Sanders Sides One-Shots

Day 11 - Jigsaw - Loceit

SOULMATE SEPTEMBER

Day 11: Pick your favorite Soulmate AU and write about it, it can be from this list or something completely different. Fairies AU.

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Society has always taught Logan that to truly be happy and fulfilled, he needed to be with someone. That alone he was broken, incomplete; that being alone was wrong.

And Logan hated it. He hated seeing all those couples online feigning having this perfect relationships, when in reality they were anything but happy, and he hated even more the fact that they still succeeded in making him feel inadequate for being happy while single.

He was seven years old the fist time it happened. It was a warm summer evening when he naively went up to his father, asking what the purpose of life was; it was a very difficult question to answer, and no one would have ever expected a child to come up with that kind of question so for a few minutes his father had no idea how to answer.

How do you explain the meaning of life to a child when not even you had any idea what it was? So, Mr Lodge tried his best to explain what it was for him, in a way that his son would understand it and he accidentally did it perfectly: He explained that life was like a Jigsaw puzzle, but that each and every one of them had lost the box with the image, so none of them knew what the picture they were working towards was, so they were all just confidently guessing; like everyone does when they don't know how to start a puzzle, you have to start with the corners and work your way in: family, friends, hobbies and job. Obviously this would be different for each and every person and they would change all through out life, but that was the gist of it.

And then came the center piece. Logan's father explained that at the center of every jigsaw there was the thing that made that person the happiest they would ever be: that was the partner piece, the perfect person that would come along and finally complete you and make you whole, filling that missing space in your puzzle.

Despite how sweet that metaphor could have seemed, the only thing that registered in Logan's brain was simple: if you're not with someone you are not whole, and therefor broken.

And Logan hated it, because everything from that point on seemed to point towards love, everyone seemed to tell him one way or another that he needed love to be happy, to the point where if you didn't manage to find that perfect person fast enough, it was then acceptable to take the wrong person, the wrong jigsaw pieces and shove them into their life even if the pieces didn't match up. It was acceptable to move pieces around and forget about the ones you needed because if you had someone then you had to be happy...right?

Wrong.

That was the conclusion Logan got to. What everyone was telling him, what society was telling him, was not true. Now don't get him wrong, he didn't arrive at that conclusion out of nowhere. He tried to stay at their game, to do as they told him to; he was a man of science after all, he firmly believed in the scientific method. And each time he failed; each time he went and got into a relationship, he merely took him three months to realize how miserable he was in it.

So after many tries and many fails, he decided to stop listening to society and start to walk on his jigsaw on his own and by himself. He was tired of following the rules set by a society which did nothing but romanticize the idea of love to the point of making its people feel so broken and making them so obsessed with starting the rest of their life that they were willing to give up the one they were currently living.

He was firmly convinced someone had to first learn how to love themselves before presenting that someone else did. Because if you only love 20% of yourself then anyone could come along and love 30% of you and you'd think that they love you endlessly when in reality, is less than half. He was the idea that you had the idea that you had to love a 100% of yourself because at that pointed whoever came along at to go above and beyond to make you feel special and avoid being transformed in idea of yourself that your partner had falsely fabricated in their head and that you now felt like you have to live up to.