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𝓒𝓪𝓷'𝓽 𝓻𝓮𝓭𝓸 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽'𝓼 𝓪𝓵𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓭𝔂 𝓭𝓸𝓷𝓮
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THE SUN PIERCED through the blinds as i awoke curled up in my bed. i don't know how i got here, since i last remember being on the sofa, but it's oh well.

the house sounded quiet, too quietly, it sort of alarmed me. i liked the eccentric thrill of peace. i was usually always alone but still not familiar with this new found eternal peace. i could hear the dripping of the rain outside my opened window.

the ticking of the clear shiny drops reminded me of the noise of the clock. in a way, it gave me anxiety, but in a way, it gave me peace. I look down to see my plaid pajamas sagging as i get up from my bed.

talking walks was an occasuinal thing for me to do, but today i decided to take one today. I walked into my closet to grab a brown puffer jacket and some brown worn out high top converse. taking walks in the rain was calming, well that is until it starts to down poor.

I walked down the stairs and rushed out straight before anyone could object me. maeve always asks to come with me right before, if i do not rush out. her blabbering voice would be so annoying while i am just trying to get some vitamin d.

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while i was walking with my hands emerged down deep in my pockets, i found some very old cash to my surprise. i haven't been out to anywhere in public, as in a restaurant and store in ages, so i decided why not try and see if i would be able to manage. today i woke up in an oddly good mood, and i do not understand why. i almost feel like i am some what getting back to my old self.

i stumbled across a café with a big sign that was labeled 'BEACHWOOD CAFE' on it. I took a deep breath before deciding to open the door.

the door chimed as it opened, and i looked up to see a short blonde girl with a bright smile looking at me.

"hi! welcome to the beachwood café what would you like today" she asked, while having her pearly whites exposed.

her bright cheery mood on this very gloomy day startled me, i feel so un self aware because of my lack of socialization these recent months.

"uhm.. hi, may i please have an iced carmel oatmilk late" i stated with slight hesitation in my voice.

"yes of course, was there any thing else you would like?" she said with a smile while tapping some buttons on the register.

"oh uh.. yeah i will have some cinnamon coffee cake too, please." i stated with a small smile peeking out.

"okay perfect. your total will be $7.87 please" she stated politely

i looked down at her name tag to see the name 'sommer' written neatly in cursive on it.

i placed the cash on the counter as she made my drink, and grabbed me my coffee cake. she handed me the cold cup filled with my drink, and the crinkly little paper bag with a slice of coffee cake placed in it.

i walked over to a table in the corner by a big window and sat down and just stared out of it as i watched people walk past. i am glad i chose to do this, my room is a boring place and i feel like i am drowning with sorrow in it. all the happy memories i made in it, has turned sad. the dozens of old memories in picture form scattered across my bedroom walls, and it hurts to know i can't make any new ones with gracey.

"hi, sorry i'm a bit awkward but i was just wondering if i could sit down with you for a bit, i'm on my break and i'm a tad bit lonely" the blonde kind girl asked.

"yeah.. uh sure, of course" i said in the most reassuring tone i could spit out

"i never got to learn your name, but i'm sommer, even tho you could probably tell from my name tag" she said with a friendly giggle

"oh yeah, my names fleur"

"oh my god, really? that's so beautiful i actually took a french class, just for one semester because i was no good but that is one of the basic words i learned and it is beautiful." she said in the most hyper tone i've heard anyone talk in recently.

sommer was friendly. very extroverted to the point where it seems like she could talk to a dog for hours and they would somehow manage to end up speaking english. that's how friendly she is.

"oh thank you, yeah i don't really know why my mom decided to name me fleur, i feel like it sounds like a word E.T would've made up but it's whatever" i said with a smile peaking through

sommer was easy to talk to. i don't even know her and this may be the last time i ever see her, but i'm genuinely going to cherish this moment for the rest of my so far, dreadful life.

"no no no, trust me your name is beautiful and it fits you very well." she said with a big bright smile that made her dimples show.

"after my break, i just have 30 minutes and then my shift is done, i was wondering if you just wanted to go swing by bondi for a bit? not to swim or anything but i always find it calm to sit down on the rocks at the beach on a rainy gloomy day." sommer questioned as she stared into my eyes eager for my response.

i hesitated answering and i thought through my answer. debating weather to go home and sit in my room just binging random shows on netflix for what it feels like the rest of eternity, or to go to the beach with her was withering on my mind. i was really contemplating the first choice, but then ruel popped into my mind and it made the section option perfect.

"sure." i said with a small smile peaking through.

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A/N

ahhhh okay hiii!!! idk if anyone even reads this anymore since i haven't finished it and i've been working on it for almost two years (embarrassing yes)

i made a very noticeable harry styles reference in here i bet all of u caught it :)

also!! the picture at the top is actually a picture from my conan concert which i thought was quite fitting since this book is inspired by conans song lookalike :)

i am trying to be way more active in writing and reading since i do online school, and im at a very tough spot in my life this past year and writing and reading is very calming.

in my experience my old pov was fleur's and that's how i could right it so easily, but im finding it becoming harder to write the depressing shit so i thought it would be best to finally show fleurs growth and happiness appear like mine has.

that's all i had to say but remember if you ever need to reach out my personal ig is _delaneyparrott  and if you dm me on there i will always respond!! but also feel free to just dm on here if you ever need.

you guys are so loved, you are worth it please stay.❤️

-del