i want to say thank you,
to the friends that pulled me up
as if i had a rope tied around my waist
from the darkest and deepest well.
when i felt the familiar feeling
of being stuck in a loneliness
so strong it wears itself on
my body.i want to say thank you,
for reminding me what its like
to meet new people,
and feel unapologetic about
who i am.i want to say thank you,
as you stuck by my side
when i felt my side of the story,
stripped to a version
i couldn't recognize.
the version that plastered
my name and face
to the people who had no faith in me.
for believing me,
for picking to love me.i want to say thank you,
my summer was filled
with memories of not only laughter,
but smiles that only come
from being in a place of pain.
as i found myself again,
i realized that amidst the chaos,
i had never been more grateful.i want to say thank you,
because i have felt more alive
in the past 2 months
than i had ever imagined.
where scattered happiness no longer
existed based off how my relationship was.
where a good day was no longer about
whether or not i hung out with him.
where my outlook on life was no longer affected
by his.i want to say thank you,
because as i found you all,
as you have all held me in your arms,
as i have cried and yelled and screamed,
i am closer to remembering who i am,
without him.
and i am closer to loving exactly
who that is.-m
YOU ARE READING
year 1.
Poetrya collection of poetry written by yours truly as i navigate through the emotions of my first year of college and the summer before. enjoy <3 -malia d #12 in poetry (sept 12 2020)