"What are you doing here? And where's Joe?" Taylor looks around in her friends house trying to find something to look at other than Selena's eyes. "We got into a fight....again. But I said something's I probably shouldn't have and I left. I don't plan on coming home for a few weeks." Selena stares at Taylor in shock, sure the couple has had their fair share of arguments but never this extreme.
"Ok...why don't you come in and sit down. Take a breather. Just explain everything." Taylor nods and holds Tate on her hip over to the living room. Selena tells the girls to go get a snack and to go in the play room.
"What exactly was this about?" Selena asked, in return Taylor fiddled with her wedding ring, spinning it back and forth. "Um, the same thing as last time." She breathes heavily and finally makes eye contact with Selena. "I don't know what to do! Of course I want to give him what he wants, but when I'm scared to death and him saying that if I have another miscarriage that we'll just try again he doesn't understand how he hurts me. Sure it's sad to him that we lost a baby but it's my body that goes through it. It doesn't help that I don't tell him half the things that go through my mind. Last time it happened I refused to be sexually active for a whole year. And I don't know if my body can physically go through pregnancy again. I'm thirty seven Selena, I'm not thirty anymore, I can't just smoothly go through that anymore. How does he not get it? Isn't common sense?" Taylor questions. Selena stays silent for a moment, not knowing what to say.
"Maybe his head isn't where yours is. I think you should talk to him, calmly. I get and support everything that you're saying but you said it yourself, you aren't telling him everything. If you want him to understand then you need to tell the whole truth or this will never end." Taylor looks at her hands, finding them more interesting than this conversation and sniffs.
"Awe, Tay don't cry. You're going to make me cry. It's okay." Selena rushes over to the other side of the couch and wraps her arms around Taylor, trying not to squish the baby in between them. "But I want to try so bad, I hate seeing him begging for something I'm scared to do. I would love another baby but I'm. So. Scared." A few tears escape her eyes and run down her cheeks. "It's okay to be scared. And nobody is forcing this on you, even you know that no matter how much he wants this he wouldn't ever force you. He's not like that and you know it." She sadly nods, knowing Selena is right. "I just need to get out of my head, I need to get away from the constant pressure. Can we please stay with you for at least two weeks? I can't go home, if I do I'll probably divorce that man. I'm just not in the right state of mind."
"Of course you can! Ryan is coming home in four days though, I hope you don't mind."
"Why would I mind? And even if I did I can't tell you to kick your fiance out now can I?" They both giggle and stand up to find out what the girls are doing. "Yeah I guess not."
They go to check on the girls and they were fine, just playing with each other.
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"It's been a week and he's called me thirty four times." Taylor sighs and drops her phone next to her. "He's worried Taylor, call him back." Taylor glares at Selena, making Selena put her hands above her head in defense. "I'm just trying to help." Another sigh comes out of Taylor's mouth and she stands up to hug Selena. "I know, I'm sorry I'm being annoying. You let me into your house and my kids but I'm just complaining about my husband calling when when I didn't tell him when I was coming back." They release from the hug and go out into the back yard. As the two if them watch the kids running around Selena starts thinking. "Hey, haven't the girls been asking to see Joe?" Taylor turned to her, not knowing where this is going. "Yeah, why?"
"Well why don't you text Joe and tell him that they want to FaceTime him. You don't even have to be in the video. Just let them see their dad, it's been a whole week Tay." Taylor knows that Selena is right but doesn't want to admit it. Slowly but surely the idea grew on her. "Girls come here!" The three that were playing in the back yard came running and Tate was already next to Taylor. "Do you want to call daddy?"
"Yes! Mommy! Please!" Brinley screamed, Emilia and London screamed something very similar but you couldn't make it out due to Brinley being so loud. Taylor smiled at them and text Joe telling him the plan.
T: hey the girls want to ft you....are you free?
J: yeah can I talk to you too?
T: uhhhh
J: I take that as a no
T: I'm just not ready, I'm sorry 🙁
J: take your time, I know I wasn't being nice to you. Just call and I'll answer.
T: kk
Soon enough Joe's face popped up on her screen and she handed it to Emilia as she is the oldest. Taylor stands in the corner of the living room that she walked into, not ready to face hearing Joe's voice just yet. Selena keeps her distance from Taylor knowing she needs time to think. In all honesty she wants to go back home and wants to explain everything. But her stubbornness is shining through at the moment. About twenty minutes later all of her kids are running towards her with her phone. "Mommy! Daddy wants to talk to you!" Taylor raises her eyebrows, "oh does he now?" She reluctantly takes the device and holds the camera to the floor while she walks into the room she has been staying in. After she has sat down on the bed she finally shows her face. Joe's face imminently drops seeing how tired and exhausted she looks.
"Taylor....have you been sleeping?" It's only now that she looks at herself, bags under her eyes and dark circles. She's been up all waking hours of the night almost every night this past week from her girls or her mind keeping her awake. "No, not really." She hung her head low as if she was ashamed.
"Baby you have to sleep, it's not healthy. Either bring the girls home or all of you come home. Seriously have the girls sleep with Selena tonight."
"I can't. Ryan is home and they take up the whole bed." She sighs and leans her head on the headboard of the bed. All of the sudden emotions starts to flood through her body. And tears start to spill out of her eyes.
"I can't do this. I n-need you. I love them to death but I just can't. P-please come pick me up. I can't, I can't, I can't, I can't-"
"Taylor. Stop. Look at me. Breathe, count by threes, that helps. I can be over there in twenty minutes but right now I need you to focus on your breathing and something you love, think about song writing." She nods her head and inhales then exhales. After a good fifteen minutes her tears are almost stopped and she's much calmer. "Will you be alright if I end the call and drive over?"
"Yeah. Please hurry."
"I will, see you soon."
There will be a part three maybe even a part four idk
