Catch Me

Just Wanted To Let You Know

So, for once I'm not writing about my book. Since this has so many reads, I'm just going to write this here because this is how I communicate the best. 

Recently, and I'm not going to call them out, I read a book that one of my friends has written. And to be very honest with you, it concerns me. Very much. This person isn't very well known and I don't want to mention her, but I just wanted to all let you know this. The people we label as "nerds" or "geeks" or just "freaks," they have feelings too. Whether you know it or not, those people know how they are labeled and those people hurt because of those labels. And whether you are aware of it or not, you probably divide people into groups mentally or just say it out loud. Most people take pride in their labels, like the super pretty girl group or the super athletic people, others are labeled and judged because of their label. Some people are judged by how they dress, how much they speak, and because of their looks. They are thrown looks and glances by people they don't even know. People who don't have the authority to judge them. These people have problems trying to make friends or just talk to people because of their label. People who hurt inside and out. People who wish they were never here. People who feel like the world doesn't care about them. And this can be anyone with any label. You could be popular but feel like the world hates you or you could be a nerd and feel like you don't belong. And it hurts to see that hurting of one of my best friends. It hurts so much to look at my friends and see them struggling just to last another day. So I'm done with keeping silent. I've decided to do something about it. If you throw glances at other people because of the way they dress or you glare at them because of their hair, I'm telling you this now, How. Dare. You.  You have no idea how people are on the inside, you have no idea on how much people take these glances into account. So stop judging for once. I used to be a very judgy person, but now I dropped it. Leave people alone. Whether they have many friends or just one. Leave them alone. If I was speaking this right now, I would be in tears. In fact, I'm crying as I'm writing this. Because it hurts more than you could ever believe to see other people suffer from just mere glances. From just looking at them try to fix their already beautiful selves to fit other people's expectations. To watch them layer on makeup in order for them to look pretty for people that judge them. A lot of other people might not care, but I care. I couldn't care less if you didn't care, but I care about my friends more than I care about myself. And I hate the people that hurt them. So please, don't make me hate you. Please, just please consider what your doing before you judge them, before you unintentionally hurt them. Because one whisper, one little glance at their outfit, at their hair, at themselves in general, could scar them. And this could scar them until they're gone. And it would be all your fault.

For my friends. For the people that hurt. For the people I care about. Whether your insanely popular or super athletic or a visual goddess or just normal, just know I love you. You are beautiful inside and out. You are wanted. You are loved. You are precious to me, so please don't ever hurt me by leaving me. I've lost so much already, I don't want to lose you too. Please stick in this world, because if other people don't love you, just know I do. You make me smile just by thinking of you. Everytime someone asks if your my friend, I proudly say yes. Because no matter what, through anything, I will always love you. Even if I turn out to hate you because your fake or you hate me, the things is, I really don't. I can't hate someone I loved. I may think badly of you, but there will always be a part of my heart that loves you.

And to anyone that needs me, I'm just a quick text or phone call away. I'm right here. I won't tell you things will get better, in fact, I'll probably cry with you. Use me if you need someone that loves you. To a lot of you, I'm not your best friend, I'm not usually the first person you think of when you need help in life. And I understand that. But I can be your rock, I can be your pillar. I can, and I always will, love you. So please, before you think of going, please just text or call or email me. Because I'm always here, I'm waiting to talk to you. At the moment, I can't be there with you as I'm stuck at home, but if I was there, I could probably tell something was up. And it kills me not to be there and just talk to you. I miss all of you. But I'm right here. Please, just please reach out to me if your hurting. Like I said before, I've lost so much....I can't lose you too.

Love,

Nessa.