Nang Dahil Sa Pag Ibig ( Vhong Tee )

Chapter 13

Tanya's POV
I really don't know what's happening to me this days. My mind is always occupied because of Vhong. He's been going me crazy. Damn! What did that lowkey do to me? Honestly, I already know this feeling. I'm just being denial, clouded with the thoughts of Vhong—not loving me back. Am I being too fast of saying I love him? Because damn! My feelings is ready to explode. It was like a bomb itself waiting for its owner to make it splash in an instance.

I've been into books. Almost done of thinking what could love be. It was painful. Painful enough that you can't make another steps while you're there. Love gives us the real meaning of happiness but sadly it also brought us something we never done before.  Otherwise, love makes people change. Love is all about sacrificing your heart from the person whom you love. Win if you're relationship with him works. Lose if you're relationship with him goes wrongly.

I hate Vhong down to my core. I really hate that guy. More than enough. But I couldn't blame him that I'm now not into it. I'm now falling for him. Really. I think they are right. The more you hate, the more you love. Before, I can't just imagine myself with him but now... My willingness to be with him was screwed.

By now, I'll just go with the flow. I don't do first moves. Kahit si Ion nga, hanggang ngayon ay hindi niya pa rin alam na minahal ko siya, noon. At wala akong balak na ipaalam iyon sa kanya. Decay yourself, man. Masaya na naman siya ngayon kasama si Vice. I don't have plan to mingle those things. I hate middling. Really. Kung alam kong makakasama ang desisyon ko, mas pipiliin ko nalang lumayo kaysa manggulo.

Anyways, I'm here at our photoshoot. Photographers is now taking pictures of Vhong and he is very passionate about it. He likes making poses and it seems that he's very used to do it. This is the pictorial for the billboard in the Edsa which is endorsing the company's new release shoes. I was shocked when the stylist screamed at the back, her eyes is cornering Vhong's topless body. Yes, he's posing without a shirt. The photographer suggested it because they think that'll make a big stuff in social media, making the new release shoes hottest trend. The layout of the picture that will post on the billboard is there's a picture envelops the whole space of the billboard which is the picture of Vhong with a wrangler shirt—endorsing the brand— wearing a white short partnered with the new release shoes. And the picture that he's topless will be lay down on the right down side of the surface of the billboard. Get it? HAHA.

Halos mapatalon ako sa gulat nang lumingon sa direksyon ko si Vhong, as if he's flexing his abs to me. Puting tela ang nasa likod niya at may mga lighters sa bandang taas niya para ilawan siya, hagdanan lang ang ginagamit nila. Bumaba ang isang lightman at wika niya'y nanginginig na daw siya sa taas. Syempre, ayaw ko namang maging display nalang ako 'don, nagpresenta akong papalit sa puwesto niya. Agad namang sumigaw ng "hindi" si Vhong kaso umakyat na ako sa hagdan. Inalalayan niya pa ako.

"I can handle myself. Magfocus ka nga 'don" Giit ko. Napanguso naman siya sabay martsa paalis sa akin. Agad naman siyang kinunan ng mga photographers nang magsimula ulit sila. Ako naman ay todo ilaw sa kanya dito sa taas.

Lumipas ang ilang minuto at nanginginig na nga ang mga paa ko. I forgot to take off my heels. Kasama namin ngayon ang dalawang photographer at isang lightman. Kaya nang matapos na ang lahat ay agad na silang umalis sa photoshoot room pero bago iyon ay nagsalita muna ang head photographer.

"Ma'am Tanya, I'll just send all the pictures to your email so that you can pic what's the best one. Sir Vhong, you can now help her to go downstairs" Rix—the head photographer—winked to Vhong after saying it. Kumunot ang noo ko kay Vhong. Agad naman siyang lumingon sa akin at ngumisi. Sa gulat ko ay agad akong nahulog mula sa ikatlong hagdan. Pero ang mas ikinagulat ko ay ang pagsalo niya sa akin. Ang dalawang kamay niya ay nakapalibot sa bewang ko dahilan upang mapayakap ako ng bahagya sa kanya. I move my face a little and that when I realized that he's still not wearing a shirt. Damn it! Naghuhurumentado ang puso ko sa nangyari. Halos mabaliw ang buong sistema ko.

Rinig na rinig ko ang puso ko sa bilis ng pintig nito. My heart is racing in hell. The butterflies inside my stomach is going crazy as if someone hunts them inside. My mind is stunt between pushing him or letting him do the first moves.

I gulped hard when our eyes met. He bite his lips. My whole system got crazier when he held my chin, looking in my lips. What's happening to me? Am I going to push him? Isn't that rude? Perhaps, I'm enjoying this. I'm enjoying being this closer to him. His other hand is on my waist. Unti-unti niyang nilapit ang kanyang mukha sa akin. My knees are trembling as I feel his soft lips in mine.

Nang maramdaman ko ang labi niya ay para bang dinala niya ako sa lugar niya. I know I shouldn't be an easy-going girl but damn! He's giving me goosebumps going in my heart. I can feel that he's lips are moving and so I moved mine, too. At the second time around, I stopped and step backwards. He's face is full of confusion when I ran away.

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I found myself at the rest room of our photoshoot building. Mabuti nalang at ako lang mag-isa ang nandito. I retouch my face. I felt being queasy. I felt being uneasy, thinking what happened earlier.

Damn! Why I let myself being so carried away? I shouldn't been done that kissing part. Kakakilala pa lang namin ni Vhong. Ano nalang kaya ang iisipin ng mga tao kapag nalaman iyon? Na ang heiress ng kompanya ay nakipaghalikan sa bagong endorser? Fuck.
I hope no one saw it.

Nagtext si Audrey sa akin at sinabing nasend na raw sa email ko ang lahat ng pictures. I told her to take a look all of the pictures. I also gave her my permission to pick what's the best picture to be post on the billboard. I can't calm myself. Hell yeah! Mababaliw na ata ako dahil sa lalaking iyon.

Nasa basement ang kotse ko kaya agad akong pumunta 'don at dali-daling sumakay sa kotse. I went immediately to Georgia's house. Alam kong nasa bahay niya 'yon. Knowing her, she's busy on working out to have a fit and sexy body. Baka daw kasi magsawa ang asawa niya sa kanya, Lol.

Nang makarating sa bahay nila ay walang pakundaling pumasok ako sa loob at dumiretso sa garden nila. Kilala naman ako ng katulong at guard kaya hinayaan akong makapasok. Sinalubong niya naman ako ng yakap pagkatapos niyang ibaba iyong dumbell na hawak niya kanina.

"What with your face?" She said after taking me a sit on the couch infront of their garden.

"What does it mean if someone kissed you?" I asked, trying to calm down.

"Oh my God! Did Vhong kissed you?" Nanliit ang mata ko sa tanong niya. Seriously? Tangina! Hindi ako nagsalita.

"Silence means yes. Is that true? Are you true? Was he true?" Sunod-sunod niyang tanong.

"Tangina. Ano munang ibig sabihin 'non?" Napamura na tuloy ako.

"It means that he likes or loves you. Woahhh! What a spirit, HAHA. Congrats, mukhang magkaka-lovelife kana" Masaya niyang bati sa akin.

"It's not that easy, tho" I stated.

"Then make it easy. Confront him. Confess to him. Malay mo. Same feelings kayo" Excited niyang tugon..

"Not my thing" I don't do first moves. Bahala siya!

"Ewan ko sayo. Naririnig ko na si Tadhana. Ang sabi niya. It's your time. Magpasikat na. It's showtime" She joked. Nyenye.

"I'm leaving. I just had an errand here to ask you" I uttered.

"Kailan ang alis niyo ni Vhong and Audrey?" aniya.

"Next week. Saturday" I calmly said. Sawakas nagawa ko ng kumalma. Pero sa tuwing naiisip ko 'yong nangyari kanina, umuurong ang buong sistema ko sa mga maaaring mangyari.

"Today is Wednesday. Ghaad! Wishing you're luck with that guy. Yieee!" Masigla niyang wika. Inirapan ko lang siya, dahilan para matawa siya. Nagpaalam na ako sa kanya dahil uuwi na ako. I need a destruction. Maybe, I would bake a cake in our house? Nice idea, hmm.

Vhong's POV
Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari kay Tanya at bigla niya akong nilayasan ng ga'non-ga'non lang. Hindi pa nagpaalam sa mga kasama namin kaya ayown, hinanap nila si Tanya sa akin. Ang sinasagot ko nalang ay "umuwi na" HAHA. I know Tanya, uuwi iyon. Sabihin na nating may dinaanan pa siya pero ipupusta ko ang bahay namin. Umuwi iyon.

Nang gumabi ay hindi ko maiwasang isipin siya. Hindi ko maiwasang isipin ang mukha niya. Higit sa lahat, hindi ko maiwasang damdamin ulit ang labi niya sa pamamagitan ng paghawak ng labi ko. Para na akong ewan sa kakahawak ng labi ko. It was our first kiss. It feels like heaven for me. I don't even regret kissing her.

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It's already 2am and still.. My eyes is closing but my mind is still thinking... Of her. Hindi ako manhid para hindi maramdaman ito. I once feel this before on my ex-girlfriend. I don't want to end this. I'm now inlove with Tanya and I'll fucking do everything just to make sure that she'll end up in my heart in hands.