Never Break The Chain (Completed)

Chapter 6 - I'm Not The Kinda Girl You Take Home

"CLIFF!" I screamed in pure pleasure, my breath hitching with every movement. "Mmmm."

When a couple minutes went by, I eventually forgot that what Cliff and I were doing was completly wrong. My fucking overies drive me to do the strangest things it seems.

The phrase I said when I returned here kept running in my head. "If my mom dies, I'm gone for good." That's why I feel so guilty now. Cliff and I are having sex right now. An action when done right is meant to connect two individuals. I can't have him get attached to me. It just can't happen.

"We should talk about last night." Cliff said as he suddenly walked into the kitchen causing me to startle. "Sorry."

"All good." I took a deep breath and held my hand to my chest as I reserved from the intense shock that I had just experienced. "Take a seat."

"Thanks." The man smiled and then plopped himself in a seat across from me, and I couldn't help but notice him staring at my breasts that could be seen from the opening of my robe.

"And you say Bon and Mal are the horny ones?" I joked as I took another sip of my coffee. "Ahem, eyes are up here Clifford."

"Sorry sorry." Cliff threw his arm around his neck as he abruptly looked away from my chest. "Um.."

"Let's get to the point." I said seriously, carefully setting my coffee mug down on the table. The look on his face was nothing but pure anxiety. It shattered my heart to be honest. I've never hated myself more than I do now. "What happend last night was... it was something. And it was fun but... that can't ever happen again. You remeber what I told you when I first came here. That still holds up." I explained as Cliff let out a depressed sigh, resting his chin on his hand and staring directly into my eyes that had a look of nothing but hesidency.

"I know you feel scared. I know all the shit you've been through. All those good people that you've lost. Melody I can help you. You just have to let me." Cliff told me desperately while fighting back tears. God damnit.

"I just don't wanna hurt you." I replied quietly. "You'll kill yourself with heartbreak if I have to leave again."

"Yeah.. " He admitted and carefully held my hand in a nature that I hoped initially only meant friendship. "We'll figure this out Melody. We always do."

After gazing into his eyes for a few more seconds, a force took over me. I wanted to kiss him again. I wanted to have sex with him again.

I wanted to be with him.

I love him.