The Three Stars (Draco Love Story)

I'm Sorry

I just left. He didn't even try to stop me which spoke volumes. I felt so betrayed. He knew all of that for months and he never said a thing. I just couldn't process how he didn't think me knowing that he is now a terrorist trying to kill the one person that is keeping my best friend alive was important. I was so mad, but I think I was madder at myself than him. Simply for thinking that he could change, that I could change him, that he wasn't just like the rest of his family.

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I have been avoiding Lily all day. I know that when she sees me she's going to ask me about my date and I just don't know what to say. As much as I'm angry at Draco right now I know that telling anyone who he is, and what he has been chosen to do would put his life in danger.

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"YOU TWO WHAT?!" Hermione shouted at me after I confessed everything that has been happening between me and Draco.

I know it was the right thing to do even though she is going to be insanely mad at me. I just needed someone to talk to about everything, someone who wasn't blood related to me. Someone who wasn't Lily. Right now I needed my best friend.

"I'm so sorry" I said as my eyes filled with tears

"Don't be, you shouldn't have to apologize for who you love"

"No I mean, I'm sorry I lied to you, I'm sorry I made a promise I couldn't keep"

"Yeah, I'm sorry too" she said with tears in her eyes as she left

She never said it out loud, but I knew she left for good this time. I betrayed her, just like Draco betrayed me. I didn't know what to do. She was the only person that was always there for me, she was there when my parents rejected me, she was there when Cedric died, she was always there for me and I couldn't keep a single promise to her.

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"Hey Syd, where have you been I have been looking everywhere for you" Lily gushed as she came up to me still sitting on the same spot where Hermione left me

"What's wrong?" she added as she realized I was bawling my eyes out

"Nothing I just uhmm I had a fight with Hermione...listen I need to get to class can we talk later"

"Yeah sure okay"

I just went on with my day from there. I went to all my classes and somehow managed to concentrate, at least until my potions class. That was the first time I saw Draco since our fight. He was sitting on the same place as every time just like I was. I didn't turn around, not even once, I couldn't stand the sight of him. But then I realized that that's how Hermione must feel about me. The class went by slower than ever, but at some point it finally ended.

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"Sydney, wait" Draco said as he grabbed my arm

"We need to talk about what happened" he added

"There's nothing to talk about, you betrayed me and people that I love, I betrayed them by being with you and now we are both sad and alone"

"Sydney please, will you meet me tomorrow, at the astronomy tower"

"I will think about it"

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It was already nighttime when I heard a knock on my door.

"Hey Syd, it's me" I heard a familiar voice say. It was Lily. I have been so caught up with thoughts about the encounter I had with Draco today that I forgot I also owe her an explanation.

"Hey come in"

"What's going on with you, tell me"

And just like that I spilled every bit of the story. Even the ones that put Dracos life at danger. Why did I do it? I honestly don't know, it just physically hurt me, trying to keep all that anger, and rage and saddens inside of me. She didn't say anything for a while, she just sat there, looking at her feet visibly trying to process everything I just told her.

"You have to go meet him tomorrow" she suddenly said

"What, why?"

"Because he is sad too, and he is fighting with what he has to do, and he needs someone to be there for him, he needs you to be there for him"

I didn't say anything, because she was right. I hugged her and we were just sitting there in silence until we hear some noise come from behind door. I quickly got up, pulled out my wand and opened the door as quickly as I could. But there was no one there. It was probably just the wind.

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