Sanders Sides One-Shots

Bottled Up - Logicality

SOULMATE SEPTEMBER

Day 5: Any intense emotions your soulmate feels you will also experience.

TW: Homophobia (not much but still), arguing and toxic gender stereotypes. tell me if I forgot anything.

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Patton sat on the bed sighing sadly; he was used to it by now, so it's not like it was a surprise, but there still was that dull pain that comes with every old wound, the pain that reminds you that there is something wrong.

It had been 14 years since the last time he felt any emotion coming from his soulmate at all. He knew they weren't dead, he was sure of it and he did research to make sure he wasn't imagining things. He still felt them there, he could still feel their presence and sometimes even small, really dull burst of emotions, but it was clear to him that whoever his soulmate was, they were bottling up their feelings and they had been doing it for years.

It made him sad to think anyone would completely close in on themselves like that, let alone feeling his soulmate do it for years on end.

He once again took a deep breath, slowly getting up and heading to the mirror, fixing his mildly formal outfit and trying to swallow his nerves; sure, he was just going to dinner to his best friend's house, but he was aware of how high end his family was and how his parents didn't really... like him and his personality.

"You can do it. You ignored their little jabs before, you can do it again." He whispered, offering a small smile to his reflection.

"Patton, come on I can give you a lift to Logan's house!" His mum called out, making him jump slightly before quickly making his way down the stairs, not wanting to walk all the way to the other side of town.

Yeah, he didn't mind not having a car most of the time, he liked walking places and getting some fresh air, but he surely didn't deny a lift when it was offered to him, especially when the place he was heading to had people who would judge his every move.

It didn't matter, though, he was doing it for his best friend, because despite how good Logan was at hiding any and every emotion, Patton could see as clear as day how uncomfortable his parents made him, especially when they were having a work dinner.

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Patton picked at the food on his plate, a little too anxious to eat. He was sitting beside Logan at his parents' table, trying to ignore all the other fancy people talking around him. To be honest, he would have been lying if he were to say he wasn't uncomfortable. He just felt so out of place in the middle of all those elegant, high class people!

"So, Patton." Logan's mother, Mrs. Hodge, said catching the usually overly happy guy's attention. "Logan has informed me that you'll be watching a movie later tonight."

He nodded excitedly, not noticing the disapproving looks both the other's parents shoot him, nor the way Logan's fists clenched under the table.

"Oh yes! I'm going to show him Lilo & Stitch! It's one of my favorite Disney movies, even though I cry every time!" He said laughing slightly, making the two adults at the table immediately make a face of distaste.

"Oh," Mrs Hodge laughed falsely, "Patton, darling, don't you think that getting that emotional over an animated movie it's a little too... feminine?"

Patton furrowed his eyebrows confused, a sense of anger that was not his starting to bubble up inside him.

"Uhm, no actually. Showing our own emotions shouldn't be seen as something to be ashamed of or that's 'too girly' for man, on the contrary it should be normalized. Letting out feelings, whether positive or negative, is something everyone should do indifferently of their gender." He tried to explain calmly.

Mr. Hodge rolled his eyes, scoffing. "Melissa, I always told you he would be a bad influence, look at him, he is talking like one of those... queers." He said spitting out the word as if it tasted bitter.

This time Patton felt anger that wasn't his spike up inside him stronger than before, making him clench his fists just like the boy beside him. Still, he tried to smile and be polite.

"Oh, I am." He said, making the two adults shoot him a confused look. "I'm gay. I hope that isn't a problem." He offered them another polite smile, really hoping for the conversation to be over. Considering the nasty looks the two were shooting him, though, he doubt it was even close to being over.

"Actually, it is. You see not only it's unnatural to-"

"Enough!" Logan bursted out, his hand slamming on the table, making all of them jump and his mother gasp.

"That is enough, father. You can say everything you want about me, but leave Patton alone. And since you are acting as if I haven't told you this times and times before, I'm going to repeat it one more time, and this time I'm going to try and be as direct as possible: I don't give a single flying fuck about what you think of Patton. He is my friend and that is not going to change any time soon." He seethed, making everyone gasp.

The usually happy guy was staring at his best friend with wide eyes. Not only because for the first time since he had known him, he was showing emotions, but also because he could feel it. All the anger, all the hurt Logan was feeling at that moment, was running through Patton's body just as violently.

"Logan, sit down right this moment, you're embarrassing us." His father growled, only making his anger grow.

"No I won't sit down because I've had enough of your shit." He said through clenched teeth, making everyone gasp and him roll his eyes. "Yeah, yeah, be as offended as you want, I don't care. I'm tired of you making me feel like shit just for feeling emotions. I'm tired of you thinking of everyone as weak just for shedding a tear. I'm tired of listening to every bullshit coming out of your fucking mouth."

"Logan, are you really going to choose to embarrass us in front of our whole agency, just to defend that little queer over there?! Blood is thicker than water, son, and we are your family. Sit. Down." His mum said in an angry whisper, still trying to hide what she was feeling behind a fake smile.

The glare that Logan managed to send her way would have probably made a marine's legs shake.

"First of all, the correct saying is 'the blood of the coven is thicker than the water of the womb' so please, next time you try to use an idiom against someone try to educate yourself and at least saying correctly. Second of all, Patton has been more of a family than you have been in a long fucking time so shut up."

There was a second of silence as he just glared at his parents. He could feel Patton's concern somewhere inside of him as his best friend got up and gently took his hand in his. The nerdy guy took one last deep breath, trying to calm down before letting a smirk find its way on his lips.

"Oh, and for the record: I'm gay too and if you don't like it... well, as my friend Virgil would say, 'off you fucking fuck motherfuckers.'" He concluded.

All around them there was dead silence for a few moments. Everyone was staring at them completely shellshocked, their eyes wide and their mouth hanging open, and despite the anger he still felt, Logan couldn't deny the small feeling of satisfaction and pride slowly swelling up inside him.

"Get the fuck out of my house." Mr. Hodge growled, his hands clenching the cutlery so hard his knuckles turned white.

The nerdy guy just rolled his eyes and shook his head. "Gladly." He replied, and with that he took Patton's hand and stormed out of the house.

Once they were finally out of the mansion, Logan turned towards his best friend, ready to apologize for the awful experience; before he could even utter a single word, though, Patton's lips were on his, kissing him gently.

"Don't you dare apologize, Love. You did great and I have never been more proud in my whole life. I love you." He whispered on his lips and for the first time since he was six years old, Logan let a real smile spread on his lips; he was smiling so widely, even his cheeks started to hurt.

"I love you too." He answered lowly.

And with that they were back to kissing.