The Urge to Kill

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I guess you're even more confused. I get it, I couldn't really understand my thoughts and feelings when I was going though all of this either! Haha, anyways, back to the whole murder thing, don't you ever wonder? Are you seriously telling me you've never thought of killing someone?? The call, it's so strong. The call, it's so loud. It wouldn't leave me alone. It echoed through my whole head. I. Must. Kill..!

But, if you remember, I'm just a regular Uni student, what could I possibly do? Ha, good question. You see, I didn't just want to murder someone random. That would effect so many people, from their employer, to their family, to their friends! You do realise I have a heart! Ha! So, by studying the people around me, I could choose who I want to get rid of. It's quite difficult, you do realise. So, this was going on for about seven months. I couldn't find enough information on people that seemed like good candidates. It was so frustrating! There were times where I would abandon all hobbies just to go outside in search for someone. Rather than just seeking when I needed to leave the house, for instance, walking to my campus or driving to my parents' house, I began to leave the house unprompted to look for someone. However, I did catch on to some good people. There were three people in particular that seemed like they were fit for the job.

The first person that grabbed my attention was Noah. I couldn't find out his last name, not matter how hard I tried. I even went through his letterbox, but every time I did, he must of collected the mail already! That reminds me, I knew where he lived, which was a good bonus, it definitely made up for not knowing his last name. However, once when I looked in to his house through the windows, I saw him taking care of what appeared to be an elderly woman in a wheelchair, so that almost completely removes him from my list.

Then there was Jamie Brown. She is 26 years old and works in the Red Rooster in the shopping centre. She seems like okay choice, especially since I heard she has charges against her for harassing a black man who was ordering food. It was something racist, as you most likely imagined. She also seemed not very nice. I ordered Red Rooster during her shift, and she couldn't have been more careless. I mean, that's not really out of the ordinary when you work in the fast food chain, but there was something about her eyes. Although she acted as unenthused as the rest of her coworkers, behind her eyes I saw nothing. Now, at this point she seemed almost perfect, but I soon found out she still lives with her parents. They're unemployed. She's keeping them together, and I couldn't do that to the parents. She also seems kind of popular, so I can already imagine the drama her fiends would go through. Ha.

Then, there was Alexander Philips. He looked about 30 years old, but I can't be sure. I first took notice of him when he suddenly turned up to one of my cooking classes. He seemed okay. He was completely rubbish at cooking, but I guess that's what the lessens are for. He missed a few cooking sessions every so often, so after keeping an eye on him a little bit closer, and following him home a couple times, I came to the conclusion he's most likely depressed, which is way he was missing the classes. Now my mind was racing. I was thinking I could possibly do him a favour my picking him as the one, but I found out at that same time he had a wife and three kids, so yeah, that completely crossed him off the list.

I couldn't have been more frustrated. This was the most annoyed I had ever been. Majority of my time this year had been spent looking for someone. But this whole thing was to no avail. I honestly felt so defeated. Maybe this wasn't meant to be after all. My mind was blank for once. I couldn't think. Nothing was left. Words can't describe how upset yet pissed I was. Was the universe trying to protect those around me? Was this call really telling me to kill myself? I couldn't tell. It was all a blur.

I stopped searching in my free time. I mean, I couldn't help it when I was normally outside, I'd been doing it for so long. It's a hard habit to break. But I never went outside just to search for people. I was just going by my days, getting back into my hobbies. Uni, music stores, grocery shopping... little did I realise that on one fateful day, when I was buying some groceries, I locked eyes with her.
Her.

She was the one I chose.

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