"𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑖𝑛 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠, 𝑑𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑒?"
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the loss of her best friend, and the boy she loved cheating on her.
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TW!! there will be mentions of suic...
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MY ROOM felt empty, the silence that i'm used to but it yet still felt so empty. knowing that he was here in my house but not having his usual presence in my room affected me more than i ever began to thought it could, or would. he hurt me so much yet i will always love him, that's the torturous thing about love, it never truly fully dies. no matter how hard i've tried to get my mind off of him i can't and it's exasperating. he's exasperating.
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my mom left for the airport, i could tell she was upset with leaving me at this state. the agonizing guilt that overwhelms me hasn't gone away or gotten better, it's worsened immensely. i know gracey wouldn't like me being like this but it's so hard not to be like this. i have no energy, almost no emotions i'm numb to everything except for sadness, sadness overwhelms me. one of me and graceys favorite movies to watch together was inside out, we were around 13 when the movie first came out and our parents were obsessed with making fun of us for being so overly obsessed with a children's movie, but we were still so obsessed with it. i mean to be honest it is a very good movie, i would still watch it til this day, but it feels wrong to watch it without gracey. it almost feels like the movie is happening for me, sadness is turning all my memories blue, she's touching them. every happy memory i can think of has been turned sad, and i don't know how to get them back to happy. i know i'm letting gracey down, but i can't help but let everyone down at this point, i don't have enough energy to attempt to keep trying. every day it feels like i'm playing russian roulette with my mind, we will just see how long it finally takes to kill and destroy me.
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IM BACK BITCHES !!!!! IM SO SORRY FOR THE VERY SHORT CHAPTER BUT I HAVENT WROTE THIS FOR A YEAR SO IM TRYING TO REMIND MYSELF HOW FLEUR IS AND SHIT SO THIS CHAPTER JUST HELPED ME DO THAT😩😩 RUEL WILL COME MORE INTO IT SOON😏😏
holy shit i missed writing this so much. it's like therapeutic i stg. i can just basically write all my feelings out into this story and i love it sm ughhhhh ive missed it.
my dumbass deadass decided to recontinue this book when school starts in 5 days when i had the whole summer to do this😀 idk if you can tell but i'm very smart🥰🥰
oh wellll i'm gonna try to update this book frequently we will see if i can live up to it but i will try my best to do so. anyways i love you all pls take care and thank you so much for reading it means so so so much to me !!! <3
