Crazy For You

Chapter Eight

Sammy's Pov

I kept thinking about that kiss I had with Vanessa. I've never, ever, felt anything like that when I kissed a girl. I felt butterflies. No, fireworks. No, bombs going off in my stomach.

I went back to my bus because Vanessa was taking forever in the bathroom. It was silent in there, no movement. She's obviously not changing because if she was, there would be a little bit of noise at the most, but there was none.

Maybe she was thinking about what just happened.

I didn't plan on kissing her, but it just happened. I wouldn't take that kiss back for anything in the world.

Vanessa's Pov

How could Sammy just leave like that yesterday? After he kisses me, he just leaves like it was nothing? Some best friend.

Honestly, I don't know what Sammy and I are now. Like I said before, I don't want to be more then friends with a guy like him. I love him to death, as a friend obviously, but I could never see myself dating him. I don't need to be dating anyways. I wouldn't have time for a boyfriend. I'm always in rehearsal or at meet and greets or other things. When would I find the time for a boyfriend?

It's not only just those reasons.

I don't trust boys. I don't trust them at all.

Why should I? Every boyfriend that I had, which was about 4, cheated on me and broke my heart.

I was so heartbroken and I don't ever want to feel that way again.

Boys can sit there and say the sweetest things to make you fall in love with them and they won't mean a damn thing that they said. They won't even feel the slightest bit bad either. How can you sit there and play with someone's emotions?

They'll make you look stupid in front of everybody and you don't even know it. I don't want to be the girl that looks stupid in front of everybody. Thinking that my boyfriend only has eyes for me when he's going behind my back talking to other girls and talking sweet to them. I want my boyfriend to only have eyes for me. I should be the shit to him. Those other girls shouldn't mean anything to him. But sadly that's not how life works and I can't control what he does. I can try, but it doesn't always work. At the end of the day, he's going to do what he wants just like I will.

Thinking that my boyfriend wouldn't do anything to hurt me but mentally and physically hurts me and brings me down until I break. Making me think that that's what love is when in reality, it's not. That's no where close to love.

Enough of all of that.

I got up out of my bed and climbed down because I'm on the top bunk and I'm really short and I don't wanna fall.

Once I was down I walked to the back room with my clothes in there and picked out an outfit. I grabbed a towel and walked into the bathroom and shut and locked the door behind me.

I did my routine and when I was finished I got out and wrapped a towel around my body. I unlocked and opened the bathroom door, stepping out into the cold air. I ran to the back room and shut the curtain in case somebody walked onto the bus.

I changed and when I was done with that I put on mascara. When I was done I looked into the mirror and took a good long look at myself.

Sammy's Pov

Vanessa is probably pissed that I left after I kissed her last night but like I said, the only reason I left was because I thought she was pissed that I kissed her because she took forever in the bathroom.

I was gonna take her around town and maybe to the mall and then get some lunch if everything works out great.

I looked at myself in the mirror to make sure I looked good for her and I did.

I walked off my tour bus that I was sharing with Shawn, Gilinsky and Johnson.

I walked over to Vanessa's bus and ran into somebody.

The girl fell to the ground. I looked closely at who it was and sure enough, it was Vanessa.

"Omg Vanessa, are you good?" I asked nervously helping her up. She pushed me away and stood up on her own.

"Don't touch me and don't talk to me Samuel." she said and rolled her eyes.

She's more mad then I expected.

"Look I know you're probably mad at me for leaving last night but I can explain why I left." I said grabbing her hand while she tried to walk away.

"I don't want some lie Sam. I have somewhere to be so let me go." she said looking behind her to where I'm guessing is "where she had to be."

"It's not going to be some 'lie' Vanessa. The only reason I left was because you were taking really long in the bathoom and I didn't even hear you moving in there which I thought meant you weren't going to come out. I thought you were mad that I kissed you." I said turning her head with my other hand.

"Sam I was confused on why you kissed me out of no where. I wasn't mad at all. I was just confused." she said actually looking me in the eyes.

"Why would you kiss me anyways? Was it to get me to like you just like you do to all the other girls?" she said looking hurt.

"Because I may or may not have the biggest crush on you." I said smirking.

"You lie. Sam Wilkinson does not crush on girls." she said slightly laughing pulling her hand away from mine.

"Not until I met you." I said biting my lip and then smiling.