ShuichixKokichi‼️

Chapter Seventeen

Kokichi's POV:

A sloppy touch to the lips and my world was altered entirely.
Who knew a simple gesture of affection went such a long ways? To either confirm or confuse, to either ease or trouble. Somehow I experienced all of it.
A sloppy touch to the lips earned me a shocked gasp and a pleasantly soft groan from the boy who — at least now I knew of — I was head over heels for.
This awkwardly placed, terribly timed kiss was for me to experiment. Experiment how I felt about Shuichi Saihara, why he made my stomach twirl around and my heart become ten tons lighter, as if my emotions were fueled by helium.
A boy, were they going high.
After only seconds after I initiated the contact between us I reluctantly made myself pull away from Saihara. Yet still riddled with sleep his eyes were glistening and glazed over with a coat of fresh tears. Tears? Did I hurt him? Did I misread his actions towards me?
Did I fuck our friendship up?
The friendship I worked so hard to create and maintain on my behalf, the one I genuinely cared for and cherished. I couldn't believe I went ahead and did something so recklessly.
"Kokichi..."
I froze up, looking away from Shuichi's stare. My eyes stung with tears that I managed to keep at bay.
"Kokichi?"
He said my name again, clearly trying to get my attention. Unfortunately I couldn't give it to him, I don't think I could ever face him after that, even with the near hour we still had before classes.
"Kokichi."
His tone was firm and assertive, making me flinch. Maybe I could run out the door and avoid him for like, forever. Maybe it would be best.
I was too absorbed in my own head to feel Shuichi's fingers against my chin, so out of reality that I couldn't even detect when he lifted my head up to face him.
However, the next thing I definitely could register.
The similar feeling of Saihara's lips crashed against my sprung me to life. I instinctively put my own force into the kiss that he this time initiated. It was still very sloppy, but it held the same sentimental feeling that it should have. Though we still obviously didn't have it quite right, I suppose that didn't stop us from frantically embracing each other while we kissed.
Too bad I had my eyes closed, I couldn't see his beautiful face.
My head spun, telling me I needed to pull away and breathe. Fuck oxygen. But, I did as I needed and parted our lips from contact, pulling a deep breath into my lungs and exhaling heavily. I didn't realize I would have to catch my breath.
"Saihara-Cha—"
"You know we're past that."
Even though I wasn't looking directly at Shuichi, I could hear the smile in his voice. His warm hand touched my neck and I trembled, sighing from the unexpected touch. I hadn't known that a physical contact this simple could get such a reaction from me. I guess that's what people would call 'touch starved.'
We both waited for someone to steal the first words after that...interaction. I leapt to take that opportunity. Rather poorly, however.
"I...I don't know what to say after that,"
Damn it, curse that stupidly shy tone. I didn't mean for it to come out like some wimp.
I subconsciously leaned into his touch once I felt a hand against my cheek. My heart just wouldn't stop racing.
"...me neither."
Shuichi chuckled out. Tensed up, I looked at him. That seemed to intimidate him. But holy shit, I couldn't help it. Soon enough I couldn't hold back the laughter.
"O—h my g—od! 'Me neither'? That's— that's the best fucking thing you could say!"
I could feel Shuichi push himself away from me and I practically could sense the pouting he gave off. When I looked at him next his face was best red and face littered with anxiousness, which screamed that he was a nervous wreck.
"H-hey! That's not fair, y-you— you didn't know either!"
My laughter stopped, I could feel my expression soften. This also calmed Shuichi down, or what seemed like calming him down. I frowned. Of course, the doubt swept in right when things were going good.
"This...this isn't a dream, is it?"
"Huh?"
"This isn't fake, right? It can't be,"
Shuichi raised a brow at my question, moving some hair away from his face.
"No, this isn't a dream Kokichi, I promise it's real."
Then the insecurity hit. The doubt and fear of betrayal sunk in, could I trust him?
I want to. I want to do it all, but there's a chance he could be faking.
"Tell me you're not lying."
Once again, confused. This time, he showed a hint of hurt in his frown. I couldn't be too careful, I had to keep protected no matter what. Honestly, who would want to?—
"Please don't doubt me."
Flabbergasted and caught completely off my guard, my breath hitched in my throat. The look in Saihara's eyes was a confusing mixture of emotions; gentle care, an obsessive malice? And...love. Behind and beyond all of that, I saw love. All I could think was how?
"I'm sure you have your reasons to, I don't hold that against you, but give me a chance?"
He offered a smile to me. A nervous one, sure, but a smile is a smile.
So just like a glove, I decided to give him a try on. A chance, and a pretty large chance, to make this work. Because in all seriousness, I desperately wanted us to work.
There was one problem...
I don't know how to be in a relationship.
We laid in that bed for god knows how long. Due to being cold and totally nothing else at all, I rested fairly close next to Shuichi, my forehead against his chest. His hands rested against me, one on the back of my head and one on my back. We're we really close for just sharing our first kiss? Yes. I was definitely not complaining.
No more than twenty five minutes passed before my hopefully soon-to-be boyfriend began to rise up from his laying position and stretch out his arms after standing up, leaving me to just look at him until he said something.
Was it just me, or was my face this hot the entire time?
"Kokichi? We should probably get up. We can't miss class."
Ugh, stupid Shumai. Of course he'd say that. I pouted and rolled out of the bed, catching myself on my feet and rising up. Believe it or not, I wasn't a morning person, so for me being so chipper every day and every time I woke up was torture even for me. I wanted to just grouch around and be sleepy.
"Yeah yeah, standing tall and ready, Shumai. It's so unfair though!"
Back at it again with childish behavior. Not that it was bothersome anymore, it was simply routine.
Shuichi had seen so much more of who I am though.
Soon enough, we were ready to leave to our respective classes. It went by like a blur.
"U-uhm, do you want to come by during free time? We do need to talk about, er, us..."
I smirked devilishly towards Saihara, putting a finger to my lips. I could still have a little fun, could I?
"Maybe, Saihara, maybe!"
And so I left to my own dorm room to collect a few things I needed, leaving Shuichi in an instant to wonder on his own.
Of course, I would take him up on his offer. I had to.
I had to for him.

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A/N: I have a surprise :)