Their lips embrace passionately, they could continue like this forever. The sun is starting to set and a slight mist appears on the horizon. It shines through the window, giving them a heavenly glow. Hinata doesn't want this feeling to end. He wants it to go on forever.... "I love you..." he whispers.
"I'm not gay! I'M NOT GAY!! LEAVE ME ALONE YOU...FREAK!!! "I'm not gay...I'm not...gay.........."
"WAHH!! NO! NO! NO! GO AWAY! GO AWAYYYY!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!!" Hinata screams as he wakes. He's sweating...panting...shivering...
"Shoyo? Is everything ok?" Calls his mum as she enters his room.
"I'm...fine..." He responds trying to catch his breath.
"Were you having a nightmare?" She says kneeling next to his bed.
"I...think so..."
"It's ok now. It was just a dream" she says reassuringly as she leans in to hug him.
Hinata embraces his mum, knowing full well that it wasn't just a dream. It was a repeat of true events. Events that now cannot be undone.
What has he done?
Tears start to form in his eyes once again.
"Oh no! What's wrong? Why are you crying?" His mum asks worryingly.
"Everything is a mess! I've completely wrecked everything! I don't know what to do! I don't know what to feel! I can't seem to control myself anymore! I don't know who I am anymore!" He cries.
"Talk to me, Shoyo! Tell me what happened"
Hinata takes a moment, gathers his thoughts and through the tears, decides to tell her...everything.
His mum sat there. Taking it all in. Allowing Hinata to take his time and get it all out.
After he finishes, his mum sits for a moment, processing all the information.
The silence killing him: "Well? What do you think? What does it all mean?"
His mum looks up with a confused expression on her face: "Why you asking a question you already know the answer to?"
"What do you mean?" He quizzes.
"My dear boy. You're in love with Fìonn! Everything that you told me leads back to the fact that you're clearly in love with Fìonn, but you seem to be refusing to acknowledge that" she explains.
"B-but...I can't be...I've never had feelings for anyone before...why all of a sudden now? Why with Fìonn? And why so quickly?" Hinata asks confused.
His mum chuckles. She thinks this moment is so funny.
"Why are you laughing!? This isn't funny!" he exclaims.
"Oh, my dear. That's how love works. There's no warning, or schedule. There's no set time. It happens when it happens. Quite often when you don't expect it. Love has no borders, no limitations. Love! Is infinite!".
Hinata looks down. Still a little unsure.
"So...what do I do now?" He asks.
"Well..." she begins. "You need to seriously think about what it is you want. You need to confront your feelings. Stop suppressing them. You're doing yourself no favours. And you definitely need to talk to Fìonn!"
"I-I can't...he won't ever speak to me. Not after the way I treated him. But I deserve it"
"Listen to me Shoyo!" She says sternly. "You can accomplish anything you set your mind to. If he won't listen. Then make him listen! You need to make this right!"
"Ok..." he concedes.
He hugs his mum tightly: "I love you!"
"I love you too Shoyo! I love you no matter what"
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"I need to think about what I really want" Hinata says to himself
"I can't supress my feelings"
"What are my feelings?" Hinata asks himself.
He made that much of an effort trying to suppress them that he now isn't sure what's real.
He sat on his bed, in the dark. Slowly playing everything in his head. The nerves he felt when he first saw Fìonn. The butterflies he got in his stomach every time Fìonn smiled. When he shook his hand. How he felt when they kissed. His lips. His smell. That sense of euphoria. The feeling of not wanting it to end.
It clicked...
"I-I..." he stuttered. He needs to say it. He needs to admit it to himself. He needs to say it out loud.
"I'm....g-gay" He uttered.
"I'm... gay" again.
"I'm gay" he said clearly.
He smiled. He hasn't smiled for what felt like an eternity. That feeling of a humungous weight being lifted. That feeling of...completeness. He finally understands. He can finally admit it. No more suppressing of feelings. No more hiding from himself:
"I'm gay" He repeats with a smile.
"I need to talk to Fìonn" he exclaims.
"I need to apologise! I need to tell him..."
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Hinata's Albannach Boy
FanfictionA new transfer student has started at Hinata's school. He's a foreigner and has attracted the attention of all his new classmates. Hinata seems uninterested at first but that seems to change when he gazes at the new student. Who is he? Why is he mak...
