𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒- 𝑟𝑢𝑒𝑙

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꒰🖇꒱ 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑎𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑠𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑒, 𝑑𝑜 𝑖 𝑐𝑟𝑜𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑑? ♡꙼̈ ࿐ ࿔

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   [ 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗮𝗺𝗲 - sky mcreery]
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"What are you doing here?" rung through my ears as i stared at my feet. my mouth felt glued shut, nothing would come out, i couldn't open it, nothing. the only thing i could feel was water slip out of my eyes like pouring rain in a storm down my cheeks. i felt like i was frozen in time, i couldn't move, i just stood there with tears running down my eyes and stared at my feet. i felt safe in his presence, i felt like nothing could hurt me, not even my own mind. i couldn't tell what ruel was doing but all i know is that he's still standing next to me because i can see his long feet two inches away from mine.

"fleur.." he whispered softly as he moved my hair out of my face.

i slowly moved my head up to look into his piercing hazel..eyes. i don't really know what color they are, they change but that's what i so utterly love about them. he looks different, so different. i didn't realize 7 months could change a person so much but they did. his hair, it's longer and the color looks a tad bit darker but still has highlights in between strands. his style, it's more different, ugly to some people but i like it. on his upper lip there is a caterpillar looking thing that makes me want to laugh, but i couldn't, nothing came out. he looks so happy, so carefree,less stressed, just more vibrant in life. his new self just happens to be better off without me.

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as i walked into my bedroom door, i could smell a familiar scent of perfume, but i knew it wasn't mine nor my sisters, or mother's. i set my bag down and walked over to my bed to see a neatly wrapped box with a bow, and my name wrote out in nice neat handwriting. it had a letter on the top so i carefully grabbed it and opened it up.

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fleur, i will be seeing you around a lot recently, i will be staying at your house for a couple weeks when your mom is away for work and i will be here to make sure everyone is okay. i know you are 17 next month, but because of recent situations your mom needs some extra reassurance to make sure you and your sister are safe while she is gone. and i will be like your guy's own little uber driver because i get the car hehe. i just thought to give you this gift to remind me you that i love you, and that you are always safe.i will also be picking up your medications for you and will unconditionally show you all love and support when you first take them. with some of these items i hope we can have a little pamper spa session together and make life long memories.
love, coco xx

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i tried to neatly rip off the shiny, beautiful flower wrapping paper that was wrapped tightly around the large box. flowers made me so happy, something about them, they are just so beautiful and elegant. everytime i think of flowers happiness comes into mind, i don't know if i had an abnormal connection with flowers because my name means flower in french or a different reason, but i just have always loved them.

i slowly lifted up the top of the lid off the box and placed the lid next to me as i ripped out the tissue paper. i saw a tiny necklace placed at the top. it was a gold chain with a mini jar with flower petals and resin inside the jar. the necklace shined bright off the reflection of sun coming out my window. as i dug deeper in the box there was a large notepad with a box of simplistic looking pencils next to them. i liked journaling and writing, it made my mind escape reality and convert it into this safe spot to release all of my raw emotions. digging deeper into the box i came across some hygiene products and skincare. there was loads of makeup products too and i feel guilty receiving all of this. just because i'm suffering doesn't mean i deserve gifts and pity, it's my fault i'm like this.

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when i was in the shower the memories of what happened today were replaying in my mind. i know i shouldn't have ran away when i saw ruel but i couldn't help it, i couldn't see him. seeing him laying there with my lookalike made my heart shatter. jealousy stung through my body at just the thought of that. i applied a body scrub coco gave me, all over my body that was pale and lacked of color. i couldn't tell if the water running down my cheeks came from my eyes or the scorching hot water coming out of the faucet.i just wish he had stayed, but instead he's staying with my lookalike.

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okay so this was pretty shitty but i jus wanted to update😁😁 school is boring, so that is very lovely indeed🥰 but uh yüùh i don't edit these so i jus hope they make sense😼

also quick shoutout to ruelvdfanfics and ruelandxander  for always being there for me and never making me feel ignored or left out, and just always letting me vent to you guys, you guys make me feel less alone and make me feel like there is people there for me even tho i'm annoying, just thank you guys sm and i loaf you guys so so so much😁

okay i'm done😁😁
please comment and vote🤤🤤
peace😀- del