i am afraid of the vulnerability
of knowing that if i ever become someone's
first choice again,
they can analyze me every day
and decide if i am worth staying there.i am afraid of trusting the false hope
of permanence in that spot,
to have it wiped from me.
when all i know is what i've only ever done
to make them happy.i am afraid of loosing myself
in the transcendence of decline of
my worth to them,
that i forget why i blush in the beginning.
for all my mind remains on is the pain
of being left behind.-m
YOU ARE READING
year 1.
Poésiea collection of poetry written by yours truly as i navigate through the emotions of my first year of college and the summer before. enjoy <3 -malia d #12 in poetry (sept 12 2020)