(Complete) What Could Have Been (Saiouma/Oumasai)

True Ending

Chapter 20: True ending

Shuichi's POV

I woke up away from Kokichi. He wanted our wedding to be as traditional as it possibly could as for a gay wedding. I put my tux on, it was a traditional black tux. He refused to show me it but I'm fairly sure Kokichi is wearing a white tux. I chose to have Kyoya be my best man. He actually chose me for his wedding to my sister as well. Kaito and Rantaro were there as well. Kokichi said he was choosing Kirumi, Kaede, and Miu. Since were gay we can't have a traditional "through the Catholic Church wedding" so it's going to be outside. Kirumi was giving the speech afterward at the reception. There was lots of white hyacinths decorating the pathways and arches. Kokichi said he wanted those because it was his animal crossing islands native flower.

Usually Kokichi is the impatient one in our relationship but today it was me as well. I couldn't wait until I could say he's mine. I don't know what it is about him that makes me want him so much. I can't wait to see him today. He told me he doesn't care where we go as long as we're together.

My parents found out about me and Kokichi when we were exposed by Miu, for lack of a better term. They seemed slightly bothered by it at first but have gotten much better since.

As I walked down the isle I saw my parents in the front row along with all of my friends close by. I got to where I was supposed to stand and tried my best to be patient and wait for Kokichi to get here. After awhile I saw Gonta and Kokichi make their was to me. He had on that white suit just like I imagined. His hair was pulled back into a pony tail.

I started to cry at just at the idea of this finally happening. Kokichi looked up at me with his big purple eyes and smiled widely like he always did. I started to think of everything we've done together, all the memories we've made, and all the memories we can. For some reason I had this feeling in the back of my mind that felt like the end. This could never be it, we have so much more to do. I heard those famous words people always hear in movies "you may now kiss the groom." I went in for that sealing kiss I've longed for for so long now... everything went black.

I couldn't see anything anymore. Everything was gone. The wedding, the people, Kokichi... it was all gone. Even the light was gone. Where'd it all go? What's happening? I saw a light in the distance. I reached for it as far as I could, unfortunately, I was too far away. I know people always say the light is heaven and heaven means death but, if I don't have Kokichi, what do I have? I felt myself drift farther and farther from the light. Slowly I felt my eyes open and light come flooding back. When I woke up though I didn't have Kokichi in front of me with his white tux on. I didn't see and white hyacinths. No family, no friends, no greenery.

I saw a light above me, one you'd see in a sketchy basement that hung just from the wires used to power it. I sat up where I was, it looked like a hospital bed. Did I faint at the wedding? I couldn't have, Kokichi would be here. I got out of bed and walked towards the door I saw in front of me. The room I was in was small but clearly in a hospital. Everything was white and there was a sink with bandaids and latex gloves in boxes near. The chairs near the door and the cheesy 90s wallpaper patterns lined the walls. The smell of a hospital was strong. When I opened the door I saw what looked like a waiting room and a nurse jump up and look at me with a funny face. The nurse has long, messy, purple hair. She wore a pink top and a blue skirt. I felt as though I had seen her before but I just couldn't remember.

"Shu- Shuichi?! You're finally here? Your ideal world took l-longer to get through than anyone else!" The nurse said as she rushed over to me.
"My ideal world?" I said, confused as to what's going on.
"Your ideal world, as a p-payment for being in our g-game you got to live in your ideal world! Unfortunately n-none of which was real."
"N- none of it was real? What do you mean none of it was real? What about Kokichi, the marriage, the house?"
"I'm s-sorry Shuichi, p-please forgive me. I don't know what you're talking about, that was your world, not the real world." The nurse looked as though she was sad to hear me.
"Well where is he? Where's Kokichi?"
"Oh Shuichi," the nurse mumbled, "he d-died in the game. Don't you re-remember?"

I stumbled back a bit, that can't be real. He has to still be alive. He couldn't possibly have given up his life for us, people who didn't even try to get to understand him better. All I ever did in that game was push him away... I told him he'd always be alone... that was the last thing I ever said to him.

"D-did you need to s-sit? I c-can get you some wa-water! H-Himiko, Maki! Shuichi is aw-awake!"
I saw Maki and Himiko burst through a door to the waiting room and tackled me to the ground.
"Shuichi you're here!" Maki yelled, "we've only been waiting for a year!"
"A year?" I questioned, "do you know where Kokichi is?"
"Nyeh? Kokichi, why would you want him? Besides he's long gone anyways." Himiko stated.
"Gone? Where'd he go? Is it too late to catch up? Maybe he'd still feel the same..." I started to cry, I didn't want to believe he was really gone, I refused to believe it.
"No Shuichi, Kokichi died along with everyone else." Maki started to tear up a bit.
"Everyone's gone Shuichi. But hey, it's ok, we're hear for you!" Himiko pulled me and Maki into a group hug.

I was allowed to leave the hospital I was in along with Maki and Himiko. They both wanted to live together like we did in, what I refer to as, my dream. It's hard to get over what happened in there, it all felt so real. Every now and then when I fall asleep I can imagine him next to me. Sometimes I can even see him in my dreams. I like to wear a ring even if it's just from a candy machine so I can remember him and everything we did even if it wasn't real. I often wonder if things would've happened differently if it was real. Looking back I'd like to think he did like me at least as a friend. Not a day goes by that I don't regret saying the things I did or didn't say to him. Maybe one day, in another life, things will be real. He may have died but he'll always be remembered in my heart.

You've reached the end! Thanks for reading! This was the ending I had in mind when I started it so I'm calling it the true ending! I'll be writing a better, not true ending, just for the sake of my Saiouma loving heart and the sake of a happy ending. That being said I don't know how many more chapters I'll write for the happy ending, could be one, could be ten. I guess just wait and see! While waiting for that, if you want I'm also writing a book for one shots and another after the game AU if you want to go read that!