Worth It 𖧵 [TXT Yeonjun]

Chapter 20: My Window

Hana's POV:
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I dropped my backpack by the door, took my shoes off, and didn't hesitate to jump on my couch.

I was exhausted.

Apart from actual school, my day had been unbelievable.

And I don't know if "unbelievable" is good or bad at this point.

Detention... was surprisingly better than expected...

I got to see Minji, it had felt like forever since I last saw her...

Yeonjun wasn't as bad as I remember thinking he was, I actually kind of enjoyed myself-

I looked down at my hands.

My fingers and knuckles wrapped in children's Hello Kitty band-aids, courtesy of stubborn Yeonjun.

I softly smiled, small gestures never really mattered to me- and maybe it's because they have Hello Kitty all over them- but I think Yeonjun might be winning me over...

I could still vividly remember our conversation after detention...

Yeonjun had seemed out of it throughout the time we spent together, he slipped up at some point and had mentioned he didn't want to go home-

I tried not thinking of it, but I couldn't help but feel a bit worried.

I tried cheering him up but he had caught me off guard as I tried making my escape.

"... Why did you do that... ?" he asked, loud enough for me to hear.

I slowly turned to face him, "What?-"

"Just tell me if you hate me- I don't want to keep wondering" Yeonjun told me.

My heart almost dropped-

I had no idea that's how Yeonjun felt, he got the wrong idea.

He sounded so... genuinely hurt...

This whole time he must've thought I had some sort of resentment towards him-

It hurt to finally hear how he felt, which was odd-

I've had numerous people ask if I hated them, which I most likely did, but hearing it from Yeonjun made me feel horrible.

I stammered to form a sentence, so some time in silence followed.

I tend to be stubborn myself, so I felt almost triggered, I didn't want to seem like the bad guy for once.

"Do you think it's fun having you on my mind all the time?" I said before thinking.

I still remember Yeonjun's face, he seemed confused, it was honestly kind of funny.

It quickly became an awkward situation I really wanted to get out of.

"I'll admit, it was dumb of me to put up a line when i'm the same person who crossed it-" I said as I glanced down at the floor.

I exhaled and finally looked up at Yeojun, making eye contact.

"I don't hate you- I just can't stand people." I gave him a terrible excuse, while staying expressionless as possible.

Without another word, I turned back around and left Yeonjun behind me as I made my way home.

Thinking back on it now, it wasn't as bad as I thought it was in the moment.

I've started to notice how much I lie- I hope me leaving all of the sudden didn't make Yeonjun feel any worse-

I suddenly realized how cold my apartment was-