happy pill

future

if you're a look into my future

then I don't know what to think

it doesn't necessarily get better

because nothing goes away

but you seem to cope better

or present better

I don't know

what could I know?

I'm not you

it doesn't matter how alike we are

I might not even make it to your age

a higher dosage

you say?

well maybe

why not?

can't say I've tried everything

until I've done it all

I'm so tired of trying

it's exhausting

all the thoughts running in my head

on a loop

never ending

never running out

like poisoned fish and loaves

I'm always hungry

and overfed

and tired

so tired

haven't I already made that point?

stop me

stop life

I'm afraid to die

afraid if there's nothing

more afraid if there's only pain

never ending

on a loop

but how would that be different?

exactly

we all make our own hell on earth