Save You As I Save My Life (Jasico)

Prologue- Before It All Fell Apart

Before It Fell Apart.

I knew it was tricky. Coming out as TAnsgeder to my family. I had heard plenty of horror stories about people getting beaten, sent away to camps, or even killed by their parents for being who they are. REally, I didn't even want to tell them. Frankly, I didn't want to tell anyone, except for the people who accepted me on the group chats. Odd right? You trust people you've never met before more than your own family. Perhaps it's the fact that you've known your family for so long, and the least anyone online can do is cyberbully. 

I guess a good place to start this would be the week before I came out. BEcause, that was when my first boyfriend found out.

So here it is. The setting. My dark room, clothes strewn about, dirty hamper overflowing. I am seated on the large bed, huddled with my knees up to my chin, speaking to one of my many many online friends named Queen_Ray_. As far as I knew, she was the same age as me, but she was a lesbian, and had a girlfriend. She was one of my closest firends. She still is. I had notes and books strewn about my bed,  checking prices and such for gender reassignment surgery, and the hormones that would be nescessary. Now, as a fifteen year old, I needed permission, and I knew that it would be a huge step, coming out to my parents. I had also been planning that out, though I really really didn't want to. I knew that reynas parents still had trouble understanding her. 

“Hey NIcole! Can you come and help me, please?”

I glance up from my laptop at the black haired boy in my room. Panicking slightly, I quickly change pages, going to My Facebook. I close a few of the notebooks as he walks over, smiling.

“Percy, you know you aren’t allowed in here.” I murmur, uncrossing my legs, exuding a sense of calm despite the growing dread in my chest. He inches closer, smiling, head tilted. 

“I know, and I steadily refuse to obey that rule. Now come help me and Leo, you lazy butt.” HE wanders over, finally stopping beside me and kissing my cheek, nuzzling my temple silently. I blush and glare, crossing my arms over my small chest. All my life i’ve been labeled “Flat-Chest”, “Train Tracks”, Etcetera, etcetera, but the bullying quickly stopped when news got out I was dating PErcy Jackson, star of the school. The thought of him looking at me makes me self concious of my small chest and I always cross my arms when he's around, no matter what he says. He frowns then when he sees it and tries to tug at my arms, but I refuse to let him move them. 

“You alright NIco?” HE asks, and I nod, sliding out of my bed. He moves, helping me stand until I regain feeling in my legs, and then grins.  I grab my jacket and quickly pull it on, feeling self concious about my arms and the vaugley low cut top as well. Percy smiles and takes my hand.

“I’m fine! Just feeling a bit under the weather.” I smile and follow the boy out of my room. I huff and tug the purple jacket off of my chest, making it look like I don’t have boobs at all. I like that, the thought of someone not being able to tell my gender. WE walk quietly out of my black room into the light tan of the hallways. Pictures of Bianca, my older sister, and I adorn the walls, ranging from pictures of me as a baby drinking milk from a glass to Bianca Graduating High school last week. For some reason our high school holds Graduation for the seniors the week before Christamas break. I shake off the thought, GAzing at some more aof the pictures. Percy and I dancing in the living room, grinning and embracing tightly. I squeeze his hand at the memory, and he looks down. tilting his head. 

"The picture." I whisper. He looks up and grins too, nodding. 

"You looked so cute that night you know. In that little grey dress." HE hums. I blush and nod, continuing to walk out wherever he was pulling me. We walk into the main hall, and I see the monstrosity.