(Complete) What Could Have Been (Saiouma/Oumasai)

Being Patient

Chapter 2: Being Patient
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Kokichi's POV

Kaito sat up quickly and everyone turned to look at him. I wanted to run up and hug him but it seemed too out of character so me. He immediately looked over to me and told me he was sorry, it was odd. Kaito never apologized why would he now? He said he tried his best and in a way that's all I could've asked of him but I was still so mad about it. He could've saved everyone in there, well I guess it's not too important if everyone makes it out alive like we all did. By the time the trial was over and Kaito had woken up it was almost morning. I really want my phone, I want to know more about what's going on.

Makoto had come to check on us. He was all dressed up in a suit and tie, he looked fancy. He had a ring on his ring finger which made me curious but I didn't want to ask yet. A tall blond man came into the room shortly after. He was also dressed super fancy in a suit and tie with some glasses and a ring on his ring finger as well. Someone as smart as me can connect two and two together. He introduced himself to everyone and said his name was Byakuya Naegi. Makoto and him said they were members of an organization called future foundation and that the next trial that were to take place would be the last. I had so many questions for them. Was future foundation the reason I was here? Was I really an ultimate? Did I really have a secret organization? Everything felt so real, it couldn't possibly had been fake right? Byakuya had some buckets on him and he announced he had people's possessions. I don't understand why he would do all of this before the rest of the students got back but I figured I might get some answers so I wasn't going to question it. Makoto told us to line up and he would give us the things that belonged to us. By the time I got up to the front of the line all the had left was a phone. That's it... that's all I had. Just a phone. Everyone else was at the TV already. When Makoto handed me the phone. He told me that he legally wasn't allowed to go into my phone and that when I check it I might want to head outside. That worried me quite a lot, why should I go outside?

Regardless of my worries, I headed outside. There were windows inside but I never really looked out of them at all so I was a bit surprised to see that when I walked outside all I could see was trees. There was a tiny building and just a ton of trees. I guess that means we're in the middle of the woods which is ultimately in the middle of nowhere. I saw a tiny bench close to door to go back inside and decided to sit down. If I had to go outside then maybe I should sit down as well, maybe it'll be too much to handle.

I just stared at the phone for what felt like forever before turning it on. It was a black iPhone 10 with a clear case and a ton of cracks on its screen protector. I was so excited to get it back but Makoto scared me to death and now I'm not sure I want this. Wether or not I want to, I feel like I need this. I need to know what's going on, I need to know more about myself. I held down the power button and watched it slowly turn on. I didn't remember my password but I figured old me would make it easy for myself and so the first password I tried worked and it was just 111111.

Immediately I opened my phone to see a ton of notifications on my message app. As soon as I opened it I understood why Makoto told me to go outside. I saw a message from my mom up at the top... it read:

I'm so glad you're finally gone.
I hated you but I think you knew that.
I hated having to be reminded of the reason your father and I split every time I look at you. I know you'll never read this since, well... you're dead!
but god does it help to get this out.
I was so tired of your existence.
I know I said I wanted you to live through the game but that's was just for the prize money.
I believe sending you off to participate in this game was one of the best things I'd ever done! See you never! Love, your happy mother!

I started to cry, memories came flooding back to me about things that I had been through. I was the reason my parents were split. I was the reason my mom hated me. I was the reason for everything. I didn't want to think about it all anymore. My crying got louder and louder as I read through more texts. My phone was full of other texts just like that one from my moms friends. I guess I cried loud enough as soon after Gonta came outside to sit with me.

"Is everything ok Kokichi?"
"Obviously not!" I yelled as I wiped some tears and sniffled.
"Can Gonta help at all? Do you need shoulder?" Gonta shifted his shoulder down to my head and I slowly put my head on his shoulder. Everything hit me all at once and the crying didn't stop. I felt alone, I may have had a couple of friends like Gonta and Kirumi but nobody else likes me, in fact everyone else hates me! Gonta and I just sat like that for a while. I'll admit it felt nice to feel like I had a friend for one. Eventually my crying started to slow down a bit.

"Does Kokichi wish to talk about it?"
"No... *sniffle* that's a lie! I would..."
"Alright Gonta will listen!"
"Gonta... I don't want my phone anymore" as I said that I threw my phone towards some trees.
"Kokichi... what do you not want on it? It would be easier and less expense if I just delete what you do not want!" Gonta said in a helpful tone as he stood up making me fall over slightly. Gonta went to go get my phone and I just groaned as a slide down to law down on the bench. He asked what my password was so I let him know since he would delete the things I no longer wanted to see on there. He immediately opened up to the text messages. For a guy who was raised in the woods he knew how to use a phone pretty well and knew what I wanted gone. He apologized to me even though he did nothing wrong. He does that a lot. It's nice gesture but then I feel bad because I feel like I made him feel bad for nothing!

Kaede came bursting through the door saying the last trial was starting. I wanted to watch it but I'm sure I looked pretty rough. Gonta told me to stay outside for a second and he went inside. Soon after he came back out. He had a hoodie and a glass of water hoping to make me feel better. The hoodie was big, but I was small so everything looks big, however it didn't look big enough to be Gonta's. The hoodie was a band hoodie for My Chemical Romance. I think it's easy to tell who's hoodie it probably was. I felt bad, how did Gonta even get this?! I didn't want to turn it down so I took it. I didn't get to get all that close to Shuichi that often but boy did it smell like him. If anyone asked I could just say Gonta gave it to me, which is for once true! No one has to know that I like Shuichi. Gonta and I left to go inside and watch the trial.

Soon enough the trial was coming to an end. Execution time was coming... Shuichi didn't make it. First Tsumugi woke up, then K1-B0, but after that no one woke up. Shuichi, Maki, and Himiko were still in the game. Mikan said that they survived the punishment somehow and that we would need to wait for them to wake up. On their own. How long is that going to take?! I'm selfish and I want a Shuichi back now!