My home (Completed)

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                       We sat in the car for a while in silence. So indeed I had mentioned something when I had been drunk that night. He was staring ahead, his face blank.
               "Why do you think so?"I asked after a while. He scoffed.
            "You still want to lie to me yet I know."he started. "That night your were drunk you laughed clapping your hands and congratulating yourself saying you had finally left everything behind and starting afresh. Then I asked you In truth or dare expecting the same answer but you said you were taking a gap year and you had come this side just to tour and work a bit, no big deal."he sighed. Then looked me in the eye.
         "So why did you lie to us and what exactly are you doing in hopefield?"he asked. So, I told him after all he knew half the truth.

         "The major reason is I don't want to be a doctor, and dad is not changing his mind about it. Then I don't really like it back at home, no one minds me or let me say I lacked a sense of belonging there. My siblings are best friends with each other and I am left out, my dad has girls and women and kids, I don't really know our number and the mere fact that he is still running after every skirt that he sees is so embarrassing. You know the woman in the house now is only twenty four, she is the same age as some of my sisters. Only six years older than me and she is supposedly my mom "I sniffed as his gaze softened. "All I wanted was to be away from all that ruckus, to just make my money and be happy cause I wasn't happy there I don't even know where my mom lives."I was now crying full mode.

         "Please don't blow me up, I will make enough money and leave the girls' apartment and go anywhere else. But until I make money please don't blow me up."I cried holding his hand in pleading. He sighed then pulled me in for a hug.
           "I could never do that to you, your special to my brother and he is special to me."he sighed again. "Just promise me you love us as friends and your not actually using us or something." I was on his chest still crying my eyes out.
          "You guys are the best thing that ever happened to me and am grateful, I could never use any of you "he sighed again.
         "Then don't lie, tell all of them."he mumbled. "They won't judge you, I promise. You are now one of us and that is the bond we share." I cried harder. Now they would know am running away from my past and they won't treat me the same. What if they are all convinced am using them to reach my goals. I wiped my tears and sat up, held Jack's hand again.

          "Give me your word that you won't tell on me. That you will give me the chance to tell them for myself."I sniffed.
   He nodded then hugged me again and I relaxed, that has passed but how was I gonna tell the rest, what if they didn't handle it like Jack. My sins ate gonna catch up with me soon, they are gonna eat me alive.

                It had been a month since Jack had known and like he promised he hadn't told a soul though he had asked me if I was sure I didn't want therapy since I didn't have much self love and I had assured him I was good.
       Carl and I were dating though he hadn't yet asked me to be his girlfriend. But it was a smooth sailing for us since we went out whenever we could and on weekends I would hung around the beach with him since he had to Bay watch and yes, I had also saved one five year old though he hadn't drowned, he had twisted his ankle while running around with friends. Since I didn't know how to swim Carl had introduced me to his college friend at the beach who was training to be a life coach and since he was interning at the beach swimming pool, he was giving me free lessons every weekend when I went there.
      
              Basically according to Carl, survival skills were important and he had encouraged me to try swimming, it was so fun this friend of his, Luke, had a good sense of humor. Ni and Sona had been fighting alot lately and she had been crying alot too worrying Lucy and I so we would do our best to cheer her up at times I would drag her along to the beach with me, such stuff. Lucy was still seeing this Charlie guy and she couldn't stop blubbering about him. I guessed my prayer was going through, she was falling for him and he had dropped by the apartment a few times . Work was going great and though with hardships, I had gotten my first salary and since I wasn't officially their worker it was just generous enough to cater for me on which note I had bought matching black beanies and grey scurfs for all of us after all autumn was soon.

           Essy on the other hand was rare, I mean he was so absent these days. He even missed one sleep over which Lucy didn't take lightly and that sleep over hadn't ended well, since Ni and Sona resorted to another fight.
           Carl had also told me they had known each other since middle school though they became some kind of friend group in high school. And they had all applied to the college in langebaan so they wouldn't separate although the separation would be inevitable once they were done with college and that was in two year's time. I wondered where I would be by then. And I had been smiling more lately.

I finally had a home and a family.