|Gavin Reed x Male reader| Detroit Become Human|

Chapter Twenty - Two

- Gavin's POV -

I can't believe what I was doing but I was so struck by just how perfect [F/N] is. He was so different from me, he looked so pure compared to me but who wouldn't? It was mostly my own doing but that didn't mean that I could ever be alright with how my body looked. I could barely take my eyes off of [F/N] as he sat beside me and the urge to touch him was just haunting me at his point.

I couldn't stop my hand from reaching out and tracing down the side of his neck. Urges I haven't had in such a long time were beginning to surface and I didn't know what to do. The temptation to lean in and kiss all over this mans body was killing me. I just had to get a taste- My thoughts were interrupted when [F/N] spoke.

"I mean, why wouldn't I react like this for you? You already know how I feel, Gav." he says, his voice soft and quiet, as if he was afraid to break the moment. I open my mouth to speak before shaking my head, deciding it would be best if I didn't answer that.

"Take off your shirt..." I hear after a moment, my gaze turning to [F/N] before doing as he asked, tugging the fabric off my body and placing it beside me. He shifts onto the bed a little more, patting his lap. I hesitate, anxiety building in my chest. No, come on, you have to get used to it. I carefully move the covers off myself, trying to ignore the fact that most of me was trembling as I sit on [F/N]'s lap, awkwardly digging my nails into my palms before [F/N] grabs my hands, placing them on his shoulders.

"Grip as much as you need to, I'll tell you if you hurt me," he speaks just as softly as before, putting me at ease a little as I grip his shoulders. "And please, tell me if I make you uncomfortable, alright? We can stop when you want to." His hand finds it's way to my cheek, him leaning up to gently capture me in a kiss, making my eyes flutter closed, gripping his shoulders more and fighting the urge to move away from the man. He pulls back, letting out a slight satisfied hum before he trails light kisses across my jaw, hands moving to my side, hesitantly rubbing them. I tense, swallowing thickly - They both feel so different. [F/N] is so damn tender, it's not Conan. I bite my bottom lip a little when he presses his face into the crook of my neck, sending a shiver through me as his kisses and nips become a little more eager, my fingers digging into his skin more as I resist the need to react to all this.

[F/N]'s hands travel away from my sides, sliding up my stomach and stopping at my chest, running his fingers over there. I arch my back a tiny bit, pressing myself into his hands more while he pulls back, looking up at me to see my reaction. I glance down at him, loosening the grip I had on his shoulders.

"Do you want to go further?" he asks, me hesitating to answer so soon. I give a nod after a moment, letting [F/N] move his kisses to my collarbone and chest, sending a warm feeling through me. [F/N]'s hands travel down, grabbing my hips and pulling me against him more. My hips press against his lower stomach, making me shiver when he makes me roll them against him. I can't stop myself from sucking in a gasp when my crotch lightly rubs against [F/N]'s, and I can feel him shiver at the feeling as well.

[F/N]'s hand moved to my thigh, gripping it a little and I grit my teeth and slap his hand away, that horrible feeling building in my chest. I flinch away, out of reflex and close my eyes tightly, trying to keep my breathing steady.

"Do you need to stop?"

"... I'm sorry..."

- [F/N]'s POV -

Gavin felt so good to have against me like this but I can't help but feel surprised he'd let me do this. I don't care what Gavin thought, the male's skin was still so soft even though it had quite a few different textures to it.

I kiss over his chest, loving the fact that I could feel the man shivering against me. I lightly lick up the centre of it, feeling Gavin inhale sharply at it before I move my hand to his thigh. I could sense that he grew uncomfortable before he even slapped my hand. I quickly let go of him, looking up at him.

"Oh, don't apologise, please don't apologise, it's not your fault..." I say, cupping his cheek and watching as he scrunches up his features, obviously trying to clear his mind. I lean up, placing a very light kiss to his forehead, placing my other hand on the top of his back. "There's only one thing that I don't like..." I mutter, making Gavin open his eyes, looking a little stressed. "Did I upset you-" "No, I'm just so fucking hard right now..." I chuckle out, grinning at him and watching as he relaxes, a small smile forming on his lips. "I hate the fact that I have to agree." He rolls his hips, pressing them against my own and I can feel just down damn hard he is and I'm certain he could same for me.

"I'm sorry that I can't go further..." He mutters, looking down and looking more than ashamed of himself. I press a couple of kisses to his shoulder. "Gavin, stop, I'm not mad. I'm glad you let me try." I reply, gently rubbing the top of his back as he turns his gaze to me. He presses a light kiss to my cheek before sliding off my lap, gripping his own crotch and tugging a little to give himself some relief. I quickly look away, feeling my own crotch pulsing and not wanting to calm down anytime soon, it seemed.  I place my hand over my own hard-on, palming a little and letting out a shaky sigh before climbing into the bed beside Gavin. He curls up, tugging the covers over himself and shivering.

"Bad thoughts?" I question, seeing Gavin nod as he scoots closer to me. I take the hint and wrap an arm around him, him sliding up against me and nuzzling his head against my chest. I bury my nose against the man's hair. "Have you been using my shampoo?" I ask, the question just leaving me. "It's a comfort thing, shut up," Gavin grumbles and I can feel him move his hand downward. "Ugh, fuck... I hate you..." He grumbles, obviously trying to get himself to calm down. I hug him a little closer, ignoring the throbbing feeling down below. "Just... Try and sleep." I mumble, earning a nod in response. I close my eyes, squirming a tiny bit and slowly falling asleep against Gavin.

The next morning wasn't as awkward as I was expecting it to be. Gavin was already up by the time I awoke, grunting and trying to catch my bearings. I sit up, seeing Gavin walk out of the bathroom and down the hall through my half-opened door. I get up, glad that I was much calmer than last night. I wander down the hall, watching as Gavin makes himself a coffee. I lean around him, placing a light kiss on his cheek.

"I'm glad you're comfortable here," I mutter, watching as he turns to look at me, handing me a cup of tea that I didn't even notice. I take a sip as Gavin leans against the counter, smiling a tiny bit to himself. "What's that smile for?" I ask, making Gavin look at me.

"Is it bad that I'm a little proud of myself for last night?"

"No! Be so damn proud, Gavin, I'm proud of you too. You went past your comfort zone and I'm so damn proud."

"Can we try again soon? Maybe not tonight but.. Soon?"

- Have another chapter that I wasn't actually expecting to publish today but I'm just listening to disturbed and writing soo, I hope you enjoyed :D thank you all so damn much for the comments and everything blblb just happy Eli noises
The next one will probably be a lot longer vlvlvl ill hopefully have it out tomorrow! -