Haikyuu Oneshots

Heather (ennotana)

Ennoshita POV
Tanaka danced around the court with Kiyoko gliding around In his strong arms as they'd just got engaged in front of all of us. Everyone was cheering in the old gym and Tanakas excited laughter matched with Kiyoko's angelic laugh filled the entire room. The winter wind blew in but the atmosphere kept everyone so warm. Yachi was sobbing, as well as Yamaguchi  and Coach Ukai with his graying hair was hiding his face with a towel as Kageyama followed suit. However I felt like I was the only one who couldn't even bring myself to smile or cry. My heart ached making a pain in my chest that felt unbearable, I felt like everything had caved in and all I could focus on was how happy he looked. Tanaka Ryūnosuke if only you knew everything.

I remember our last December as a team you gave me your jacket because I was cold and you insisted it "looked better on me" than on you even though I disagreed. As I sunk into the comfort I blushed as you smiled at me. I felt like maybe you might feel similar. Your smile directed at me switched immediately however when Kiyoko walked in. Like a sight for sore eyes or the most blue summer sky she could gain your attention no matter what. God I wish I could be her and have you mesmerized every time I walked by. Soon I saw you two together all the time and your face with her looked like you were floating through the clouds. Walking home with her every night while she leaned closer. I knew you were wishing she would just hug you so you could pull her even closer. Then she held your hand. Pretty and thin fingers were gripped tightly by your tanned calloused ones and you threw your arms over her shoulders pulling her closer as if letting go would never happen. As all of this happened and your relationship just became stronger I got colder, the warmth your jacket once gave me faded away in to the past like a shadow of a memory. Every moment I wanted to take her place just once but I couldn't. Kiyoko is just such an Angel right .... how could I hate her...I couldn't... but some days I just wish she would disappear. Then one day during practice Kiyoko came in but she was wearing your new jacket with a graceful smile spreading across her features, you looked at her your mouth open but your eyes gave it away. They were glowing as if you'd just seen everything you'd ever need stand right in front of you.....she jumped into your arms as I died inside. Why couldn't you just look at me once that way? Would you even consider? Of course not I'm not even half of Kiyoko. You would never even think to kiss me because I'm not even half as pretty, you would pick her very single time. Why couldn't I just accept that and move on from you, is it because you mesmerize me? Is it because your everything I'll ever want standing right there? Is it because I love your laugh, your passion, your strength. Maybe it's just you.

I've endured your love for Kiyoko for years but then why this?

Why'd you have to come up to my house unexpectedly three days ago and hug me tightly telling me how much you missed me while smiling straight at me. Why'd you have to pull out the ring a stunning diamond and tell me that you wanted me to help you plan this proposal to Kiyoko. Why'd you have to be so happy when I ignored the pain in my chest and told you I'd help, that I had the perfect plan too. Your warm hands gripping mine as you excitedly explained how amazing I was, the butterflies in my stomach erasing the earlier pain. Like god Ryū why couldn't you have just gone to Nishinoya? He wouldn't have cared he got over the jealousy a long time ago and you two are best friends right? But then why did you say that I was your closest friend. Why that if it came down to it you might make me your best man because you needed my support. No I don't want it, don't you get it seeing you get married to her...do you know what'd that do to me. Then why did I tell you instead with a forced excited smile that I would love to be your best man because what'd you do without me right? You still needed me right? Of course you did. Then you asked if you could stay and even when I told you there was no space you begged and I said yes because the look on your face made my heart race. And then you...gripped both sides of my faced and told me "thank you Chikara you know I really love you as a friend but not in a creepy way" you'd said it with a loud laugh at the end but I couldn't help but feel so much happiness. You'd told me you'd loved me if only you knew how much I liked you. My heart hammered away even after your hands left my face. The next day you woke me up jumping out of your makeshift bed on the floor of my room. You reminded me every minute that today was flower day and we had to pick white roses which were Kiyoko's favorite, so that we could make a path to the gym. As I picked up a particularly beautiful set of them you hopped onto me and kept thanking me for picking out the best ones. All I could focus on was your arms wrapped around me though.

This day began then didn't it. We waited until sun set and I slowly spread the flower petals to lead towards the gym. As I entered the gym everyone was smiling. Nishinoya said in a loud whisper "this is the best Ennoshita you've really outdone yourself" as I made a heart shape it the very center of the court. He gave an enthusiastic thumbs up and I gave a partial smile to try and hide the feeling of dread in my stomach. That's all I want to remember. I don't want to remember hearing you both approach with Kiyoko giggling as you led her into the gym. I don't want to remember her bright smile of surprise as she saw us all there. I don't want to remember you in the center court getting down on one knee. And I don't want to remember right now either. Just watching you dance. I wish I were Kiyoko.

This was based off of Conan Greys song heather if you want to listen to it while reading go ahead I think it adds to it. I thought it'd be interesting to do a sad kind of fluff so let me know how you like it. With that I'll see you all in the next chapter.
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Sakura