Crazy For You

Chapter Twelve

Vanessa's Pov

Did he just say what I think he said? He must be joking.

"Did I just hear you correctly?" I said blushing walking next to him and pushing him a little.

"If you heard that I said that I think you're the most beautiful girl I've ever laid my eyes on, you heard correctly." he said wrapping his arm around my shoulder. I leaned my head on his shoulder and put my hand on his lower back.

"Why me?" I asked still looking ahead.

"What do you mean?" he said. He stopped walking and wrapped his arms around my waist, looking me straight in the eyes.

"There are so many other girls in this whole world and you want me?" I said looking into his eyes.

"Yeah there are. But their not you." he smiled kissing my forehead.

"Let me get one thing straight with you Sam. If you're just using me to play games, just say it now so I don't have to worry about getting hurt." I said backing away from him.

"What are you talking about?" he said getting closer to me. But I kept backing up.

"I know about what you do back home Sammy. Gilinsky told me what you're like. You treat the girl like they mean the world to you and then you just drop them like they're nothing after you get what you want out of them. I don't wanna be one of those girls." I said walking away fast. He started to run behind me and I started crying. Why would he take me on this stupid date or whatever you wanna call it?

"Can you hear me out Vanessa?" he said putting his hand on my shoulder and I turned around and he was extra close to my face. I backed away because it was uncomfortable to be that close after what just happened.

"What? So you can make up some stupid ass excuse?" I said feeling a tear roll down my cheek.

"I wouldn't lie to you." he said wiping some of my tears away.

"Then talk." I said walking away. He followed next to me.

"Before I met you, I was the biggest player. I didn't have sex with every girl though Vanessa, let's be honest. I remember when you started out in the business. I thought you were adorable and when I heard you sing I was like damnnnnn. I didn't know such a small girl like yourself could sing so loud and powerful like you do. But when I actually met you and saw you in person, I couldn't take my eyes off of you. My eyes were glued to you and I honestly didn't mind at all. The way you treated everyone in the room the exact same and acted like you weren't some huge celebrity, I loved that. "

"Not a lot of huge celebrities would do that. Their all full of themselves and think nothing of other people. You're so different. I love how confident you are when you walk into a room. I love how you smile at everyone, even if they don't like you. When I first laid my eyes on you, I got this really unusual feeling that went throughout my whole body. I've never felt it before. And I get it everytime I see you. I don't want that feeling to ever go away. Everytime that I think of you and touch you and look at you, I get that amazing feeling. I've never looked at a girl and felt that before. You're something special Vanessa and I'm not going to let something as special as yourself go away so easily." he said crying.

I didn't know what to say to that at all. He kind of just poured out his feelings to me and no boy in this whole entire world ever did that for me so of course I didn't know what to say. So I said the only thing that came to my mind.

"I've dated players before Sam and it didn't turn out like a fairytale that they told me it would. They told me how different I was and listed all the things that they 'loved' about me and then said it to every other girl that they talked to. It's kind of what you just did. How do you expect me to believe anything that you're saying with everything that you've done to girls before you met me? Meeting me one time Sam, it can't change you just like that. Change takes time. Do you know how long it took me to change myself into the great person that I am right now? Years Sam." I said very slowly and starting to cry.

I didn't want to cry in front of Sam and show him my weakness. I didn't want to show him what made me weak and what made me cry. People will use your weakness against you and it kills you in the worst way possible.

I know you're probably thinking that I'm being the most annoying and being the biggest bitch to Sam but when you get hurt as many times as I have, you wouldn't be able to trust words anymore. Words don't mean a thing to me anymore.

People that I gave my all too said some real shit to me but were the fakest people in the world. So I trust actions more then words because actions speak louder then words and they mean so much more to me. They show me that you actually will put the time aside to show me that you care enough about me.

"I'm not going to be one of those boys that use you Vanessa, trust and believe me on that. I put that on my life. I'm not promising you a fairytale because we're still young and learning about love. But I can make sure you're happy and always have a smile on your face instead of you crying and heartbroken. I'm not naming things that I love about you to get anything out of you. I'm doing it because I wanna see you smile and mostly because I want to." he said grabbing my hand and wiping my tears away with the other.

I can't just take his words for it, prove it or move it.