𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒- 𝑟𝑢𝑒𝑙

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꒰🖇꒱ 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢'𝑟𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑛 𝑎𝑛𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑔𝑖𝑟𝑙𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑚𝑠 ♡꙼̈ ࿐ ࿔

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Heading down the stairs i could feel my mom and my sister's eyes upon me. their eyes tracing upon me as i kept moving down the steps freaked me out a little, they never paid any attention to me until now. when i reached the last step i hopped down and their gaze turn down to my toes as a winced in pain remembering what happened last night. my feet and toes ached and i could see blood marks on my socks. i limped over to the dining table, and saw the big stacks of pancakes and i could smell the sugary scent of maple syrup. i took a seat next to maeve and immediately her eyes darted to my arm. the sudden tinge of discomfort rushes over me. i grabbed 2 pancakes from the stack and placed them
down onto my shiny ceramic plate.

breakfast went by fast, i didn't eat much though i just wasn't hungry, too sad to eat.  i sluggishly crawled on my knees up the stairs to go hibernate in my room. but then i shut my eyes because i craved for darkness. the darkness was relaxing it felt like i had no worry's, no more reasons to cry, no more reasons to hate myself and everything so very much, but my darkness slowly faded away as i got trapped in my mind like i always do, and the memory of the day i first met ruel popped into my head.

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3rd of december, 2018

it was a really chilly night but me and gracey decided to go sit in the sand by the ocean and just appreciate our surroundings. the fresh scent of the ocean and the grainy feel of the sand. the waves flowing so peacefully and gentle. the sun setting which was filled with vibrant shades of peaches, light blues and pastel purples. my eyes began to water because of the cold air blowing in them. i turned my head to see a tall boy and a shorter girl laughing together while walking. they looked alike so i just assumed they were related but i didn't know, because they were strangers.