Losing my virginity to my teacher | ✔

35. Whisper.

AMELIA’S POV

      My gaze swept over Adrian’s figure and the direction in which Zach just swept away.  My heart started beating faster and whisked over the familiar feeling from when I twelve years old.  I tried to suppress my mind that it is not happening again.

       But I couldn’t because people who meant a damn thing in my life is going to abandon me for something that is far worse than death.  They will ignore me.  And Nick, he will be in wrath of his brother.  I felt it all exploding in my chest.

       My breathing kicked up a notch and the inhale and exhale of air was strained.  I know what is happening to me.  And I was in middle of a sidewalk, barefooted and half dressed.  I am a mess.

        I just doomed my entire life, just like that.  My hands started to shake but I clenched it into fists to suppress the panic attack I am just having.  But I have to calm down my brain because it is just like my entire life was falling apart.

       I tried to remember what my psychologist said and started taking deep breaths trying to calm down my racing heart and levelling out my breathing but it didn’t seem to help because in front of me Adrian looked like he hated me or was it just in my head?

      I don’t know how to separate reality from the portraying my brain would give me in time of my attacks.  I felt sweat break through my body and my controlled breathing which betrayed me by inhaling and exhaling as fast as it can like I didn’t have any oxygen left but that is how I felt.  Like there was no oxygen left to inhale.

      I was distantly aware of Adrian stepping towards me in a rush as my head gave out.  I could feel my dizziness creeping up on me and my whole body started trembling.  It is happening and it was happenings fast.  It felt like I was cooped up in an air tight container for hours but in reality, it was just seconds.

       I knew my face look flushed and sweat would be covered all over my forehead and hairline.  My twelve-year-old self would have been disgusted how fast this panic attack happened to me. 

      “Amelia!”  I could hear Adrian’s panicking voice near my ear as he just caught me before face planting myself in the sidewalk because of my lightheadedness. 

       “Hello, 991.  My friend just fell unconscious.”  Nick’s gruff voice also reached my ear but it was all distant.  Is it already happening? 

      “Uh-huh.”  Nick said to someone on the phone.  “Check her body heat.”  He commanded after a while.

       A cool had touched my forehead and my body trembled against the cold hand and leaned into the touch because it felt good to feel cold because my body was heating up.

      “Her skin is cold but she is sweating like hell and…. she is shaking against me.”  Adrian said to Nick while hesitating at the shaking part.  Am I trembling that hard?  Guess, I wouldn’t know as my head is rounding in its own orbit fast enough to rattle my whole body.

      “You just heard.”  Nick huffed in the phone and a gentle hand pressed against my back. 

       I barely heard some other words transferring from Adrian to Nick and him to whoever he was in phone with.  I was even barely aware of me being dragged by my shoulders to a vehicle.  I know this all happened within minutes but my fucked-up mind literally dragged my dizziness heavy.

      A soothing voice was speaking reassuring words in my ear when a loud voice boomed in the running car. 

      “Fuck Zach, take your goddamn phone.”  Nick yelled and punched something and the sound rang against my body because it trembled.