, hanging out at both her and Ben's residences although Rey slightly favored his place more due to well...

The overall richness of the place.

Rey would lay in his arms almost every night and ask questions about him simply trying to know him better. By now, the two knew each other almost perfectly with Ben being able to order for her at most restaurants and knowing what kind of clothes she typically wore depending on the day.

It was the small things that created the big picture of their relationship and it grew stronger every day.

Despite having Ben there to care and feed her more often, she still had a need for her job unfortunately. If things (for some reason) went south with Ben, she needed something to rely on. She couldn't just sit back and rely on Ben and his ginormous but gorgeous penthouse forever.

Rey had gained a little bit of weight in the past month or so, with Ben always complimenting how stunning she looked whenever she felt insecure. She wasn't overweight or even close to it, in fact she was likely closer to being underweight than over. But this was new to her and wanted Ben to still want her.

Or to someday want her.

Because they hadn't had sex yet. They did other things occasionally but never went all the way. Rey anticipated when the time would finally come and a tiny part of her worried that he didn't want to which was why they hadn't yet.

Because she was ready. More than ready in fact.

So why was nothing happening?

It was the only fear Rey had in their relationship: that he didn't want her.

When they engaged in other sexual activities he seemed fairly dominant, so she would think that he'd want to fuck her by now.

But maybe not.

Whenever they'd get close to the act or Rey would talk about how much she wanted him, his response would consist of something like 'Not yet' or 'Let's wait a little longer.'

She had no idea what the holdup was but what she did know for sure was that she did not favour it in any aspect.

While she wanted to confront him about it and simply ask 'hey dude why haven't you rearranged my guts yet' but at the same time everything was going so well that she was afraid to ruin it.

Rey supposed that if nothing happened soon or if he continued making stupid excuses on why he just wouldn't impale her with his cock, then she might bring it up.

Who knew, only time would tell.

Work at RESISTANCE was mediocre as per usual. The actual work she did, she loved, but she had always loved doing makeup. As her co-workers know, her hatred towards her job dealt with..

You guessed it.

The models.

She knew she complained about them a lot, probably too much to Poe, in fact she wasn't even sure why he stuck around but regardless, she had gotten more used to it. Especially now that she had Ben whom she knew would retort every snobby thing they'd say to her; that alone made everything better.